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Remember how how I said that maybe I had ovarian cysts that were preventing my cycle from coming? Well, it finally did come on CD 47 (!!!) which is the latest I have ever been without being pregnant. But I really don’t know why it was so late. 

On CD 44 I went to see my RE. We basically had a pre-conception consultation and talked about the possible cysts and ran blood work to check where all my hormones are falling at now. Progesterone was elevated so I definitely did ovulate, according to the Dr, which I was almost certain I had. And I am about 100% certain I didn’t ovulate late yet I was 3 weeks late to start….? All the other tests came back within normal levels. (Testosterone, thyroid, FSH etc) 
They did an ultrasound while I was there and the Dr asked if I had ever been diagnosed with PCOS because my ovaries almost looked that way. Even I could definitely see lots of black spots (cysts) on them. I told him I hadn’t been diagnosed with that before (thankfully!) so he ordered AMH on the blood work as well. It came back at 6.87ng/ml which is within normal range but actually higher than when I was 22. ETA: I am actually a little confused about this. Higher AMH is usually thought to be good because it points to higher ovarian reserve, but I’ve also read that it can indicate PCOS…  He didn’t say anything about the cysts making my cycle late though so maybe my theory was bogus. The Dr didn’t seem overly concerned about the cysts…? I am supposed to follow up in Feb. 

He asked if I wanted to give a couple cycles of medicated TI a try before doing a SA and possibly moving on to other treatment (I am thinking if we move on to more advanced treament, it would probably be AT LEAST another year). I decided to go ahead and try Femara 2.5mg for 2 months. Because, why not…. If he thinks it’s worth a try then I might as well try it. I opted not to take Clomid because I had such a horrible time on it last time I tried it 6 years ago. I’ve never tried Femara before but I am on day 2 of 5 now. I guess we will see how it goes. I have realistic expectations but I also know what my God can do so I am leaving it in His hands. So, yeah, that’s where I am at right now. Very thankful for good test results! 馃檪 

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This week I started my Lovenox shots (blood thinner). Tru over heard me telling DH that I had started my shots and later Tru saw the bandaid on my belly and asked if I got a “turtle shot”. Smart little boy!

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Turtle power!

 

I signed the boys up for swim lessons! I am super excited about it. I hope they enjoy it and learn quickly. The only down-side is they are in the evenings (tired babies). But I think they will have fun. 馃檪

 

I also decided to join a gym. I haven’t actually went and paid yet but I am just not able to push a 90lb stroller in 90+ degree heat and crazy humidity. Plus I only like to walk on tracks and the best one is too far to realistically go there multiple times a week.聽I want to work on my core strength. My legs and arms are quite strong, it’s my back and abs that feel weak. My sister wants to join with me so, Yay for a work out buddy! 馃檪

 

I’ve been working on my yard and gardens pretty much every day. I am really happy with how everything is looking. 馃檪

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My tacky watering system for transplants. Seems to be helping them along. This is a lilac.

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A splash of color from my flower beds.

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The pansies on my porch.

 

And of course, we are still enjoying our Critter pet. He’s fun to watch and both boys love him. Levi squeals with delight every time he sees Critter up and moving. 馃檪

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“Dank you for dis food.”

After repeated calls to the clinic all resulting in being sent to voicemail, I finally caved and asked the front desk for a nurse. (I know they have a billion other patients but come on people, I’m special. 馃槈 J/K) The front desk lady was RUDE RUDE RUDE!!!! She said things like “If you would let me talk…” and “If you would have started by letting me know you talked to Becky….”. She was trying to set me up for an appointment to get my results. I believe my exact answer was “No frickin’ way!!” She obviously didn’t like that. I told her I didn’t care which nurse I talked to. She was stuck on Becky because I talked to Becky yesterday. I said it didn’t matter and she said “Actually, that’s not the way it works.”聽Very condescending. I kindly hung up on her whilst saying thank you. That’s nice right? No? My bad.聽Remind me not to go to that clinic any more. They are too far away anyways….聽

Ok, now that I have that off my chest!! The number came back at 459 which doubled from 176 two days ago and is a doubling time of 30.37 hours which is awesome. That is a much more acceptable number according to Dr Google. I am shocked because I had actually given up. My back has ached so bad today since the middle of the night. It is crazy bad. I finally took some Tylenol and it didn’t do a thing!! I also haven’t eaten today yet. I tried to eat some crackers but I almost threw up. I wasn’t sure if it was stress causing the sickies or a baby. I guess it was the baby. I feel better now though so….聽

That’s about the gist of it all. I guess we will start PIO tonight since it arrived today. I’m done cheating to get extra betas. I swear. No, I actually don’t swear. We shall see, ok? How’s that?

