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Oh, how that word strikes fear and dread in my heart! Unfortunately, I came down with a bad case late Thursday night. I woke up around 2am Friday with chills that lasted until around 5am, followed by feeling super hot and sweaty. This cycle kept repeating itself through the day. I was horribly weak and in too much pain to do anything more than lay on the couch. I tried to take a shower and I got so horribly nauseous. I took some Zofran to calm that down so I could take my medicine and pain reliever. It was a blessing that I had filled my prescription for Keflex on Thursday so I was able to start taking that right away. My sister S was able to come over, thank God, because I didn’t want DH to have to call off work again but I couldn’t even lift the baby without pain and difficulty. 
By Friday morning I felt stronger and the fever was gone but I still had pain and spent another wasted day on the couch. Today, Saturday, I still have some pain and I can feel the blocked ducts in there and the milk just isn’t moving through, but I’m working on massaging it downward. 
Unfortunately, my milk supply took a huge hit, probably because I was too nauseated to drink much all day Thursday. Zane is nursing a lot the last 2 days and I hope my supply will come back up soon so he can get enough milk. I really don’t know what caused this bout of mastitis but it was definitely the most severe I’ve ever had with any of my kids. I was doing so well before this hit! Oh well, hopefully I’ll be fully mended and healthy before next weekend when all the Christmas parties start! 

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Finally getting around to posting these. I hope they come through ok and are the right size….

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The night before the birth

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Not in labor yet. Getting things set up.

 

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Starting to be in pain. You can’t tell that I have monitors on my belly here. I love the telemetry monitoring since it allows the mother to get out of bed and not be stuck in one place.

 

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After hyperventilating and while getting a bag of fluid flushed through to try to slow the contractions. This was right before I got in the shower. Wish I could have stayed in there!

 

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After a dose of fentanyl. Trying to rest.

 

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DH awkwardly but sweetly comforting me. My SIL had arrived at this point and was taking pictures.

 

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Everything set up and ready to go. Why are there so many scissor like items!?!?!?! :0

 

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Right after my family arrived and right before pushing.

 

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He’s here!! Even though this picture is super unflattering, I love it.

 

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That beautiful first cry.

 

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The concept of having a third child had felt so abstract throughout the pregnancy, but once I was holding that sweet, warm, soft little person, everything fell into place.

 

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First picture of the 3 of us. Also, 3 bags of fluids in 5 hours will do unkind things to your face.

 

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Daddy’s first cuddle. 🙂

 

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Love that sweet profile.

 

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Snuggles on day 2.

 

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Bonding time with our new little boy.

 

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First bath.

 

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The hospital made us this cute little cake to celebrate.

 

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Ready to go home in the outfit that Daddy picked out for him.

 

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Waiting for the transport people to come.

 

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Levi meeting Zane.

 

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Tru meeting Zane.

 

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Our squishy little person.

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We started out week 2 with Zane throwing up bright yellow bile while we were at my Grandma’s Thanksgiving party (on a weekend, of course). I panicked a bit because I’d never seen anything so bright come out of a baby’s mouth. It looked just like breastfed baby poop. I showed my mom and she said none of her 10 kids had ever done that, so I called the on-call Pediatrician since that is what Dr Google said to do. He said that in the absence of other concerning symptoms, and because it had only happened once, to watch Zane and take him to the children’s ER if it continued over the weekend. Zane had started with a stuffy nose on Thanksgiving Day, so he’d had that and vomiting mucus for 3 days, but nothing else.

 

 

On Monday I took him to the Dr and his Pedi said that it looked like acid reflux. The stuffy nose appeared to be caused by the acid coming up in his nose and the vomiting mucus was probably irritation in his stomach. So anyway, he’s been on Zantac for a week now, twice a day. It seems to be helping quite a bit but I also give him gripe water at bedtime since it has seemed to help his gassiness and the acid reflux a bit too. Unfortunately, he still has a very stuffy nose. I was up multiple times in the night last night suctioning his nose trying to help him breathe. He’s fine during the day but at night it gets really bad. I have the head of his bed elevated but it doesn’t seem to help the congestion much. Tonight I am planning to try the cool mist humidifier by his bed.

 

 

As a side note, Zane weighed 8lbs 13oz at his check up which was at 2 weeks 2 days. So he had gained almost 11 ounces since the birth and 1lb 2oz from what he weighed before we came home from the hospital. 🙂 He is a good eater and very efficient at nursing. He doesn’t comfort nurse very much but he does like to hum while he nurses. I think it’s adorable!

 

 

So far, Zane is a happy baby. He only fusses if he is hungry or if his belly hurts, which is less often now that we have the acid reflux situation figured out. He started smiling at 2 weeks 1 day! I thought he was starting to a day or two before that, but for sure he was at 2+1. He smiled at Daddy first and at me a couple of days later. I managed to get a few pictures a few days after that. 🙂

 

 

Tru and Levi keep asking me when the baby will talk. When I took Zane to the Dr, Levi thought they were going to fix him so he could talk. Haha! Levi is always bringing the baby toys to play with and Tru is always giving him stuffed animals. They don’t get it that Zane is just too little to hold on to stuff yet. Tru and Levi are both completely obsessed with rubbing his head and holding his hands. It’s mostly ok, but sometimes I have to beg them to let me hold the baby by myself for a bit. I feel bad to push them away, I just get so tired of guarding Zane constantly. I am glad that they love him sooooo much though and as he gets bigger, I know it will be easier to let them show their love without having to worry so much. 😉

 

 

 

I am still pumping just twice a day usually. In the morning I get about 10 ounces, give or take. At night I usually get 6 or 7. I bought some chocolate syrup and Tru and Levi have been quite happy to drink chocolate milk almost every day. 😉 Because of cold and flu seasson, I’d love to continue this all winter! DH still thinks it’s super gross, and maybe it is, I don’t know. But I know it’s good for them, so….

