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This week has been so full and busy! Amidst the prep for the joint bridal shower that my sisters and I threw for our sister and sister-in-law, we also had our anatomy scan and 18 week checkup. The anatomy scan was great and I can’t say enough how awesome the sonographer was. She really took her time and explained everything to us. Sometimes when people hear that this is our 4th baby, they just assume we know everything, but actually there’s a lot that is checked on the anatomy scan that I didn’t know about! She walked us through each detail and gave us some really great pics. She also confirmed that baby is absolutely still w boy. Or, as the Dr put it, “nothing fell off.” πŸ˜‚

Thankfully DH was able to leave work early and go with me, which was a treat for both of us. My sisters babysat so we even crammed in a little date. πŸ˜‰ Our appointment was at 1pm for the ultrasound. It lasted about 40 minutes. Then we headed to the cafeteria for lunch before our 2:45pm checkup. We literally spent 6 minutes waiting for and talking to the Dr, there just wasn’t much to say. She didn’t have the ultrasound report back but she did clear me to fly so we can book our vacation. πŸ™‚ 

After that, we hit up several stores looking for bikes for Tru and Levi. It was Levi’s birthday that day and we really wanted to get him a big boy bike. It wouldn’t be any fun for him to ride alone, so we bought Tru one too. Levi also got sunglasses and we got all the boys lifejackets to wear at the beach if that’s where we end up vacationing. Then we grabbed some quick supper at steak and shake so we could get home to eat ice cream cake with Levi for his birthday. πŸ™‚ 

The bridal shower was Saturday and it went amazingly well. The venue we booked was gorgeous and took very little decorating to get it ready for the party. The games were hilarious, particularly watching the girls get dressed in toilet paper dresses. They received so many awesome gifts as well. πŸ˜‰ 

So, today I had planned to go to church and then take the boys to ride their bikes at the track. Unfortunately, we pulled into church and I heard that all too familiar sound of retching. I got the van door opened as fast as I could and grabbed Levi out just in time to save a huge mess on the carpet. He proceeded to throw up 3 times in a few minutes, so needless to say, we sent a friend inside to let DH know we couldn’t stay. (He gets there early to set up and I bring the kids later.) I can’t figure where Levi got sick from since I purposely haven’t taken them anywhere for the last several days in an effort to avoid them getting sick when I was trying to throw the shower. (It’s been an hour and no more barf. πŸ™πŸ€ž) Yesterday my BIL brought his kids over to play while his wife and I were at the shower but their kids weren’t sick, so…. Idk. Maybe Levi just ate something this morning that didn’t agree with him. Tru and Levi were so disappointed to change our plans of bike riding, so I’m just waiting in town for a bit to see if any more barf happens or if we can still go. 

In pregnancy related news, the day after my last post were I said I couldn’t feel the baby kicking, he literally started giving me kicks at 17+2!! I’ve felt him every day since. (He’s actually kicking around right now.) Granted, it’s very light and I have to really pay attention, but I do feel some light taps and flops and flutters. He must have just been facing my back before. Also, according to our ultrasound he only weights 9oz, so he’s still quite tiny! I think he measured a day or two behind but I doubt my drs will change my due date. Cervix was 3.8cm. 

I’ve been experiencing some swelling to the point that my left ankle has a bruise in a ring around it from my socks yesterday. It makes it hard to judge my weight gain when I have swelling some days but not others. I think I’m up around 10-11lbs. Definitely trying to keep up with at least a few walks a week pushing the stroller with Zane. Getting workouts in at home is harder just due to the kids being around all the time. My pelvic pain is definitely still very present but I’ve been using kensio tape on my lower belly to lift and support. It’s amazing!! 

Other than that, I feel really good!! A tad more breathless than usual and maybe a tad more tired, but I’m definitely in the honeymoon phase of pregnancy! I don’t feel sick or queasy often at all and seldom for more than a few minutes at a time. Feeling the baby is just amazing and I’m definitely enjoying this trimester a lot more. πŸ™‚ 

Dear God, thank You for a wonderful week and for helping me feel so great. Thank You for a good ultrasound and the opportunity to bond with this sweet baby through kicks and his sweet pictures. Please help everything to keep going well. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

18 weeks 3 days

I don’t have this myself but I know someone who does. I’d like to hear about your experience if you have it and what type of treatment you do, if any. Particularly how it has impacted pregnancy for you. If you have any knowledge to impart, I’m all ears!! Thanks in advance. πŸ™‚ 