Dear God, Thank You for a good beta today!! Please continue to provide according to Your will. In Jesus’ name, amen.聽

I am getting ready to go for another beta. I have been up since around 4am this morning full of cramps, back pain and fear. The intense nausea I felt yesterday and had been feeling increasingly for the last week or so it much subsided. But that happened a lot in my pregnancy with Tru. Come and go symptoms for weeks. My POAS was lighter today than the first one I took but yesterday’s was darker than the day before. I am obsessing too much. Those things are crap anyways…. I hope.聽

Incidentally, today is our 6th wedding anniversary. Yesterday we spent the day browsing the Amish stores in our area and walking out at the lake. A relaxed and happy day. A good distraction. But today Dh is back at work and I am a googleaholic.聽

I wish I never googled “hcg 176 at 17dpo” or “hcg 176 at 16dpo” which is probably where I was when I had my first beta. Let me tell you… not a lot of encouraging stories with betas that low that late. I also feel terrible for googling it because – God has already done the impossible. I already got pregnant naturally which was NEVER supposed to happen. So why am I doubting that this baby will stick around?聽

I can’t seem to sense the presence of this little one which DH thinks is a bunch of silliness anyways. But I swear, I could sense Tru’s presence as well as the presence of the other babies I had transfered and I could tell when they had gone. DH thinks I only sensed their presence because I knew they had been transfered. Maybe. But it is making me nervous.聽

The cramping doesn’t help either. I had loads of it with Tru and would be worried if I didn’t have any but this low back pain is pretty disconcerting.聽

Like I said, I should be trusting God. He’s already done the impossible. I just crave reassurance. I crave nice big beta numbers and good rises. The funny thing is, a cousin of DH’s posted her pregnancy announcement on FB yesterday. A positive confirmation pee test her Dr took. A pee test people. She was 4 weeks 5 days. A pee test. Not a beta. Normal people don’t usually do betas. They don’t sit around and stress out and loose sleep because their beta is a few points low or because it didn’t double as fast as lucy101 on babyandbump. Ya know what I mean?聽

My RE called yesterday morning and told me that I definitely need to be on progesterone support. He wanted to order me Crinone but I HATE Crinone so he ordered me PIO. Butt shots are so much more preferable to oozy stuff in the whooha. Those shots are supposed to come today. Yesterday he had me take a Prometrium. I did have my progesterone checked but I don’t know if the results are back yet and they were low or if he is just being proactive. At any rate, he wouldn’t let me have another beta till Friday (!!!!) 4 days (4 DAYS) after the first one. Thankfully my regular GYNO’s office decided I could have one today. Pray for me, or rather, for the baby.

Dear God, please sustain the life of this precious little baby according to Your will. Thank You for the joy and blessing of carrying it and for the miracle that it is. In Jesus’ name, amen.聽

I am in a complete state of shock right now. I don’t even know where to begin. I don’t even know how to announce this. I know that there is no easy way for me to break this news to those who are suffering from IF right now. I know how it feels. But I also know that there is a certain amount of hope that comes from reading these kinds of stories. So I will dive right in and tell you that聽I am pregnant.聽Infertile me. Wife of infertile DH. Pregnant. Naturally. Us who have less than 1% chance of conceiving naturally based on DH’s sperm count alone. Add my problems in there and…. you get the point. We were not trying. I wasn’t sure we had even BD on ovulation because we weren’t trying to hit that day. I guess we did!!聽

Total shock. This morning I woke up feeling crampy like AF was coming any minute, or already here. The way I have felt for days now. I looked at my calendar and was actually able to remember when my last AF was. June 18. That makes today CD 34. I think I have been ovulating late, maybe around CD 18. Which makes me almost 5 weeks. Anyways, I remembered some OPKs I had bought last week that were still out in the truck. I got out of bed and went to get them. I had read that聽sometimes OPKs could be used at HPTs if the hCG was high enough. I was praying that if God wanted me to be pregnant, then good and if not then I would just go about my day waiting for AF.聽

Top OPK with FMU. Middle OPK a few hours later. HPT from Dollar Store.

