Archives for category: daily life

I wish I had more birth pictures I could share but the birth went so fast, we don’t actually have very many pictures. Due to the room being dark, the few pictures we do have are either dark, yellow and blurry from the dim light and no flash or very white when my sister tried using the flash. That’s ok though. Here are a few that I felt were post worthy and showed the mood* and atmosphere of the labor, birth and the first few days at home. Enjoy!

*You may notice that DH is stuck in a smile during the labor. He’s not trying to be cheesy for these candid shots, that’s just how the labor went. Apparently I crack a lot of dark but hilarious jokes when I’m running on almost 24 hours of no sleep and am in the thick of labor.

Stopping in the hall for a quick shot between contractions.


After getting out of the shower, I decided to try laboring on my left side through a few contractions.

IMG_3179 (2)

I tried sitting on the ball and rocking my hips for a few minutes. That was very unpleasant.

After DH helped me get my bra back on, I went to the rocking chair. This is where transition took place and the pains became less manageable. Nobody but the nurse believed I was about to give birth though. It just felt so soon!


I moved to the bed after the rocking chair and labored through a few contractions leaning over the back of the bed. Then I asked for the Dr to come break my water. I laid on my right side and began pushing before rolling onto my back and delivering him.

IMG_3217 (2)

And then he was here!

IMG_3235 (2)

After nursing for awhile



IMG_3265 IMG_3259.JPG


This is about an hour after the birth. He’s been weighed and nursed and now his eyes were goopy from the ointment.


First cuddles with Daddy.


IMG_3311 (2)

Meeting big brothers who were ever so excited. (And yes, Tru is wearing a mixing bowl that he decorated with paper and tape.)


Zane couldn’t get over his excitement and wanted to hold Quayd forever


Then it was Levi’s turn


And finally Tru had a turn


Then Zane cried and cried because we wouldn’t let him carry Quayd around like a stuffed animal



First bath. I think he was 3 days old. The same day his cord fell off.





Two adorable baby boys, well on their way to best friends status. โค


Our little guy’s personality has come so alive the last couple weeks. He smiles constantly, coos, giggles, laughs when we tickle around his neck, he’s far less fussy, he loves to look at me and smile as he softly sucks his binky while he falls asleep. ๐Ÿ’• He’s completely stolen my heart! I can’t tell you how many times a day I look at him and just feel overwhelmed with love. He’s everything that our family could ever hope for, wrapped in the most precious little baby bundle. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Quayd loves laying on the play mat and even swats at the toys although he doesn’t grab onto them often yet. I see him following us around the room with his eyes and turning his head towards our voices. His arms and legs are in constant motion when he’s focused on looking at his toys, like he thinks if he just kicks and waves hard enough he will be able to get to it. I also notice his little mouth working in concentration. It’s positively adorable!

His current schedule is:

  • Wake up about 8-9am and nurse, smile and interact with me while I pump. We stay in my bedroom for this feeding because he usually falls back to sleep.
  • Quayd wakes up again around 10:30-11am. Eat, play on his mat, smiles and interacts with his brothers for a bit and then usually takes a nap in his swing.
  • Wake around 1pm to eat, play more, sit in his little portable seat for a bit and then maybe eat again before another nap.
  • He continues through this cycle throughout the day but not at distinguished times.
  • Around 10-11pm he starts to fuss and won’t settle until he’s swaddled with his pacifier in his or my bed. I usually nurse him again and he falls asleep in his co sleeper for the night. The last week he’s been going to sleep for the night closer to 10:30, whereas previously it was around midnight usually.
  • Wake to nurse anywhere from 3-5am. If he doesn’t wake on his own, I dream feed him and use my haakaa pump out of necessity so I can remove some milk.

I’m still using my medela pump morning and night and using the haakaa about 2-3 times during the evening and during our middle of the night feeding. Usually I’m pumping around 28 ounces a day with the majority of that being in the morning.

*A bit TMI* I’m feeling pretty good and mostly back to normal. I think I’ve lost about 27lbs and I’m actually decently happy with my weight right now. My only real complaint is I’ve been having a LOT of heart palpitations the last 2 weeks. One experience was strange where we were walking in a corn maze with my in-laws. I felt perfectly normal when out of nowhere I had a strong flutter in my chest and felt my body go limp. I fell to my hands and knees as I had no ability to stand. If I was holding the baby, I’m sure I’d have dropped him, which scares me. Thankfully my mil had a wet washcloth and bottled water in her bag (apparently she’s prepared for absolutely anything, anywhere, which is super awesome) and after I drank some water and wiped my face, I started to feel more normal, albeit a little weak. I’m really hoping that never happens again because it scared me how it was out of nowhere. Maybe I was a little dehydrated though because looking back at that morning, I hadn’t drank much water besides my coffee. That same day I also started a 6 day long spree of stop and start spotting after having been completely done with all that for nearly 3 whole weeks. I don’t know if that was some kind of mini af or what but I’m definitely hoping af will stay gone for a few more months. ๐Ÿคž*