Oh Levi. How is it possible this kid is already turning 4 tomorrow?? How??? He’s been telling everyone “I’m turning 4 in March”. I don’t even know how he knows that because I don’t recall telling him that but this kid remembers darn near everything. Tomorrow we are planning to celebrate with chocolate cupcakes with chocolate icing and something about Mickey mouse on top. Hopefully I can find what he’s looking for! πŸ˜‰ He wants a bike really bad, so I hope to find him one tomorrow! (Not like I’m rushing around at the last minute or anything. πŸ™„)
Currently Levi is 39lbs, 41.75″ tall and growing like a weed! He’s super goofy and laughs all the time. He likes to make other people laugh too. He likes to sing with Mommy and play guitar, drums or keyboard with Daddy. He’s the one kid I can count on to hug me multiple times a day for no reason at all other than he loves me and has a high desire for affection. He’s constantly telling everyone in our family “I love you!”, including the dog. 
Levi’s artistic abilities have started to emerge rapidly the last couple months. He’s drawing real little people now with facial expressions and hair and glasses and everything. A few months ago I couldn’t decipher his scribbles but now it’s a clear picture. 😊 He loves to color but mostly to draw his own pictures (and sometimes color on his body… But we won’t talk about that). 

I can count on this boy to clean up and make his bed. Some days it takes some bribery and a lot of reminding and other days he’s on the job and getting it done faster than I can blink. It really just depends. One thing is for sure, Levi can be really really stubborn when he wants to be. But he’s also so soft hearted that he just can’t stay mad for long. He’d rather be having fun and back to playing, or watching his favorite shows which definitely do not include Sesame Street, for some reason. He loves to laugh when Caillou comes on and giggle while he asks me if I like that show because Levi knows I literally cannot stand it at all! (Caillou is some next level kind of annoying, let me tell you! But that’s another story.) 

Play dough, slime, markers, mud, finger paint… If it’s messy, Levi loves it. He plays hard and he sleeps hard. As long as Tru let’s him go to sleep at night, he’s usually out right away. But he’s also an early riser because he’s got things to do!! Naps are a thing of the past and aside from a rare nap once or twice a month, most days he just takes a quiet time in his room for a bit and colors or plays something quiet. Even though it’s not sleeping, his body definitely needs the rest period. Lately he’s been coming into our room once a night and snuggles for a few minutes and then goes back to bed. We asked him why and he said “I’m not cozy enough in my room.” I’m not sure what that means exactly but as long as he wants to climb in bed and snuggle for a few minutes, I’m ok with that. πŸ˜‰ 

Levi is a good eater almost all the time. There are days he swears he cannot stand whatever food it is that he positively loved just last week, but most days I can count on him to eat 3 square meals and at least 5,000 snacks. Sometimes there is a snack before I get a chance to get their breakfast! Usually breakfast is cereal or oatmeal followed by a snack about an hour later. Then lunch, which is usually a pb and honey sandwich (WHOLE, no halves for this boy) and maybe some fruit, or leftovers from supper, and then a snack a little later. Without fail, these boys are always trying to get a snack while I make supper. I try to hold them off 5 MORE MINUTES and then after supper they have another snack or two before bedtime. I can’t complain though. They snack pretty healthy. Yogurt, apples, bananas, cutie oranges, cheese, tortillas (🀒), carrots, raisins, lunchmeat… Basically whatever they can reach in the fridge. 😜 

Preschool has been pretty much the most exciting thing ever this year and even though we don’t get to do it every day right now, Levi begs and begs to do his school work. He’s gotten so much better at tracing the letters and numbers just in the last few months! At the beginning of the school year it was a painstaking process to make a letter or number but now he’s really good at it. He definitely knows all his colors well and lots of shapes. Categorizing (what would you wear in the winter, etc) and sequencing are some new things we are working on that he enjoys. πŸ™‚ 

I’m so thankful for a beautiful and fun year with my second little boy. He’s a pleasure to be around and I wouldn’t trade his hugs and “love you, mommy” for anything in the world! I love watching him grow and learn and bless us with his sweet and gentle personality. I love my Levi! πŸ’™ 
Dear God, thank You for a beautiful year with a beautiful boy. Please help us to raise him well and protect his sweet spirit and gentle qualities while also helping him grow in all his strengths. Please bless and protect Levi all throughout his life. Thank You for him in our lives. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