Top OPK with FMU. Middle OPK a few hours later. HPT from Dollar Store.

Positive! 3 hours after obsessively googling (yes, 3 hours), and reading that OPKs are possibly more likely to be positive if you are pregnant using FMU than later in the day, I took another. Fainter but still there for sure. I finally got off my butt and went to the dollar store to get a $1 HPT. Brought it home and positive! I immediately called my RE, MFM and regular GYNO trying to get ahold of someone who could order me a beta.聽

Dollar store test. Same brand as I took with Truett.

Dollar store test. Same brand as I took with Truett.

I drove to town and waited in the hospital parking lot. Almost an hour (!!!!) after calling, they all called me back at almost the same time. I almost hung up on the nurse at the GYNO because my REs office was calling in. I got my beta, progesterone and estrogen drawn almost an hour (!!!!!) after I talked to them. My MFM聽wouldn’t order the beta for me so I am glad that the RE’s office did. The nurse at my MFM’s office said that with 3 positive tests, I didn’t need any blood work and she had me schedule a U/S, intake and first appointment.聽

Since the RE’s office wasn’t supposed to get my beta results until tomorrow (it was almost 4pm when I got it drawn), I stopped by Walgreen’s and dropped $20 (more than I have ever paid for a HPT) on a Clearblue Weeks Indicator.聽

The expensive but WAYYYYYYY cheaper than IVF test.

The expensive but WAYYYYYYY cheaper than IVF test.

Positive 2-3 weeks. I then got a call from the RE while DH was driving me to pick up the Lovenox 聽that my MFM ordered. (Took my first shot today.) Beta 176! A little low for 17dpo but I WILL TAKE IT!!! God brought us this far. He can take us all the way if it is His will.聽

Daddy's surprise. ;)

Daddy’s surprise. 馃槈

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I told DH by giving him a baby shower gift bag with pink, blue and yellow tissue paper with 2 tests. Utter shock!!! He kept saying “Are you serious?” He is beside himself with happiness. He immediately called his mom and we showed the test to my parents and siblings and 1 cousin. He also called his sister. We are pretty trigger happy. But we want to rejoice while we have the opportunity and be happy in the moment. I don’t want to waste a moment of this pregnancy being pessimistic, even though that is my usual tendency. I know that our first reaction is to guard our emotions, but that doesn’t change the outcome.聽

To those IRL, sorry I didn’t have the time or energy to call you individually. I know that your pants are shocked off either way! Love you guys. Pray for us please. 馃檪聽

It is still so crazy early. 4 weeks 5 days. Please pray for us that the beta will double appropriately and that God will continue to watch over this precious little surprise. I am just praying that God will sustain the life of this little one according to His will. Please God! In Jesus’ name, amen.

聽聽聽聽聽 Wow! The last few days have been yucky. It all started with some spotting. That was scary enough! Then I freaked out because I was almost sure the Dr had told me I was 0- blood type. So I would need rhogam right? Well, yes I would except that I remembered wrong… I’m actually 0+. The Dr’s office called me yesterday on the weekend to let me know I did not need the shot. There are all kinds of speculations as to the origination of the spotting…. I no sooner got done having that drama than I came down with a UTI and had to go to the Urgent Care because my back hurt and I was passing blood. As always. Really, what’s new? I’ve done this whole UTI/kidney infection thing literally more times than I can remember. I’m forever passing blood. (I know you all wanted to hear about that!) 馃槈 So I’m on an antibiotic (keflex) and hopefully I’ll be rid of this infection soon.
聽聽聽聽 My morning sickness has kicked up a notch and its been hard to drink, eat, move… I promise I’m not complaining. I longed to be pregnant for years and I will gladly take all the nausea it happens to give me. The symptoms are actually not too bad in my case since I’m not working and its ok if I wake up and lay on the couch till my nausea lets up enough to eat breakfast. (Usually by 1pm).
聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 Ive been thinking I should add my 2 cents on PIO since I’ve been on it for almost 8 weeks. I love it. Yes, I know that sounds odd but I did crinone with my first IVF and can you say discusting? I also took prometium many years ago and it made me very dizzy. If you have to take progesterone, PIO is the way to go. Your butt will hurt on PIO a little but who needs a butt anyways? I’m no doc but these are my butt-saving tips.
路Do yourself a favor and DON’T ice before. I never have iced because my goal is to melt the PIO into the muscle not leave a frozen lump in there. The shot is suprising not that bad for such a daunting needle. I loved the 25gauge 1 1/2″ needles I was using but I haven’t been able to get them except for the first 2 weeks. I now use 23gauge and they’re pretty good.
路I use a microwave gel pack afterwards sometimes to warm the oil in my Southern Cheeks. I don’t always but it does help.
路Massaging afterwards is good. Wait a few minutes though or it will make it bleed worse.
路If you can have someone else do it, that’s nice.
路Insert needle very fast. You almost don’t feel it. That or my butt is numb.
路Inject s l o w l y. Ever so slowly.
This is what works for me. Your tushy may be different. 馃槈
聽聽聽聽聽 As for Lovenox? You tell me. I have the worst time with that shot. I guess you grit your teeth and try to remember to breath. And never show anyone your tummy. You will hear gasps.
聽聽聽聽聽 I still love my doppler. At first I could usually find the baby in 30 seconds. Now it swims away and its hard to find. I think it doesn’t like the doppler. Sorry baby! Mommy loves to hear you!
聽聽聽聽聽聽 God, thank you for my baby and please make my body a safe place for this baby now and through the months ahead. Please help me carry this baby to full term and healthy! In Jesus name, amen.