 

 

 

As far as I feel postpartum, I feel really normal, just more tired than usual. 😉 I’ve lost almost 20 pounds which is nearly half since I gained 41 pounds. I hope the rest of the weight melts off quickly. The downside is, I still have a horrible headache every single day. It starts soon after I get up every morning and lasts until after I go to bed every night. I take ibuprofen for it but it doesn’t do much. I thought maybe it was a spinal headache from the epidural since I had one after I had Tru, but usually that goes away after 14 days and this is still going strong 23 days PP. So, I’m thinking maybe hormones? I don’t know, but it sure is annoying! Aside from that, the eczema on my face has flared up really bad. I had hoped it would calm down after the pregnancy since it had flared up a bit in the beginning of the pregnancy and got worse towards the end. But it actually got even worse after I delivered. I am fairly confident that it will calm down once the hormones settle, it just sucks that I have red flakey patches everywhere and don’t look too great in unedited pictures. Haha.

 

 

 

Zane is still getting up twice a night to nurse. If his nose isn’t too stuffy, he sleeps really well. He’s even had 2 nights that he only woke up once! That was amazing! He does like to stay up sometimes for an hour or two when he wakes up around 5 or 6 am. Which is keeping with the same thing he did in utero. He would oftentimes have a kicking and hiccuping party at that same time while I was pregnant. So neat how he still has the same schedule! I am averaging 5-7 hours of sleep a night myself, which is fantastic for this early on!! I could always use even more sleep but I am super happy right now. I’ve had a few days when all 3 boys were napping and I managed to squeeze in a quick nap myself. I was pretty stoked about that. 😉

 

 

 

DH had 3 weeks off work and he is officially back at work as of today. All of last week he was deer hunting, so he wasn’t really here at all. Up and gone by 5:30am most days and home around 6:15pm. So it was like he only had 2 weeks off but it was still great that we had that much time to enjoy our new baby together and have DH here to entertain Tru and Levi so they didn’t feel so neglected while I took care of the baby. We are in a pretty good routine now also, which is so nice with little ones.

 

 

 

Zane is 3 weeks 2 days old today but it feels like he’s been on the outside world longer than that. He fits right into our family and it just feels so right that we have 3 little boys. 🙂 I am still so happy and surprised with the way our family has grown. I always wanted my kids to be close in age but I thought after infertility, that would be impossible. And it certainly wasn’t anything I had control over but God knew what was best for us and He has grown our family just so perfectly! I couldn’t have imagined a more wonderful family than what He has given me. I am so thankful!

 

Dear God, thank You for Your care and blessings on us. Please continue to help Zane to feel better from the acid reflux and to be healthy and happy. Thank You for blessing us with this time together as a family and I pray that we will continue to bond and enjoy our time together and to stay healthy this winter. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Sorry for the picture of a picture. I wanted to include this but didn’t have time to upload it right now.

Ok, Zane is 3 weeks old tomorrow but I’m just now getting this update posted that I wrote last week. I need to work on another post but I’m having too much fun just enjoying my *free time* snuggling my boys and even having a nap on the rare occasion. 😉

 

 

You guys, I’m not trying to brag, because we all know how that works out… But seriously, this little baby is so good. I mean, all babies are good, obviously. But this little guy is so calm and chilled out. I am not kidding when I say that he almost never ever cries. He does this little whimper thing when he needs something and that’s about it. He will eventually work himself into a cry, but it takes a long time. Like more than 5 minutes, unless he is in pain. I am so thankful he has been a happy baby so far and just keep hoping that he keeps being so happy and easy. It helps too that DH is off work for 3 weeks, so I can focus on baby care, and Zane seldom has to wait to have his needs met.

 

 

Because of the situation with our extremely helpful and gentle, but still just a 4 year old, and our extremely curious and not-so-gentle 2.5 year old, we almost never put Zane down during the day. For his safety, we have to… no, we GET to, hold him all day, everyday. I think this is wonderful as it is the first time that I have had so many guilt free newborn snuggles. With both Tru and Levi, I had that constant nagging thought “I should put him down while he is so happy and get stuff done.” With Zane, there is none of that. And it’s awesome!

 

 

One little issue Zane does have is frequent belly pain. I think he also has acid reflux as he spits up quite often and gets choked on spit up and it’s obvious that it is causing him pain. I have the head of his bed propped up ever so slighty like I did for Levi. I think it helps a bit. I’m sure he will outgrow it soon.

 

 

Ever since Zane was born, he wakes up to eat around 2:30-3:30am, depending on if we go to bed at 11 or midnight (we are night owls) and again around 5:30-6:30am. Then he usually sleeps until 9:30-10am. I am stoked at this schedule and I hope he stays on it! It works out great for me right now because if I am tired when Tru and Levi get up (around 8-9), DH has been able to keep them quiet while I sleep until Zane gets up. Then DH usually changes him while I pump, and then I nurse Zane.

 

 

I am currently just pumping twice a day, morning and night. Occasionally I will throw in a third pumping in the afternoon or evening if I feel too full, but the engorgement is over now. Zane is great at nursing but he does have a small mouth which results in a shallow latch sometimes. (But let’s be real, that’s quite a mouthful for a little guy) He also has a high palate and was clicking his tongue constantly while nursing for the first few days. It hurt so bad! I ended up with blisters on my nipple and had to use a nipple shield for a few days, but he wasn’t able to remove as much milk with the shield on, so I stopped using it and that ended up being fine. 🙂 I do have the over-active let-down this time again, so he chokes and gags on the milk at times (and that probably causes a lot of his belly pain), but it eventually calmed down with the other kids so I’m sure it will this time too. DH has given him the bottle with pumped milk a couple time. Zane took the bottle with no hesitation and DH was happy for the bonding time too, so that has been nice.

 

 

I had hand expressed quite a bit of colostrum during the last few weeks of pregnancy. I had frozen it in syringes in case Zane ended up having bad jaundice like Levi did. I gave him a few ml while we were in the hospital, but my milk came in less than 48 hours after birth, so I didn’t need much of the expressed colostrum. Levi ended up really wanting to try breastmillk (yeah, I know), so I gave it to him. DH was super grossed out but I reminded him that Levi only weaned back in Feb, so it wasn’t even that long ago. And maybe it will help his immune system… who knows?