The question of the week is why do I not feel any baby movement yet?? I realize that I am still within the normal window of time to start feeling movement but I felt all my other babies weeks earlier than this. Even Levi, who had an anterior placenta. I am pretty sure I felt some flutters with this baby around week 15 but I’m definitely not feeling anything now. I’ve tried laying still and quiet and just focusing and I’ve tried listening with the doppler to see if I hear movement. Granted, I’m heavier this time around and listening with the doppler isn’t hugely helpful with hearing kicks. All I know is I am glad the anatomy scan is scheduled for next week and I hope I’ll see lots of kicks then. Hopefully I’ll start feeling movement soon! It’s seriously the best part of pregnancy and I feel so anxious to start feeling it. 

On to some highlights:

  • One thing that I’m very happy about is that the morning sickness is FINALLY gone! I still get occasional surges of queasiness but nothing at all like before. I woke up this morning feeling no nausea and just felt a rush of thankfulness to be done with that part of pregnancy. 
  • I’m feeling some Braxton Hicks lately which is not at all unusual for me by now. 
  • I can’t believe I am already having SPD pain. It seems this usually starts a lot later on for me. Some days it’s not too bad and then other days I’m hobbling around. I think it primarily flairs up from how I sleep. If I could just figure out how I’m sleeping that is causing it to hurt worse….
  • I’m still trying to get back on track with exercise. Some days I use my recumbent bike and some days I walk. Now that it’s getting warmer I’m enjoying taking the boys to walk the track. Zane is so cute riding along in the stroller smiling at everyone. I also downloaded some new yoga apps for pregnancy and I want to do that as much the SPD will allow. It feels good to be getting more active again! πŸ™‚ 
  • And a random tidbit, I can feel my uterus right below my belly button. My belly is definitely rounding out and taking on more of the basketball shape. I’m still wearing my regular clothes except for my one pair of maternity jeggings I bought several weeks ago. I need to pull out my maternity shirts though as my regular shirts are getting short.
  • I’ve gained almost 9 whole pounds already. 😩 Not thrilled about that but it is what it is. I’ve also gone up a cup size and have been super sore up top the last couple weeks. They feel so heavy and solid. It’s crazy how my body knows what to do and is going through all the changes like an old pro. 
  • Still having days were I’m completely exhausted and can fall asleep at the drop of a hat. Hopefully my energy level will improve a bit soon. I have so much to do around here now that the weather is getting better!

    Sorry it’s blurry…

    Dear God, I’d just love to feel this little baby moving around in there soon. Thank You for his beautiful little life. Please protect him and help him be strong and healthy. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

    I missed my update last week. The week was so crazy and just flew by in a whirl of wedding prep for my brother’s wedding and then post-wedding recovery. I actually wasn’t supposed to be very involved in the process, aside from being a bridesmaid. But in the end they were short a groomsman and I had pre-volunteered myself for kitchen duty in the event that a groomsman couldn’t be there. Then I somehow volunteered myself to make 100 cupcakes (my sister L came and helped me, thank goodness!) when the woman we asked to do them didn’t have time. As I was setting up the food ONE HOUR BEFORE THE CEREMONY, I discovered that due to an accidental lack of communication, the food my mom and sisters had prepped for the 70+ guests HADN’T BEEN COOKED YET!! Not only that, but some of the meat was still frozen. 😱😬 I’d already spent the morning making 15 cups of rice in 3 seperate batches and was just pouring the food into the warming pans. Yikes!!! So I ended up cooking shishkabob on the stove top in 2 batches in a stock pot, and my trusty instant pot cooked the 3rd batch. Everything finished at 3:27pm, at which point I grabbed my kids and ran from the kitchen to the sanctuary in time to sit down for the 3:30 wedding. Shew!!! Thankfully my older sister was able to wrestle Zane through the ceremony so I was free to run to the kitchen to stir the food in the warmers. All of my younger sisters made gorgeous bridesmaids and 2 of my younger brothers were handsome groomsmen. ❀️❀️❀️❀️ My brother and his wife had a beautiful little wedding and I’m so glad it’s over and we all pulled together and pulled it off for them. So thankful!! 