Anyway, that’s all I have time for now. I’m trying to get an update for Tru posted this week (HE JUST TURNED 6 YEARS OLD!!! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ’•) and Zane (we saw the hematologist and everything seems to be normal with our little toddler person โค๏ธ praise the Lord!!). I just need to find a few spare minutes to get those typed up.

Dear God, thank You for 2 more beautiful weeks with this precious little baby. He’s such a joy to our family and such a sweet person. I’m so thankful You chose to bless our family with Quayd. Please watch over and protect him all the days of his life. In Jesus’ name, amen.

I sent this to my sister and she sent it back edited. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m happy to say that I survived the toy isle while pushing a double stroller and nursing an infant. I felt pretty hardcore after that. ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

Zane FINALLY started saying “mommy” this week. A few days ago I thought he said it but I wasn’t sure. Today he was coloring and wanted me to look at his picture and he held it up saying “Mommmmy!” My heart is so happy!! Why he waited so long to finally say my name is beyond me. The kid says dozens of words and several phrases as well as a few sentences (and yes, he says “Daddy” sometimes) but only now did he seem to realize that mommy has a name! ๐Ÿ’™

I kept wanting to post all last week but I was so busy that I never dedicated any time to actually doing it. We had a really good week though! I’m happy to say that I got feeling better after the mastitis and felt like week 5 was when I finally was able to really bond with Quayd and come out of the sleep deprived haze and just fully enjoy him.

Saturday, the day he turned 5 weeks, DH and I got up super early, my mom and little sis came over to watch the boys and we headed to the annual fundraising walk that DH plays music at each year. I carried Quayd in the Moby wrap for 2+ hours and he LOVED it. It was really fun to have that time with him where I could just smell his little baby head and kiss his face while I carried him. Anyway, I started having some breast pain as the day wore on, so when we got home I rested as much as I could while DH and his dad worked on a project outside.

Sunday was church and later on we went to see DH’s parents.

Monday I had my postpartum visit. It was quick and easy and everything checked out well. The dr said she didn’t really think I had thrush in my nipples even though I had several symptoms. Just to be safe though, I do have a prescription in case symptoms flair up.

Quayd had his one month checkup on Tues. He checked out beautifully and his stats were: weight – 12lbs 1oz (92nd%ile), height – 22.25″ (69th%ile), head circumference 38cm (60th%ile). We actually spent a significant portion of Quayd’s appointment talking about Zane since the pediatrician had referred him to the hematologist and I wanted to know what to expect. Zane had gotten bloodwork done the week before that came back worse than before, so the pediatrician asked me to bring him in on Thurs so he could look him over while we wait for the hematology appointment.

Wednesday I just stayed home and cleaned.

So, Thurs Zane had his checkup. He looked great, has gained weight and is 24lbs 5oz now and his dr was very encouraging about what to expect when we go to the hematologist this week. Full update to follow on Zane soon. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thurs evening we took the boys to a street fair and ended up staying till about 9:30pm watching tractor pulls and eating cotton candy and pizza. ๐Ÿ˜œ

Fri after DH got done with work we took my brother to get the title notarized for the truck we sold him. His first ever vehicle! ๐Ÿ™‚ Levi had an appointment, we went grocery shopping, stopped by my parent’s house for a quick visit and then went to the street fair again to watch the garden tractor and pedal pulls. The kids didn’t last as long that night so we left around 9pm.

Saturday we waited till evening and then went to a pumpkin patch and went for a glow stick corn maze. It was crazy and we were in there for over an hour. Just as lost as we could be! ๐Ÿ˜‚ A guy finally came and helped us get out, which was good because Tru and Levi were starting to get worried.

Sunday morning I had an awful time finding something to wear. All my shirts are just a tad small still. So after church, DH took the boys to the park while I went clothes shopping at a new store in town. (I actually found 7 shirts, a skirt and 2 dresses.) Then we met up at his parent’s house and ended up staying the rest of the day and ordering pizza again for supper.