 
Other odds and ends:

  • Zane lost his cord at 8 days old, on his due date. 🙂
  • One of my two stitches fell out at 7 days post partum. That other stitch is still hanging in tight now at 13 days PP. Can’t wait till it falls out because stitches itch! But I’m so glad I didn’t end up with numerous stitches like I did last time. UGH!
  • Zane has a bit of a blocked tear duct in his right eye. All of my babies have had this and so did DH, which makes me wonder if maybe it’s hereditary?? Anyway, it has days where it is more clear than others so I hope it doesn’t get as bad as Truett’s was. Levi’s cleared up fairly quickly if I remember right.
  • He still gets hiccups on the same schedule he had them in utero. Every morning and every night when we go to bed and usually at least once throughout the day. And how this poor baby hates the hiccups! I usually give him the pacifier because it helps them go away faster and keeps him from spitting up from the hiccups.
  • He will really only take the pacifier at night and only until he falls asleep, then he spits it out. He does suck on his thumb frequently though, which is absolutely adorable!! 🙂

 

 

 

Our routine at night has been: pump, nurse Zane to top him off, change his diaper and put him in his sleep sack, then lay him on my bed while I get ready for bed. Then when I’m ready, I move him to his bed and turn off the light. He usually falls asleep either while I am getting ready or right after I move him to his bed. I absolutely love the co-sleeper (it’s the Arms Reach brand) and being able to hear him breathing right next to me, but in his own space.

 

 
You may remember that during my pregnancy, Levi was the one who always wanted to “kiss my baby” almost every day, and loved to talk about the baby constantly. He was always talking about how he would “smuggle” the baby and help me take care of him. While Levi does like to hold Zane and will gladly bring me diapers and wipes and likes to watch me change him and bathe him, I have been surprised that Truett is actually the one who has stepped easily into the big brother role again. He had been so adamant during the pregnancy that he was not going to help with the baby and didn’t care much to talk about the baby or kiss my belly. For the last few weeks of the pregnancy, when it became more real that there was definitely a baby in there, Tru did start to get excited a bit more. But never so much as Levi was. So I’ve been surprised that Tru is always asking to hold the baby and just loves to sit next to me and hold Zane’s hand for long periods of time. He is always bringing me pillows, blankets, diapers and wipes and burp towels… He loves to be involved in picking out the baby’s outfits. It’s so cute! Both Tru and Levi are constantly aware of Zane and if he is in another room, they always ask where he is and fret when we leave the house that we won’t bring their baby back. Zane is so blessed to have big brothers who love him so dearly and are so protective and attentive to his needs. (Even though we do have a few incidents of passive aggression from Levi. 😉 )

 

 

Ok, I have to end this here even though there is so much to say!

 

 

 

Dear God, thank You for a blessed and beautiful week with our precious new baby boy. Thank You for faithfully seeing us through the pregnancy and birth. Please help Zane to continue to be healthy and for us to do a good job caring for and raising him. In Jesus’ name, amen.

 

 

Tru and Zane

Levi and Zane

We are having a quiet day at home this Thanksgiving. We had planned to go to DH’s grandma’s house today but Levi threw up this morning so we stayed home in case we are contagious. He’s been fine the rest of the day, playing and eating. As sad as we were to miss the party, we have just been trying to enjoy the day. I made egg and ham muffins and we watched a movie. DH and the boys pretended to be Kungfu Panda (LOL) and now DH is out hunting squirrel while the boys nap. And I’m soaking up baby snuggles! 
I had a light bulb moment around 4am this morning when I woke up to feed Zane. I was due to have him on November 19th. For some reason, that date never rang any bells in my mind until it hit me this morning….That was the date of our first egg retrieval, 5 years ago!! Our first embryo transfer was Thanksgiving Day, the 22nd of 2012. Our hearts were broken when that cycle failed. After 4.5 years of TTC, I felt like it was hopeless. Like I was broken and could never have the life I wanted. I could never have imagined that we would be blessed with 3 little boys over the course of the next 5 years. When I spent that Thanksgiving laying on the couch after the ET, I never imagined that I would spend Thanksgiving at home on the couch snuggling my third newborn just 5 short years later. God has blessed us and brought beauty from our pain. I know that each of these gifts is solely His doing. I am thankful for that today and give Him all the glory. 
No matter where you are or what you are doing today, I hope your day will be blessed. I hope your life will be blessed in exactly the way God chooses to bless you. 💕

I’m going to post this without pictures for now because I haven’t uploaded them yet and don’t have time right now, but I’ll try to post them soon.

 

*This is the TMI version of the birth. Blood, amniotic fluid and all. If that disturbs you, I’d recommend skipping this post.*

 

*Birth is usually a beautiful event. It is also a painful and sometimes dramatic event. This birth was mostly calm, but I don’t sugar-coat the pain. Just know that it was all 100% worth it and I wouldn’t change a thing because this is the way that my baby came into my arms and I am so thankful and blessed to have him here.*

 

I have a few spare minutes so I thought I’d try to get the birth story written down. It’s already getting very fuzzy on timelines and details but that’s ok. It was an absolutely beautiful birth. Horribly intense but very short labor. 38 weeks 5 days, the day before I was going to be induced, I spent the day at home with the boys just spending time together, cleaning up the house and getting the last items thrown in the hospital bags. We skipped nap time in favor of an early bedtime. The boys were in bed by 8pm and DH and I went to bed a little before 9. Of course, despite taking Unisom and a natural sleep supplement my sister L gave me, I didn’t fall asleep until after 11 and sleep was very fitful after that. I had to be up at 2:40am to get ready to leave for the hospital, but I woke up a little after 2 with pain in my leg and nervousness running crazy, so I got up around 2:20 and got a shower, curled my hair and had breakfast. We left the house a bit after 3:30 and got to the hospital at about 5am.

 

 

Once we got admitted to our room, the nurse hooked me and baby up to the monitor, asked 20 million questions and tried to start an IV. She couldn’t get it after 2 tries, so she had another nurse come in and get it started. That whole IV process took over half an hour! At that point, she flushed an entire bag of fluid through me and started the pitocin at 2 at about 7am or a little after. She checked me to get a starting point and I was 3cm, 60% effaced and baby was -2 station.