    Anyway, the pregnancy news is why you’re here so…. I’ve had a few rough days of nausea and a few that are much MUCH better. Restless legs are definitely a daily/nightly occurrence now but thanks to my friend J for sending me some magnesium spray a couple months ago, I’m actually able to get relief quickly! So, the magnesium is actually good for a lot of things, including insomnia and morning sickness. My sickness has been too powerful to be combatted by basically anything, but a few sprays of magnesium on my legs and low back at night and I’m able to calm the burning/crawling feeling in my legs and get some sleep!! In the past I’ve taken magnesium in pill or powder form, but when I’m struggling to get those options down, the spray is absolutely amazing to have! 

    I’m definitely having some more noticeable round ligament pain this week and a weird pulling pain in my right thigh/groin area. But since baby is growing very rapidly, that’s to be expected. I really just can’t wait to start feeling movement regularly! I’ve definitely felt a few flutters and felt a soft flopping feeling when I was laying in bed one night at 15+1. But no really obvious movement yet. I thought I’d feel baby soon since I have a fundal placenta this time, but nope. 

    And, I think that’s about it! My sister is getting married next month and at the advice of my hematologist, she has to get a pre-ttc clotting panel done next week. Hopefully she is good to go and doesn’t have any clotting disorders. Keep her in your prayers for good results!! It’s interesting though… Finding out that I had clotting issues was actually an answer to my prayers! I hoped something would come up that would be easily treatable and I could finally carry a pregnancy. Of course for my sister, finding out she has to take shots during pregnancy would be devastating! Crazy how life works sometimes. 

    Dear God, please help S to get good results at her dr appointment and to have healthy successful pregnancies in the future. Please continue to bless me and this baby in our pregnancy journey. Help us to stay safe and healthy. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

    15 weeks 6 days

    Edited to add: I forgot to say that I’m up 7lbs and I’m so happy that I started doing light workouts again. Starting slow and easy on the recumbent bike and doing squats. Hoping to add more stuff in as I build back up to working out again.  

    I found out today that Rocky is no longer at the shelter! I’m absolutely thrilled that he was “rescued”. (I’m not sure if that means he’s with a rescue group of if he was adopted. I didn’t ask the shelter specifically.)
    I am, however, a little miffed that despite providing a complete vet record, shot and de-worming schedule and a paper stating his approximate age when we adopted him, which would have made him roughly 16 months old now… All that and they still listed his description as NOT neutered (I had him neutered last May and he had the tattoo to prove it) and UNDER a year old. 😢 I mean, I get it. Mistakes happen. But really, I don’t think it should be that difficult to notice that a dog has been fixed and to check the vet records and see the appropriate age. But whatever. 

    What really made me sad is that they changed his name. And I do understand that the new owner would likely have changed his name anyway. But still … He knew his name. He answered to Rocky. Idk… 

    Anyway, I’m just so relieved and glad that he was in the shelter for “only” a month (poor Rocky 😒) and that he’s hopefully enjoying his new home. I really hope he’s in a home without small children or other pets and can just be happy and loved and live a good life. I’d be devastated if the update was that he’s still sitting there waiting and waiting…..

    Let’s get the gender reveal suspense out of the way before getting to the mundane details of the week. πŸ˜‰ Our elective ultrasound was at 14+4 and despite my worries that it wouldn’t be easy to see at this stage, I’m feeling pretty confident that the ultrasound was correct. πŸ™‚ I immediately saw the bits and gasped “It’s a BOY!!” and we started laughing. The sonographer wasn’t even looking for the gender yet as she wanted to get a head and femur measurement first to see if we were measuring on track. (Baby is measuring 3 days ahead at 15 weeks) It was just so obvious!! Haha!! DH was looking down for a second and heard me exclaim “It’s a BOY!!” and quickly looked up at the screen and just laughed. 

    Thankfully our other little boys who had been praying for a “girl baby” took it quite well. There was no crying (which I had been worried about) and Tru agreed that he loves the baby “even though” it’s not a girl. πŸ˜‚ I strongly believe the Lord knows what we need and apparently He wants us to have all the boys! The sonographer was the absolute best ever and printed Tru and Levi both a picture of the baby for their own to keep. They held onto those pictures all evening. The website said we would be getting 4 black and white prints and a sneak peek in 3d with no prints. In fact, we walked away with a gift bag containing probably 12 black and white pictures and a couple 3d. It was an awesome experience and I’m so glad we went. Baby boy was kicking and trying to flip the whole time. The sonographer remarked repeatedly that he’s very very busy. 😳 Oh my. Everyone has been asking if we are disappointed and all I can say is, I’m already so in love with this little boy there is just no way I could be disappointed. When I was a kid I always said I was going to have a bunch of boys! I’d have loved to have a daughter but at this point I’m just hoping I have awesome daughter-in-laws someday. πŸ˜‰

    So, the matter of a name… We are pretty sure we are going with Shye (gift) Bennett (blessed). We picked the name out a couple days before the ultrasound “just in case” baby ended up being a boy. 🀣 For the longest time DH was certain we were having a boy and then the last few days he switched to thinking it was a girl. I was pretty convinced baby was a girl, only because Tru and Levi talked me into it. πŸ˜‚ 

    Look at how he’s snuggling me!!