That brings us back around to today, Tuesday. I’m getting ready to have a friend over to visit. Tomorrow another friend is planning to come over. ๐Ÿ™‚

So, what’s new with Quayd…

  • Lots more smiles and even a few coos/giggles
  • Much more alert and very interested in everything going on around him
  • Hates baths with a passion
  • His skin is clearing up and his cheeks are ever so kissable
  • He sleeps a good 3-6 hours at a time at night and usually is back to sleep after he eats. He tends to wake up around 4-5am and again around 7:30-8:30am. Then he’s up for the morning around 10-11am. He stays awake a couple hours and then takes a longish nap.
  • He’s starting to get very fussy when he’s ready to go to bed and doesn’t calm down when we hold him. I change his diaper, put him in his swaddle and lay him down and he chomps his pacifier till he goes to sleep. Mostly this has been around 10-11:30pm. I’m still trying to learn his schedule.
  • During the day he eats pretty often. I don’t really pay attention but it’s probably every 1.5-3 hours max.
  • I had to start pumping morning and evening with my medela pump to make sure I’m getting fully drained. I do NOT want to play around with blocked ducts or mastitis again! I use the Haakaa pump about twice during the day and during the middle of the night feeding. It does a good job and I like it but it’s definitely not a complete drain.
  • The boys still love to hug and hold Quayd. Every morning they come into my room and almost without fail they ask if he has learned to crawl yet. ๐Ÿ˜‚ They are very anxious for him to be able to play with toys and interact with them. They LOVE that he smiles at them now. The other day I heard Tru telling Zane “I’m glad that you can say things now!” I know they’ll be so happy for Quayd to learn new things too. ๐Ÿ™‚
  • Quayd will sit in his swing for short periods but I still hold him the majority of the day. He tends to wake up as soon as we lay him down. He is becoming more content for longer periods though, so I think maybe he is outgrowing his more fussy stage. Definitely not complaining though. I enjoy holding him and it gives me the perfect excuse to sit down and take lots of breaks.
  • Thankfully tummy time is super easy as Quayd loves to take a quick evening nap on his belly after the older kids go to bed. DH lays him on his belly on the floor and we watch him while he falls asleep and naps for a bit before we take him to our room for his bedtime feeding.


ear God, thank You for Quayd. Thank You for helping me to feel better so I can enjoy taking care of him and his brothers. Please help us to stay healthy and enjoy this fall. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Written 9-12-19

Shew! What.A.Week. Last Thurs I came down with mastitis. I thought I was in the clear after the pain I’d been having the day before let up Thurs morning, but no. My body was just gearing up for the real pain that was coming that afternoon. By bedtime it had progressed red streaking, pain in my right breast, body aches and a fever with chills intermittently all night and into Fri morning. Fri I was also dizzy and nauseous. I spent all of Fri weak and laying in the recliner. Sat was a little better but I still laid around all day. Sun I made it to church and to the dollar store to grab a few things but by then my boob was aching again. Here it is a whole week later and the lump and pain are pretty much gone but I still don’t feel like myself. It doesn’t help that I came down with a head cold on Mon too and am dealing with a possible thrush infection in my nipples now. *sigh* I do have my postpartum checkup next week, so I’m hoping that if I still feel so run down by then, the dr will be able to shed some light on why and help me get feeling better.

But enough about me!! Little Quayd is smiling now!! He smiled for me a couple times yesterday and even cooed. DH didn’t believe he could actually smile but he was holding Quayd out on the porch and came hurrying in to tell me that Quayd smiled at him too. ๐Ÿ˜Š I’m excited for more smiles and coos and to see Quayd’s personality developing.

I’m always scared to admit this but sleep has been pretty good the last couple weeks. We even had 2 nights where Quayd slept from around 11pm to 5am, I think and 12:30am to 6:50am. I did wake up and pump in the night one of those nights. Most of the rest of the nights he’s been going to sleep anywhere from 11:30pm-1:30am and then waking to eat around 2-4am and again at 5-7am and then at 8am and up for the day around 10am. I’m really glad he’s getting the hang of sleep and I hope he stays on a good schedule.