 

 

The contractions started soon after but were very mild, very short and not too frequent. (registering around 50 on the toco monitor)The next set of nurses came on shift right after that. One was in training and had only been there a few days and the other was so young, she couldn’t have been there long herself. They came in every half hour to increase the Pitocin by 2 and check my blood pressure. At 8:59am, I texted my mom to tell her that the contractions were getting stronger. At 9:04, I told her they were close. The Dr come in right after that to talk about breaking my water. I told her I didn’t want to yet and she asked when I would want her to. I told her, maybe in 4 hours. She said that was ok, but a long time and maybe 2 hours would be better and she would come back to check later. I asked her how high we were going to go on the Pitocin since I was VBAC and she said that they don’t usually induce VBACs so she couldn’t answer that. Then she left. At that point I had cycled through laboring in the bed, in the rocking chair and was now on the birth ball.

 

 

By the time they had bumped me to 6 on the pitocin, I told the nurse that I wouldn’t be able to stand much more. My contractions were over 124+ on the toco and happening very frequently. (From my labor with Levi, I knew that the pitocin on 3 was already too much for my body and they had to turn it off. Pathetic I know, but my uterus responds very very strong to just a tiny tiny bit.) I texted my mom at 9:25 that the contractions were much worse and very close, then at 9:33 I told her she should leave the house to come to the hospital soon! (They have a 1.5+ hour drive too) The nurse bumped the Pitocin to an 8 and I knew I couldn’t go any higher. The pressure and pain were horrendous by that point and I asked them to turn it down. I was trying to labor kneeling over the bed, and later standing while leaning on the bed. They kept saying that we wanted this kind of contractions and it was good, but from having been in labor before, I knew this was wayyy too intense for my body. Labor with Levi was very manageable. I could walk around and stop to squat with the contractions. I could breathe through them (until transition) but with these, I couldn’t bear it. I was breaking down crying and moaning very loudly and no matter how hard I tried to relax into the contraction and breathe through it, I couldn’t. They were coming very fast and the pain was completely localized on my c-section scar and intense downward pressure. Finally the nurses asked the Dr what to do and came back to the room to flush another bag of IV fluid through me and turn the Pitocin down to 4. Which helped space the contractions just a bit, and dimmed the pain enough that I stopped hyperventilating. My face and then my legs had gone numb from not being able to slow my breathing down, and my vision was getting weird, which was exactly what happened in my labor with Levi during transition. I kept saying “I’d think I was in transistion if it wasn’t so soon.” And the nurses and DH kept telling me that I probably was and that I should let the Dr come check me. I decided to try getting in the shower first because I couldn’t handle hearing that I hadn’t made any progress yet.

 

 

I got in the shower to sit on the seat for about 5 minutes, if that. It felt amazing and calmed me down, but the Dr came in the room again and asked if I wanted her to check me now or in 2 hours. I decided to do it now, even though I hated to get out of the shower, because I couldn’t imagine 2 more hours of this kind of labor. I had asked her at my first check, when I should get the epidural line placed and she said I didn’t have to. But at this point, hearing me while I was working through the pain and having 3 more contractions just getting out of the shower, she said I should go ahead and get it placed. I’m not sure if she became concerned because of the pain I was having or what, but all the pain was still localized to the scar area and downward pressure. She had talked earlier about putting a pressure monitor in my uterus to make sure I wasn’t rupturing, (never knew any such thing existed!) but said my water would have to be broken first. I didn’t have any scar pain with Levi, so that was new! Anyway, the Dr checked me and said I was 8cm, then she left the room with no other comment. I thought that was weird since I knew she wanted to break my water soon, but she was very respectful of what I wanted and I appreciated that she wasn’t pushy at all. It was just so completely different from my experience with the Dr who delivered Levi. Night and day.

 

 

So, the anesthesiologist showed up right away (DH took a call from my mom right about then at 10:47am) and I was thrilled to see him! All through my pregnancy, I had been on the fence about getting the epidural dosed this time but I had decided I would go with whatever felt right at the time. I asked him what my options were for pain if I still wanted to get out of bed. (I had been to the bathroom about 800 times at that point and didn’t want to be stuck in bed or have a catheter.) He suggested a dose of fentanyl through the epidural line and said that would probably hold me over till the birth since the birth would be soon. I thought that was a great option! What I didn’t know was that it would make me itch all over and feel very warm, but it was worth it! He also gave me a shot of pepcid which was supposed to help the itching. I felt so much relief from the fentanyl! I was able to lay down in bed and rest my body. I had been shaking really badly through the pain and I finally calmed down and could breathe. At that point, my MIL, FIL, SIL and niece arrived. I was calm and able to talk to DH and my SIL between contractions for a little bit while everyone else waited in the waiting room. Then the contractions started hurting like crazy again and I was back in the dire pain situation again. I’m not sure how much time had passed. Maybe an hour? I could feel a warm sensation with each contraction. It felt like the water was flowing out of my body, but it hadn’t broken yet. I think that was the water bag bulging….

 

 

My parents arrived and I continued to work through the pain and contractions. My Dad stood by the bed looking quite helpless. I halfway felt bad for him and halfway found it quite humorous. He eventually left to go sit with my FIL. When I went to use the bathroom, there was quite a lot of blood and I got scared but the nurse said it was normal. After a little while, I was clinging to the bed rail, half sitting during the contractions, crying and starting to freak out again. The nurse checked me and said I was 10cm and my water bag was bulging. She said if we could break the water, baby would come fast. I was so scared to get my water broke, mostly because I didn’t know how I could cope with any more pain, but I agreed to let the Dr come break my water. My mom, DH and the nurses were all telling me to just let the Dr do it so we could get the pain and delivery over with. Right after the nurse left the room, I felt two pops around my belly button. A couple of seconds passed and then water started gushing out. It wasn’t nearly as much water as I’d had with Levi, but it was much less painful to have it break on its own rather than having a Dr digging in there with the hook. I was so relieved that the Dr didn’t have to break it. At this point, the contractions were so incredibly intense with pressure, but I still didn’t have the urge to push. DH went to get the nurse and she came back in the room a few minutes later. I don’t think she was at all convinced my water had gone but she called for the Dr. I told the nurse I wanted the pitocin off because I was contracting so fast and hard. She wouldn’t turn it off and I was like “I am obviously having the baby now. My labor isn’t going to stop.” But anyway, when she left the room, I turned the drip off. I know I shouldn’t have, but it seemed so stupid to have it still running and causing me so much extra intense pain.