    That little button nose…

    See how obvious even at this early stage!

    He was trying to flip over here. He was putting those little legs over his head.

    Ok, on to the day to day. I had hoped and really believed that morning sickness would be gone by this point, at least mostly! I did start to have a lessening of intensity of symptoms and even managed to stop taking zofran except a couple times the past 2 weeks. But this week it’s like I’ve had a major regression and I’m almost back where I started in terms of sickness. I ran out of my unisom a few nights ago and I think that’s making a difference in the severity of nausea in the mornings, so I need to pick some more up. But the last 3 days have just been so bad again. I keep telling myself that it can’t last forever. Even if I end up being sick all the way till August, there is still an end date in sight. But I really really hope I’ll get that honeymoon phase of pregnancy where I feel awesome and the nausea is finally gone. 

    Despite feeling sick, I’ve still managed to put on 6lbs. I’d hoped it would be a bit less at this point but that’s not too bad really. πŸ™‚ I’ll admit, my diet has not been that healthy the last couple weeks. We’ve been busy and running a lot of errands and keep having to eat fast food. Hopefully we can chill out a little this week. My brother’s wedding is this weekend and I have 100ish cupcakes to make. Definitely going to need some time at home to get all those done! How it was decided that I could be trusted with such an important task is beyond me. I have literally had dreams about it twice….  And they weren’t good dreams either. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜³

    Speaking of dreams, oh my goodness!!! My dreams are driving me nuts lately. So vivid, so realistic and so loooooong. Sometimes the same dream continues all through the night. I wake up and fall asleep again and just continue the same boring dream. Mostly my dreams have centered around the 2 upcoming weddings and not getting ready in time. I sincerely hope this isn’t a sign that my brain thinks I won’t be able to prepare adequately for the baby! πŸ˜– If anything, I feel super prepared. I literally don’t need to buy anything except diapers and new binkies. And a dresser for clothes. Piece of cupcake! Nearly all of our baby stuff is still out from Zane. 

    Ok, this has gotten way longer than I intended so I’m going to go ahead and stop now. Hope you all enjoy your week!! πŸ™‚ Maybe at some point in our lives it’ll even stop being cold and we can finally enjoy being outside again! 

    Dear God, thank You for an awesome ultrasound and getting to really enjoy seeing our baby. Thank You for another son to add to our family! Please continue to protect him and help him grow strong and healthy. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

    I missed last week’s update. It seemed like the week just flew by and given the choice between writing a post and sleeping, I obviously chose sleeping. 😁 

    I am so thrilled to say that I made it through 3 days without zofran! Sure, I felt sick, but not so much that I couldn’t function. I’m so so happy to be feeling this much better!! πŸ™‚ I’m eating more salads and healthy foods and I’ve been able to quit the microwave lunches and start eating more of my normal meals. Progress!!

    Exhaustion is still a thing and I accidentally took a nap today. πŸ˜‚ Zane was taking a nap and Tru and Levi were watching a show. Next thing I know, I’m waking up and it’s been who knows how long! But as we move into the second trimester, I’m hoping for the fog to lift and to see a rise in my energy levels. Some days I’m less tired than others. 

    My weight is around +3-4lbs. My bump looks higher and is rounding out. Someone at church noticed and asked if it was baby. She’s very fortunate that I’m actually pregnant! πŸ˜‚ She loves my kids though and was so extremely excited. We haven’t made any official announcement yet as I was waiting till we find out gender, but it’s pretty obvious at this point that it’s not just too many donuts and pizza. 🀣 

    I keep halfway convincing myself that I feel flutters but it’s probably my imagination. I did get to hear the baby kick when we used the doppler last weekend! I was 12+3. It was such a great sound!! Took me forever to find the heartbeat though and I got really freaked out. Thankfully I have an appointment in a couple days, Lord willing. It’s my first actual ob appointment. Since it’s been a whole 4 weeks since my last ultrasound I am hoping hoping hoping that she will do an ultrasound to make sure the sch is gone. DH thinks he’s going to lose his mind after 8 weeks of pelvic rest. πŸ˜‚ It would definitely be a relief to know that everything looks good, but we’ll see if she decides to do one. 