I am in shock, absolute shock!!! My beta came back today at 250 (drawn yesterday). The nurse never called me so I finally called her and asked her the number. When she told me I just burst out crying and crying and crying and had to get off the phone. Then I just dropped to my knees and thanked God. When my DH came into the house I was still sobbing my eyes out. He thought it was negative then. I read all these places where people say after the first beta that they are cautiously optimistic. I’m just flat out excited and I know I probably shouldn’t be getting quite so excited quite so soon but I can’t help it! We’ve already told practically everyone. I really hope I have a good number on the 15th when I have my next beta….
聽聽聽聽聽 My symptoms so far have been nausea for the last 4 days, extra saliva and a taste of metal at all times in my mouth. I didn’t bother to mention the symptoms to DH because I thought it was probably estrogen related. But my ovaries have swollen back up and are painfull again. I had such bad cramps last night it woke me up several times. I still have not peed on a stick but I think I will soon because I want to see one positive finally!
聽聽聽聽聽 These are the things that I did differently this cycle, but I’m not saying this is why it worked so far.
Ate pineapple core and soaked my feet in hot water for 5 days after transfer.
Did no bed rest – just lived pretty normally. I did rest on the day of ET though.
Took lovenox and baby aspirin for MTHFR mutation.
Used PIO instead of crinone.
Used the Vivelle dot patch.
Laid on my stomach for 15 minutes after ET.
Stressed a lot less.
And above all else… tried to trust that God would work it all out. Something that I’m still working on. After so many years of infertility I am still in shock. I didn’t think that it could happen. I really didn’t. I had all but given up yesterday, I wanted to quit my shots and everything. Oh God, please make this continue to work out according to Your will. Please continue to sustain the lives of these precious little ones. In Jesus name, Amen.