 

 

At that point, a few minutes before 1pm, I told the nurse that I wanted another dose of fentanyl. The anesthesiologist said that wasn’t allowed so I asked for a small dose of the epidural. Everyone was all “You don’t need it! You’ll be having the baby in a few minutes!” But I insisted that I did want it. I had pretty much made up my mind that I wanted something to take the edge off during pushing and in case I ended up with a million stitches again. So, the anesthesiologist came in again and I explained that I wanted only the very smallest amount of medicine possible. I wanted to be able to move my legs and change positions and push in whatever position felt right. Not to be numb entirely or unable to move my legs. He said he had just the thing and gave me a shot through the line. He said to lay on my back for 7-10 minutes to let the medicine work. I couldn’t though. I had to sit up. I couldn’t handle even one contraction laying down.

 

 

The Dr arrived right after that and checked me. She told me to start pushing. I had been sobbing and saying “I don’t want to push!” over and over. I feel kind of silly looking back now. 😉 But I realized later that the reason I didn’t want to push was because I was so worried I would hemorrhage again. That and I was afraid I would tear. Anyway, I still didn’t have the urge to push, just the incredible intense pressure I had felt all day. That and the horrible pain in my incision which was overriding every other sensation in my body. But the Dr just started counting, so I pushed. 3 pushes and his head was right there. I think I pushed through 4 contractions, 2 or 3 pushes each time. Once his head was halfway out, she said to stop and let my body stretch so I wouldn’t tear (with Levi I wasn’t told to stop and that probably caused a lot of the tearing). She said he would come out on his own with the next contraction. I impulsively reached down and felt Zane’s head. It was so warm and soft. I couldn’t wait to get him out! Once I had another contraction, out he popped at 1:09pm, with his right hand up by his face just like it always was in my ultrasounds. I think I pushed about 6 minutes. The nurse had covered my belly with a towel and I kept pushing it away and she kept moving it back. I was getting so annoyed! I wanted the baby right on me. His cord was very short so he couldn’t go on my chest until DH cut it about a minute after birth. (I wanted to wait longer but the Dr said they will only wait 1 minute – oh well) FINALLY, they moved Zane up onto my chest and it was such an incredible feeling. He cried, I cried…. 🙂

 

 

The placenta was out a minute or 2 later with no issues. The Dr said I had a tiny tear (Yep! I felt that happening!) and needed 2 stitches. Thankfully, the epidural had worked its way to where I needed it and the stitching wasn’t painful. During the pushing, I had sensation but not so much burning as I had with Levi. I’m not sure if that was due to the epidural starting to take effect or if it was just an easier birth. Either way, I was very happy with how everything went. I wouldn’t change a thing!! I lost very little blood and was up and walking to the bathroom less than 2 hours later. I felt amazing! Not like I had just had a baby. I have had seriously almost no soreness down there at all. I can’t believe the difference in healing this time. I am so thankful for how God worked everything out!! I know DH was praying all through the labor and so was I. I had my mom, MIL, SIL, and sisters S and M and of course, DH there during the birth and it was perfect. I had been on the fence about having so many people in the room again, but I don’t regret it at all. I know they were all praying for us and it just felt cozy and happy. I am also so happy that I got the Dr that I had that day. When I had a prenatal check up with her, I had told DH that I would be happy with her at the birth and she really was great. 🙂 And honestly, even though we had young and very fresh nurses, they did a great job and I am happy that they got to see us all the way through the labor and birth.

 

So, all told, I had 6 hours of labor, but only 3.5 hours of hard labor. If I had went into labor at home and waited to see if it was the real thing and called my sister to come watch the kids and had DH come home from work and then drove over 1.5 hours to the hospital – we likely would have either barely made it in time, or had the baby in the car. Of course, it’s possible that labor would have been slower without pitocin, but who knows how much more I might have dilated before labor started. I think it was a good call to induce and I don’t regret it even though I thought I might. And I am happy Zane was born without any distress aside from a few minor dips in heartrate during the labor. Just so thankful he was born safe and happy. 🙂

 

 

We stayed in the hospital for 2 days. We were going to go home the next day but Zane’s bilirubin came back at 5.1, so we opted to stay at the pediatrician’s request because of how bad Levi’s jaundice had gotten. They wanted to watch him another night just in case. The next day it was 7.8 but my milk was coming in at that point and he was out of the danger zone. 🙂 It was nice to have another day in the hospital, mostly because Zane had come so fast that he choked on the mucus all night that hadn’t been squeezed through his lungs. I felt better having the nurses nearby because I ended up buzzing them once when I couldn’t get the mucus suctioned out and I started to get scared. Obviously, he was fine. Also, he was so sore after the circumcision that I was glad he had a day to heal before coming home and being passed around and held by his big brothers. We missed Tru and Levi so much and they missed us too and ended up crying on the second night but we talked to them on the phone and they were alright. 🙂 Little Zane is 1 week old today!! He is such a calm and happy baby. He has woken up about 2 times a night, every night since he was born. Hoping that he keeps doing so well. I am so thankful for my Third Gracious Gift of God. 🙂

11-11-17

8lbs 2.5oz 

20.5″ 

We are both doing great! Working on getting this breastfeeding thing down. 😉 Hopefully birth story will follow shortly while it’s still fresh in my mind. It was fast and furious, but it went beautifully. 🙂 

How far along? 37 weeks 6 days (11-4-17)

 
Weight? +40

 
Symptoms? I always forget to write down the weird symptoms that I have… and then I don’t remember them.