    I only have a few other symptoms right now, namely feeling light headed and getting occasional headaches. Pretty standard for me at this point. Definitely still sticking with milk of magnesia every few days. 😩 I have about 2 shots of pio left and then I’m done! Yay! Mainly I just look forward to feeling baby kicks!! πŸ‘£ πŸ’“

    I didn’t get a belly pic last week but hopefully this week I’ll fix my face long enough to take one. πŸ˜‚ I’m currently waist deep in planning a bridal shower for my sister and soon to be sister in law. Two weddings in 2 months!! Super exciting. πŸ™‚ 2 of my sisters are co-hosting it with me, which is very helpful. Oddly enough, they have me… The very least creative or crafty member of our entire family, in charge of decorating and party favors. This should be interesting! 🀞

    Dear God, thank You for a better week with less nausea. I’m so thankful for being able to enjoy this baby and grow our family. Please continue to bless this pregnancy and protect us. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

    I wish I could write this post with even more anonymity that what this blog provides. This is an embarrassing admission and even though I’ve been honest about this with many people in my life, it still feels pretty ridiculous. Because, it is. Even I can admit that but somehow it just doesn’t help. 

    I’ve definitely made no secret that I suffer (yes, suffer ) from emetophobia. Definitely not to the degree that some people do, but badly enough that I wondered many times A) how would I get through morning sickness and B) once I had kids, how would I handle the barf? Kids come with barf. It’s a fact of life. My desire to have a family, thankfully(!!!) outweighed my fears, and here I am now…. Cleaning up barf after the SEVENTH round of vomiting so far this morning from T and L. At their ages, they oftentimes make it to the toilet now, but not always. Z, not so much. As in, not at all. I am hoping against all hope that he won’t catch whatever this demon virus is. 
    Side story: pre kids, DH and I made an agreement that he would handle all barf clean up and I would handle poop. Let’s all laugh! As a sahm, (and extremely thankful to be a sahm, btw) I am the main on-duty parent and DH is seldom ever able to be here during these illnesses. Thankfully I own several pairs of big girl panties and I find myself soldiering on.

    Actually, I started this post during our last round of stomach virus and never finished it but as I continue to fight the ridiculousness of extreme vomit anxiety, I realize there are other people like me out there and maybe they are also scouring the internet for support and comfort as they ride waves of nausea or face another stomach virus with their child. Let me give you a word of comfort right now…. As hard as it’s been dealing with not just normal morning sickness but actually severe morning sickness for three of my pregnancies, and even though kids barf even more often that I had realized, it’s been 100% worth it. We’ve gotten through and we continue to survive and I’m extremely thankful to say that I actually have less anxiety now than I used to. I know exposure therapy can be done as part of emetophobia treatment and as it so happens, I’ve kind of inadvertently done exactly that by having multiple pregnancies and multiple children. I wouldn’t change a thing… I’m thankful for my kids and I’m thankful I’ve been able to carry them throughout my pregnancies and if it means I’ve had to face my fears far more than I had imagined, good! It’s been hard but it’s also been helpful. 

    That’s not to say that I haven’t spent anxiety ridden hours online, looking for anything that could possibly prevent me from throwing up. Yes, even googling if there is some surgery that I could have that would make it impossible to throw up ever again. It’s embarrassing to admit, but yes, I’ve googled that. I’ve spent more money on over the counter nausea medicine and hand sanitizers that claim to kill norovirus than I care to admit. FYI, I haven’t found it hugely successful. As in, we are currently sick, so not at all successful. And when my kids get sick, I spend countless hours bleaching every surface they touch… Repeatedly… While wearing gloves, yet still washing my hands until my skin is completely dry and sad. And yes, as the title says, when I’ve touched the handle of the bleach jug, I now have to bleach the handle because I’ve contaminated it (in my mind). I also bleach the outside of the Lysol bottle after I touch it. I alternate between bleaching and lysoling every door knob, light switch, faucet handle, toilet, bathroom floor, couch, the washing machine, cabinet door knobs…  Then I go into stomach lockdown mode where I’ll go days only eating a few crackers and a little soup and drinking club soda, ya know, in case I’m going to get sick. Because in my flawed reasoning, if im going to throw up, I don’t really want anything in there to throw up. And you know what? All that prevention seldom actually keeps me from catching the virus. It’s basically an exercise in futility and is only feeding my paranoia rather than actually helping anything. 