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聽聽聽 Well here we are 5 days past transfer already. Our doctor felt that a 2 day transfer would be better for our embabies since we only have 3. This is their first picture and Lord willing there will be many more to come. I’m in love with them already. I so hope that they will live and implant. They are all grade2,聽 4cell. But to me they’re absolutely perfect! So far I’ve been very sleepy and very hungry. That’s the same symptoms I had with my last IVF for the first week. After that I started having anxiety attacks. 馃槮 I sincerly hope that doesn’t happen this time. I like being tired and napping all day, and being hungry and nibbling all evening… it passes the time! Yesterday I started having some cramping and that has carried over into today as well. Please God let this be implantation!!
聽聽聽聽聽 I’ve been soaking my feet in warm water everyday for just a few minutes. I read somewhere, sometime that it helps to keep circulation going to the uterus. Who knows! But I thought it was worth a try. I’ve also been eating a piece of pineapple core everyday. That alone should prove how bad I want this to work. I hate pineapple! It almost makes me gag but I’ve been putting it in a smoothie. I just hold my nose and chug it down.
聽聽聽聽聽 My lovenox injections have my tummy pretty badly bruised now. I don’t like those shots because they burn so much, but what’s my moto?? Anything for my baby(s)!
聽聽聽聽聽 When DH gave my PIO shot the other night, I got the giggles for some reason. I never find the PIO shot itself to be painful in the least. In fact, it’s really not any worse than a Lupron injection with an insulin needle. I know that must sound ridiculous considering that my DH shoves nearly a whole inch and a half of huge needle into my behind. I must be going numb back there now or something. Anyways, I get more of a tickling sensation when the needle is in… So my DH says to me, as I’m laughing my head off, “blood is spewing out”!! He was starting to genuinely freak which was just making me laugh harder and harder because that’s the nice kind of person that I am. He finally pulled out the needle and showed me how it was covered in blood. I started laughing even harder. I don’t know what possessed me but I guess the idea of laying there with my naked butt up in the air “spewing” blood was just too much for my hormone addled brain. I finally got up the nerve to look back and found a small pen head amount of blood. So, I guess DH is just queasy. It’s a good thing he doesn’t have AF!!! He’s such a trooper. I couldn’t do this without him. For more reasons than just the obvious!
聽聽聽聽聽 If only there was some way to make time pass until beta day. The whole process of IVF is a mere walk in the park compared to the 2 week wait. It might as well be 2 years, or 2 decades, or 2 lifetimes. Once it’s over it seems like it went pretty fast but at the time, it just drags by. I guess in a way, if it’s bad news I never want to find out. But if it’s good news I just can’t wait! Heck, I’ve already waited 4 and a half years. I think that they ought to just knock me unconscious until beta day. After all, they tell me to relax! And that is basically impossible when I’m worried about little embabies. Oh well. It’s not like I’m the only one who’s ever had to wait… I guess.
聽聽聽聽聽 Another thing I hate is that
stupid term PUPO, a.k.a. “pregnant until proven otherwise”.聽 I hate it because it says pregnant UNTIL proven OTHERWISE, like there’s no possitive alternative! It sounds so gloom and doom. Perhaps if it said pregnant UNLESS proven otherwise. I don’t know I just want to be pregnant and not proven anything but pregnant for a whole freakin 9 months. That would be an absolute dream come true. An answer to my dearest prayer. Oh God, please sustain the lives of these babies You have created, according to Your will. In Jesus name, amen.

聽聽 Well what a whirlwind of the last few days! At my follicle check on Monday I had 11 mature follicles and my estrogen was 3761. I took my last dose of Lupron that night along with my trigger shot of Ovidrel. I had been feeling incredibly nauseous the last few days and I could tell I was coming down with a UTI so I had them check me for one on Monday and yep! Sure enough I had a full blown urinary tract infection. So on Tuesday I started on macrobid. I was feeling quite a bit worse by then and I had to stay at a hotel near my doctor that night so I would be close for my appointment first thing Wednesday morning.
聽聽聽聽 I was at the hotel about 3 hours when lo and behold there goes a bedbug walking right across my sheet. I grabbed the bug and took it to the front desk where the clerk tried to tell me it was an ant. Okay, I might look stupid but I did used to have an ant farm and that was no freakin ant. They wouldnt refund my money, but who cares, I certainly wasn’t staying there after that!!! So, on to another hotel where I stayed up half the night washing and drying my clothes and taking a shower hoping to kill any bed bugs that may have gotten on me. It gives me the heebie jeebies just thinking of it. After a full night of freaking out and not too much sleep, I got up to go to my appointment which I was nearly 20 minutes late for due to getting lost coming from the other direction. And all the while desperately trying to keep that vial of DH’s liquid gold warm. I felt a lot better once I took my valium. I hardly cared anymore. The nurse took 3 tries to get me hooked up to my IV and then another poke for a blood draw. So 4 nice pretty bruises. Then they took me back to a room, knocked me out and that’s pretty much the last thing I remember till I woke up. I have somewhat distant and blurry thoughts of words that I heard them say but it’s hard to know if it was a dream or not. The doctor retrieved 9 eggs, 5 of which were mature and 3 fertilized. Since we only have 3 he’s shooting for a day 2 transfer which is tomorrow morning at 10 a.m.
聽聽聽聽聽 I feel pretty good today aside from that “kicked in the ovaries” feeling. DH has been so good at giving me my progesterone shots the last 2 nights. I really don’t think the poke is too bad, it’s just all the pain afterwards that I don’t like. Kinda feels like someone kicked me in my butt cheeks. I tried putting a hot pack on afterwards and massaging and I can’t imagine how much worse it would be if I hadnt done that. But really it’s the lovenox injections that I hate. Boy do those sting!! I can’t wait until Sunday so I can take my tummy to church and have them pray over these embabies. The only thing is it will be a bit hard to tell everyone about these embabies when I haven’t told a lot of them about our IVF. I want it to work this time sooooo bad. I was a bit disappointed that we didn’t have any eggs to freeze but I kind of knew that would happen. And hopefully we won’t need them anyways. I hope this is the cycle that gives us our sticky baby (or babies). 馃槈
聽聽聽聽聽聽 Well, that’s all for now. I’m off to bed to get some rest before my transfer. I’ve been dreaming about babies every night. I hope that’s a good sign! 馃檪