  • For one thing, my skin on my face has been really bad almost the whole pregnancy. I have eczema on my chin and forehead and bridge of my nose. I’ve had to use hydrocortisone on it at times to control the flaking. I really hope this clears up after the baby comes! But I am prone to rashy outbreaks at the best of times anyway due to having super sensitive skin.
  • I’ve also been extremely hot throughout this pregnancy. Always sweating and panicking about how hot it is! I’m driving DH nuts turning the ac on and keeping the heat really low. I argue that he can put on more clothes if he’s hot but as it is, I’m already sitting around the house in my bra and capris, sweating like a pig!
  • This isn’t really a symptom but, I finally have a linea nigra line! I had one with both of my past pregnancies but I didn’t know if I would get one this time because it only started showing up over the last few weeks. I don’t know why this makes me so happy to have it, but for some reason, it does. DH thinks I am crazy!
  • I had a terrible flare of the SPD pain and pain in my left thigh in the groin area last week and this week. (I shampooed the living room and master bedroom – stupid idea. I did it at 6 months and was fine, but 9 months is a bit different!) I went to the chiropractor to see if my pelvis was out and maybe that was causing the pain to be worse. It was out a little in the back but I guess there isn’t much they can do about the snapping and pain in the front. So, getting out of bed in the night has been a struggle. Once I’m up and moving, I’m fine. It’s totally manageable pain during the day. But rolling over at night is very very hard and painful and the grinding and popping in the joint is also gross.
  • I still have times of lightheadedness and queasiness but for the most part I am fine. If I skip taking my magnesium, I get charlie horse cramps in my legs and heart palpitations. That magnesium really helps!

Cravings/aversions? Nothing really either way. 🙂
Exercise? I actually did 2 days on the elliptical this week and once last week. I cut my time back the last 2 times though. But last week I was kicking myself for being so slack the last few weeks because it felt amazing to get that exercise in!
Sleep? Still mostly good. I wake up soaked in sweat a lot even though I haven’t hardly been using a blanket in months and I keep the heat/ac on 68 at night. I’m happy that sleep has been solid these last few weeks. I sure need it! Most days I could nod off for a nap if I let myself but I usually try to do other things so I can feel productive.
Bump? Well, last week I was sent for a bpp+growth scan at the dr’s clinic when Zane failed his nst (heartrate 120 and below – no accelerations – 1 movement) and the tech said he weighed 6lbs 10oz. I do not think that is AT ALL accurate though. I think he is probably close to 8lbs by now. I had another bpp this week (at the hospital’s center – my preference) and that tech and I talked about the issues I have with the clinic doing my ultrasounds. (I mentioned this before on here when I had my crap anatomy scan and asked the Dr for a do-over at the center.) Anyway, last week all the tech did was measure his fluid, leg, belly and head. AND, she only guestimated on his head measurement because she didn’t try to get the whole top in the shot. No check of his heartrate, brain, kidneys etc and no check that I saw for practice breathing which is standard on a bpp. Which was disconcerting since we were there because of a failed nst. The ultrasound was all of 3 minutes, maybe, which is very short for either a bpp OR growth scan, let alone both. I left not feeling too reassured. So the tech at the center was saying “Yeah, their reports are sent to the same system as ours and I can see them. I am surprised they get away with billing insurance for what they do. They barely look at the baby!” I felt very validated in my concerns when she said that. I told her how my anatomy scan was only a few minutes long and no internal organs were measured etc. I guess the clinic is bad for this as a habit. :/ Anyway… all that to say, bump is big and getting bigger while also being extremely itchy and covered in welts from the allergic reaction to the benzyl alcohol in the Heparin. BUT, I love it. I am ready to get this kid out but I do love the belly, even though it gets in my way. 😉 OH!! I have been waking up and putting my hand on the baby’s back in the morning and I can feel his practice breathing through my belly. It’s crazy!! He usually does it for a few minutes and then stops for a bit. It’s so cool. I wish I could film it because you can just barely see his back gently rising and falling quickly. I was finally able to show my sister L and DH also saw it one night. Amazing!

 

 

Alright… I had posted a few days ago about not knowing what the plan was for birth i.e. induction, c section or waiting it out since my Dr changed her mind or something. I took the post down though after a few hours because it was so negative and ranty. I had an appointment this week and the Dr I met with was able to come to a quick and easy solution. I had been praying that my talk with her would go well and that God’s will would be done. I am so happy that it went well and that I didn’t need to pull all the case studies out of my purse that I had printed off. It’s not that I don’t respect what the Drs are saying regarding inducing a VBAC, but their philosophies on the subject are very outdated. New guidelines from the American College Of Gynocologists are much more friendly toward inducing of VBAC patients when there are indications for getting baby out in a more timely manner. The risk of rupture when induced prior to 40 weeks IS slightly higher than spontanious labor, but only very very slightly. Inducing a VBAC after 40 weeks though is an even higher chance. Hence my desire to induce at 39, coupled with the fact that I don’t see Zane being happy in there much longer and my hope to avoid an emergency c section for baby in distress. The Dr I saw last week had said she would have me wait till 40 weeks and if no labor started, we would do a repeat c section without trying to induce first… you can see my predicament. Anything could happen still… obviously, but that is just part of life and it’s all in God’s hands.

 

 

This Dr was surprised that my previous Drs had induced a VBAC but I told her the way it went and how it was done and she felt comfortable with me coming in and them breaking my water and using a small dose of pitocin. (My dose was 3 last time for 1.5 hours, then they turned it off) So, that is the plan. And now I am super nervous!! I did ask her to sweep the membranes and she did. I had contractions for a few hours every 5-10ish minutes but eventually they faded away at bedtime. But I think (TMI) I lost part of the plug this morning, so that’s good. Still hoping something gets started this coming week and we can just have this baby out naturally. As happy as I am to have an end date nailed down, I truly do not relish the thought of being induced, but I see it as the lesser of two evils basically and definitely prefer it to waiting and then having a c section, or, worse yet, pushing Zane to stay in there longer than he is happy with.