    So what is the takeaway here? I don’t really know. I guess just to let other people who are suffering know that you are not alone in your fears. But also, please don’t let your fears hold you back. Even though we spend the majority of cold and flu season at home, we use grocery pickup most of the time, we sanitizer our hands after each place we go in (and I’m not just talking about regular sanitizer – I’ve went as far as keeping a jug of soapy water in the van and literally washing the kids and my own hands after every stop), we use a cart cover at the stores, I clean my bathrooms frequently, we take our vitamins and eat pretty healthy AND we avoid anyone who has had a stomach virus for the full 2 weeks that the virus can potentially live inside someone’s intestinal tract…. Shew!!! …. Even though we do all of that, it happens. People get sick. Bodies have weaknesses and sickness is a part of life. Don’t let fear of getting sick prevent you from doing things and enjoying your life. Don’t let fear prevent you from having a family and all the joy that brings. It’s worth it 100%. πŸ™‚ 

     “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”  2 Timothy 1:7


    This week has felt longer than the others, somehow. But thankfully I have felt the nausea continue to lessen, more to a level of constant motion sickness now (and actually, things like scrolling on my phone do make me feel worse). I had 2 days where I woke up feeling so decent that I only took 2mg of zofran and made it through the entire day! Evenings and especially bedtime are the worst time of day for me. I wouldn’t dare skip a dose of unisom yet!

    I have been feeling so cold all the time since I got pregnant and the really brutal weather hasn’t helped. I think that the nausea makes me feel more cold and being cold makes me feel even worse. It’s a vicious cycle…. But the last few days have warmed up so much! We even took the kids to the park after church on Sunday. It was still a little chilly but they were so thrilled to be OUTSIDE and running around. It was great. πŸ™‚ Today is raining but still warm so I aired the house out earlier. I have an intense desire to clean everything and I’m just waiting on the energy to do so and for the nausea to finally be in the rearview mirror. πŸ™‚ 

    We booked an appointment for an elective gender ultrasound. I’m really excited and looking forward to it but I’m worried it’s too early. The place I picked has weekend appointments, which is why I chose them so that DH doesn’t have to take off work. They will tell gender at 14 weeks. That seems too early really, although, we had Zane’s gender ultrasound at 15.5 weeks and it was accurate. I emailed the sonographer and asked if she thinks we should wait another couple weeks and she wrote back to say that it’s up to us but she does them at 14 weeks every day. I just hope it turns out to be accurate!! 

    I’ve enjoyed showing Tru and Levi the baby’s development for each week, using the websites online. Levi asked if the baby is ready for us to “take it out yet”. I explained that it needs time to grow it’s lungs and that I breathe for the baby right now. He seemed very intrigued by that process. 

    My friend from church is due ONE day before me and it’s been so fun going through this together and getting to chat about symptoms and such. This is her first pregnancy, so I get to play the part of old wise mom. Haha!! I hope our kids will get to grow up together and be good friends. Her older step child is super sweet and gets along so well with Tru and Levi, so that’s fun. 

    I’m weaning off the pio now. I’m not sure how many shots I have left but I decided to finish off my last bottle and be done. My buttcheeks are really happy to know that the end is in sight. πŸ˜… I ran out of 1.5″ needles a couple weeks ago and the pharmacy gave me 1″ needles. I feel like the oil isn’t getting down in there far enough now and I have so many lumps! 

    I gained almost 2lbs this week for a total gain of +3. I was hoping I’d get through the first trimester with no weight gain, simply because I don’t need to gain much. I started this pregnancy at a whopping T H I R T Y – F I V E pounds above my original pre pregnancy weight. But, meh… I’m watching my portions and trying to eat healthy. Once I have my ob appointment, I’d love to start working out again. Currently craving shepard’s pie and sautΓ©ed veggies, especially zucchini. πŸ˜‹ 

    11 weeks 1 day

    Dear God, thank You for all the blessings of this baby growing and the pregnancy progressing. Please help everything to keep going smoothly. In Jesus’ name, amen. 

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