Well, here I am on my ninth day of stimming. I have been oh so terrible at keeping this updated! Between going to the doctor for my every other day appointments, and trying to remember to live the rest of my life, it’s hard to keep updating. So far so good. I have an appointment in the morning and hopefully will find out when I trigger. At my appointment yesterday morning I had 9 good size follicles and a bunch of small ones. My estrogen level was a lot lower than last time and I must admit I do feel a lot better this time so far! I was hoping for a little bit more than 9 follicles since I want eggs to freeze but I’ll take what I can get at this point. I’ll put all the details into my IVF#2 protocol page.
聽聽聽聽聽 Sometimes I just sit here and seriously wonder how I’ve gotten this far. If you had told me 2 years ago that I would be doing IVF I would not have believed you. I wouldn’t have wanted to in the first place. I remember how I used to judge people who worked to have a baby so hard. Actually I’ve never even know anyone who’s done IVF so their efforts were far from what I’m doing now! I always wondered why they couldn’t just content themselves with adopting a child. Oh how naive I was! I understand now… Maybe someday I will adopt a child but when/if I do, I want to do it for the right reasons and not because infertility has forced me to walk down that path. I feel like no child should be brought into a home were the parent doesn’t truly embrace that idea. And I don’t embrace that idea yet. Sometimes I feel guilty that I’m not just giving a needing child a home. Maybe someday I will get to that point… But not because infertility has forced me to. It will have to be a work that God does in my heart. I don’t know why I just went down that rabbit trail. I guess it’s just something I’ve been thinking about.
聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I have been so nauseous for about 4 or 5 days now. I didn’t feel this way on my last cycle and I know that stim medicine is not supposed to cause nausea. I keep thinking that I’m coming down with the flu. I don’t know what the deal is but it sure is annoying! I wouldn’t mind if it was morning sickness or something fun like that. 馃槈 And my poor vein in my arm has been poked so much this week that I have a huge bruise on my arm and its so sore in that spot. What I wouldn’t do for a baby!!!! I realized the extent of this truth when my latest medicine arrived in the mail being derived from the intestinal mucos of some creature. Eww… and I have to inject that! In fact, these days it seems I put a veritable cocktail in my body! So many hormones. To demonstrate here’s a picture.

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Everything in this picture is being used on my current cycle. So far I have used a vial of Lupron and started in on a new one, 1 – 900 IU and 1 – 300 IU pen of Gonal – F, I have 2 Ovidrel injections to take 36 hours before egg retrieval. After egg retrieval I start on an antibiotic to prevent infections, at that time I also start once daily lovenox injections and once daily PIO injections and baby asprin. There is also some good old valium to take before egg retrival and embryo transfer but I got by last time without taking it so who knows! It does freak me out on a regular basis just how much stuff I put in my body. Like I said, what I wouldn’t do for a baby!!!
聽聽聽聽聽 I just can’t wait until all this struggle is a thing of the past and I get to be worried about my brand new baby instead of the lack thereof. Sometimes when I’m facing this I just feel like there’s no end in sight. I could give up, but if I give up then I haven’t accomplished anything and all the struggle has just been in vain. With my last IVF, I really didn’t think I would ever do it again unless I was trying for sibling for my baby. But I’ve decided I’m not going to try to number my cycle attempts in my mind anymore. What happens, happens. It takes as many tries as it takes and I can’t force it to take any less. Yes, there has to be a balance and I can’t spend my entire life on infertility treatments but I don’t want to limit what is supposed to be… I would hate to think that I gave up 1 cycle before my baby was going to be created. God is the giver of life, even in IVF. I give this cycle to Him. What He chooses to do is His will.

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