 

 

 

The Dr said I am 2/more like 3cm, 50% effaced and baby is 0 station. The cervix is midway forward and very soft. She said we can’t use the foley bulb because I’m too dilated to need it, which is good. But she *thinks* labor will be very easy to start and fast once it’s going. I only hope she is right!! She repeatedly told me to head straight to the hospital with any contractions or breaking of water since I am 1.5+ hours away. I told her I would and that I hope she is right about this baby coming fast, although not in the car please. 😉

 

 

So, that’s it. That’s the update and the *plan*. It could still go either way but I feel a lot better knowing that we have something in place. And that I can stop the Heparin soon. 😉 I have felt very little sentimentality during this pregnancy, but now that we have an end date, I am feeling all kinds of sentimental. Planning to spend the rest of this week just soaking up time with the boys, getting the last few things done (I have a few more freezer meals made!!) and relaxing/sleeping. 😉 I think I’ll enjoy just taking naps all week when I can. I’ll admit, I am super nervous about labor/birth no matter how/when it happens. But I know that just like God created this baby inside me in His power and love, He will also bring us through this last bit. It will hurt, yes. But I am ready to meet this sweet baby boy. 🙂 I showed the boys on the calendar when we are supposed to “get the baby out”, as they say, and they are very excited and super ready to meet him! They have even talked to him in there, telling him to get out. Haha. I am so excited for them to meet eachother. 🙂

 

I know this was long but thanks for sticking with me to the end. These updates are really more for my personal journal than anything but I’m flattered that anyone actually takes the time to read them and post comments. I have grown to look forward to chatting with my readers over the years and it means a lot to know that you care. 🙂

 

 

Dear God, thank You for a good week and for Your blessings and guidance. I pray that Your will be done concerning the how and when of the birth. Please watch over all of us as we come to the end of this pregnancy. Watch over Zane and keep him safe and healthy. Thank You for how good this experience has been and for how excited the boys are about their baby brother. In Jesus’ name, amen.

 

These 3 pictures are at 37 weeks 2 days with each of the boys. I am SOOOOO jealous of my first pregnancy self right now. That extra 15ish pounds this time around is super obvious. :/

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With Truett just 2 hours before delivery.

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With Levi

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With Zane.

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My SIL and BIL brought this over yesterday along with an adorable outfit for the little guy. 🙂

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The ultrasound tech wanted me to be able to show Tru and Levi what the baby looks like in there so she very sweetly gave me 3 – 3D pics to take home to them. He looks like a chubby little guy!

 

 

 

How far along? 35 weeks 5 days (10-20-17)

 
Symptoms? I flip between “I feel great!” and “I want this baby out yesterday!!” Some days I really do still feel good, but the pelvic pressure (OH THE PRESSURE!), SPD pain, and breathlessness do take their toll on me at times. Acid reflux and occasional queasiness have followed me the last few weeks. I’ve taken Zofran a few times when the nausea kept me awake at night or kept me in bed during the day. Definitely nothing compared to the first trimester though!

 
Weight? +38

 
Cravings/aversions? This question just seems silly at this point. 😛

 
Sleep? Surprisingly good! I think I get up to pee about 5+ times BUT, keep in mind that even non-pregnant, I still get up 3-4 times a night because of my bladder problems. The fact that I can currently fall right back to sleep is awesome! I am enjoying being able to sleep now while it lasts.

 
Exercise? Nope. It’s not happening. I don’t really think it’s going to. I get so winded that it doesn’t feel possible now. But, I am still doing stretches!

 
Bump? I feel like it’s smaller this week. Maybe he is engaged? I forgot to ask the Dr today. I had a BPP and NST today and since he was taking awhile to do the practice breathing that they look for, the tech measured his foot, just for fun. It was about 7.6cm, so another little bigfoot baby! 😉 Fluid was around 14cm. We are all getting really excited to meet Zane! Tru and Levi talk about him all the time and can’t wait to see him. Tru says he will help Zane with his seat belt and with opening the van door so he can get in. I think the boys are going to be really shocked when they see just how tiny and helpless a newborn really is. I have told them that Zane won’t know how to talk at first and Tru said “But he has a mouth!” We let Levi watch his birth video (I made it so he couldn’t see anything gruesome, just him appearing on my chest. He is still confused and thinks we need to cut the baby out. OUCH! He demonstrates with his hands on my belly. I asked Tru where babies come from since I didn’t know what his thoughts were. He said “From your butt.” in a really *obviously* tone of voice. It made me laugh!

 
Labor signs? I guess now would be a good time to add this question. I wouldn’t say that it’s a “labor sign” per say, but I did feel baby kind of move down or something about 3 days ago. After that, the pelvic pressure because immense and I can feel his head in my pelvis. Like when I’m walking, it’s weird cause there is this roundness inside. Hard to explain…. anyway… I am also having menstrual type cramps off and on and BH contractions. I had a check up today and I am 2cm dilated. Not sure on effacement, if I am at all. But I’m thrilled to have 2cm out of the way already! Hopefully labor kicks off on it’s own. OH, and I found out that my group B strep test came back negative, which is awesome!!

 

 

The Dr I saw today had me schedule an induction for 39 weeks but then called me later and said she hadn’t realized I had a prior c-section until she looked through my notes. So she doesn’t want to induce with pitocin (and neither do I) so her suggestion was that I go in at 39 weeks and they break my water and see if I go into labor. Which is a big bucket of nopes for me! First, I don’t want to be on the clock when they won’t give me pitocin if labor doesn’t start. (SO different that my last clinic who pushed pitocin like it was the best thing ever! I really didn’t like it because it made my contractions unnaturally close. Like, almost no break at all. And that is why it was turned off after only 1.5 hours.) Second, I am in no rush to lose the cushion of the water because it can lead to distress in the baby and definitely made my contractions with Levi infinitely more painful but not more productive! Third, I feel like that is a recipe for a c-section and I only want a c-section if baby and/or I NEED one. Not just because we wouldn’t let nature take it’s course. Anyway… I have a check up with my primary OB next week, Lord willing, and I plan to talk all this over with her and get her thoughts and let her know how I feel about it. I do hope we can start with something simple like a membrane sweep and not try to get in a rush. Ultimately, I do feel that this group of Drs (at least most of them) are willing to hear me and not be pushy. I really appreciate that!

 

 
Dear God, thank You for this beautiful day and for the blessings we’ve experienced all week. Please continue to watch over our family while we make this big, exciting transition to adding another precious person. Please keep Zane healthy and strong and I pray that You will work out all the details of the birth according to Your will. In Jesus’ name, amen.

 

 

How far along? 34 weeks 6 days (10-14-17) I hit a wall today with feeling like I will be pregnant with this baby forever while simultaneously having worries over the birth. I had a cry while I was driving, being careful to make myself stop crying and blow the AC on my face before I reached my destination. Unfortunately, crying didn’t make me feel better and my nose was red, but walking around in the fresh air and sunshine and spending time with DH and the boys at a fundraising event DH was singing at made me feel a lot better. Emotional pregnant lady coming through! 😉

 
Symptoms? I suppose that being emotional could make the list! I also have:
⦁ Sore nips (STILLLLLLL) And I keep forgetting to say, they have been so dry that I started using my new cream on them. It’s helped quite a bit.
⦁ Very sore feet despite rubbing them with balm and soaking them in epsom salt frequently. I will say, all this balm has made my feet really soft!!
⦁ Increased pelvic pressure and mild SPD pain. It’s mostly the grinding at night when I roll over. But when I walk much or carry extra weight, it flares up. I think it was worse with Tru and Levi though.
⦁ And apparently horrible pregnancy brain because I can’t think of much else at the moment….
⦁ I certainly have the normal aches and pains of the third trimester…. the breathlessness (especially early in the day and right after laying down sometimes), tiredness and just general difficulty hauling my big belly around. But I can’t complain. I definitely am doing pretty well yet.

 
Weight? +37 according to my scale at home. The Dr’s office scale says no gain in 3 weeks. In fact, according to their scale, I’ve lost maybe half a pound. But since I always weigh myself first thing in the morning at home, I’m more apt to believe my scale. 😉

 
Sleep? I wake up several times a night to pee, which is nothing new, of course. But lately, the pressure from the baby makes me feel like I am barely going to make it out of bed, let alone actually get to the toilet! But sleep in general has been going well. I think that the combination of rubbing my feet and calves, drinking my 4 cups of raspberry leaf tea per day, and taking my magnesium has really helped with calming the restless legs syndrome. I still have times when the RLS drives me nuts. But honestly, I’m pretty convinced it’s the tea that has helped the most, even though I’ve never seen anything saying that it helps that issue.

 
Cravings/aversions? Nothing notable. Although I am enjoying my raspberry leaf tea lately. I’ve been brewing a quart at a time and drinking it throughout the day. I let it cool and add maybe 1/8 cup of sugar. Then I chill it and drink it iced. YUM!

 
Exercise? Still not happening…. ;P

 
Bump? I had a growth ultrasound yesterday and baby is measuring 6lbs even. That puts him in the 57th percentile. His head is wayyyy down in my pelvis. So low that they had trouble getting a good measurement. He looked great and was sucking those little fingers, of course. I’m convinced that is almost all he does in there! He had one foot by his face and in the picture they printed for us, his toe is touching his eye! He was facing my back and kept sticking his butt out. The tech kept digging the probe into my belly button while trying to take measurements and my belly was so sore after that! Even on a normal day, I can feel the heat radiating from my belly button when I put my hand over my belly because it is so angry at being stretched. Also, I think his fluid was 12ish cm. Last week it was 17.

 

 

Aside from that, I had a check up and NST yesterday as well which included the lovely group-b strep swab. I was GBS positive with Tru but not with Levi. Hoping it comes back negative because I don’t want antibiotics if I can avoid them. I have taken so much probiotics this time in an attempt to combat the daily maintenance dose I already have to be on.

 

 

Anyway, I had a contraction on the monitor so the Dr wanted to check for dilation while she was at it. Not much going on yet. Which is good, I guess. But I hope my body starts getting ready soon because I am SOOOO wanting to avoid an induction AND definitely worry that if I do end up going to my due date, baby will be too big and I’ll need a c-section. These were mainly the things I was crying about earlier…. Nerves regarding the when and how of the birth. But I’ll try to be sensible and remain calm… key word, try.

 

After my appointment, we did some stocking up on groceries for after baby comes. I have the meal components in a box and wrote a list of the meals with detailed instructions for DH or whoever is heating them up. I have anything that can be pre-prepped, in the freezer already. I still want to freeze several more meals but I think I have at least 8 ready to go so far. 🙂 Lasagna, meatloaf, tacos, chili, pot roast, venison and noodles, chicken fajitas, bbq meatballs, and a few frozen pizzas.

 

Overall this week was uneventful aside from Tru waking up before 6am Monday, saying that his belly hurt. I asked if he was going to throw up and he said no. So I made him a bed on my bedroom floor and was awoken a bit later to him throwing up. I jumped out of bed (well, as much as one can jump in my state) and called to DH to grab a towel. He threw one out of the bathroom but it was too late. Sadly, Tru threw up twice more that morning. But he was back to feeling like himself later in the day and was eating and playing again by noon. I don’t know if he was sick or if it was just his belly being off.

 

 

I have plans to attend a CPR class next week with my mom and several of my sisters. Levi had an incident at the birthday party that DH’s mom had for Tru last week (side note: need to post Tru’s 4 year update!) where he choked really bad on a gummy worm. It was a joint effort from DH’s sister and me to remove it and it left me and Levi both very shook up. He stayed pretty close to me for the next hour or so and I just felt nervous the rest of the day. I already had plans to take the CPR class, but that really cemented the decision for me, so that night I sent my RSVP. I wanted my sisters and mom to take the class too because they watch my kids and other kids all the time. When Levi choked so bad, I realized that I don’t know what to do really. I was able to get the gummy worm out, but what is the procedure if you can’t remove the object? That’s why I’m glad to be taking the class!

 

 

Wow, I didn’t mean for this post to take such a heavy turn! I want to end on a good note, so I’ll just say, it was a beautiful day today with the weather and I enjoyed being with my little family. The boys got to play in bouncy houses and we encountered some very sweet, small town people. One vendor gave me half off on a sign I bought to give as a Christmas gift, plus she gave the boys each a treat for free. I won a storage container from another vendor. DH had the opportunity to bless people with his music and gave away some CDs. He played at 2 events today but I brought the boys home after the first one. They worked on a craft they were given at the event, then took naps while I got some much needed rest. Then they played with their new dry erase markers (literally their favorite thing right now!) and we had a quiet evening. Overall, a very nice end to a fairly quiet week. 🙂

 

 

Dear God, thank You for the beautiful weather and the family time you blessed us with this week. Thank You for Zane looking so healthy! Please bless us with a beautiful birth in whatever way is Your will for him to be born. I pray that he will be born at the right time and be healthy and safe. In Jesus’ name, amen.

 

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