Some things about Quayd at 4 weeks:

  • He’s only content when he’s awake if he’s being held, but specifically, walked or moved around. He’s not generally happy for long when he’s awake, unfortunately. This seems to be solidly linked to his belly being painful much of the time. I’ve started giving him infant probiotic drops to see if that helps.
  • He actually has moments where he likes tummy time, which is super cute. ๐Ÿ’™
  • He seems to have a lot of trouble pooping but he’s not constipated. He just strains so much before finally having success. Poor little guy. :/
  • The boys are loving Quayd being more alert now. They love talking to him, holding his hands and kissing the top of his head. Levi asks to hold him frequently but Tru and Zane are content with just holding his hands and kissing him.
  • Quayd hates baths for the most part, so we just do those every few days and sponge him off in-between times. He’s got very oily skin on his face and of course, baby acne, but it seems to be clearing up now. I forget if I mentioned this in my last update but it’s interesting to me that we both had a breakout at the same time. Like our hormones are still linked somehow.
  • I weighed Quayd yesterday and if my scale is correct, he’s already 11lbs 12oz!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ That’s over 3lbs up from his birth weight of 8lbs 6oz. I’m looking forward to his checkup next week to see if my scale is telling the truth.
  • I ordered a bunch of pacifiers and we found one Quayd likes. Amazon sent me a pink and purple one instead of the blue ones in the picture. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m just happy we finally got one that makes Quayd’s mouth feel happy. ๐Ÿ’™
  • I bought a swing last week and finally set it up today. He seemed to like it for the few minutes we tried it!

I’m really thankful for all those meals I froze at the end of pregnancy. Between those (16, but actually more because some were big enough to last a couple nights), the meals people have brought us (4), the pre prepped frozen meals I bought (3) and the couple times we’ve bought take out, I’ve only had to actually cook a few times! It’s been great. Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end as we only have 3 frozen meals left. It’s gonna be tough to get back in the swing of things with meal prep and planning but it will also be nice to have some freshly prepared food. Frozen just is never the same.

Dear God, thank You for pulling us through this week. Please bless us with strength and health and happiness. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Fresh and clean after his bath

Ever since Quayd was born there is a question everyone, young and old, asks as soon as they first see him. “What is that redness on his face?”

At first everyone just assumed it was bruising from the birth. In fact, when he was born I myself didn’t even consider that the redness could be anything other than bruising until the nurses pointed it out and told us it was called Stork Bites. They said this is common and tends to go away or lighten in color by age 3, but a couple of Quayd’s marks are very dark and might not go away. The marks on the back of his head, neck and back won’t be going away.

Now I’m getting the question “Were you sad when you saw the stork bites and found out they might not go away?” The answer to this is simply, no. To be honest, I was so in love with my new little boy, it didn’t occur to me that being sad about his appearance was even possible! Actually, I thought they were pretty cute. It’s just part of how my little Quayd is made and it doesn’t bother DH or I at all. Now, as to whether it might bother Quayd someday, I don’t know. If the marks never lighten or go away, he might not like them, particularly if he gets teased about them. But I hope he will see them as something that makes him unique in a good way. In fact, in some cultures, stork bites (which are also commonly called angel kisses) are actually seen as a sign of good luck!

So, a few things to know about stork bites:

  • They’re not contagious.
  • It’s not rash.
  • They become darker when Quayd is hot or when he cries.
  • They are super obvious if we use the camera flash or if he’s in bright lighting. For this reason you might notice them more in some pictures than others.
  • I’m not sure exactly what causes them but I’ve read online that they are composed of hyper dilated blood vessels.
  • No, it’s not from our rapid birth experience. Quayd already had these marks prior to birth.
  • And last but not least, it doesn’t hurt my feelings that people are curious about why his face has redness on it. I am surprised by the shear number of people who stop to ask about it, but I think at first everyone just assumed it was bruising from the birth.

Guys! I don’t want to regret saying this later but, we’ve had 4 good nights of sleep in a row! In fact, the last 2 nights Quayd slept from 12:30am (when we went to bed) until 5:45am. I actually woke him up to eat this morning when I woke up at 5:30am so engorged that I absolutely needed him to eat. He usually eats around that time anyway but had also been waking up for a 2:30am feeding. Then he sleeps most mornings from 6am to 8am and then goes back to sleep after a half hour or so and sleeps until 10-11am. He’s having so much more alert time each day and I think we are starting to see a schedule emerging. I love that he’s awake now for an hour or two here and there. His eyes and facial expressions are so stinking cute! The boys absolutely love seeing him awake. But sleeping cuddles are always the best. โค๏ธ๐Ÿ˜Š

This baby is a chunk!! DH and I both stepped on the scale with him tonight and he appears to be 10lbs 12oz already! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฎ I don’t even know what to think about that. He probably won’t fit size one diapers much longer. He’s completely out of his newborn outfits and is filling out his 0-3 month outfits perfectly and some 3 month outfits almost fit already. Thankfully his belly button is fully healed now and isn’t bleeding anymore like it had been last week.

This was my first week solo with the kids all day, all week. It went pretty well! My older sister came to visit us on Sat and then we visited some of DH’s relatives later on. Sun we had church and then a church party afterwards. It was a long and tiring day as it was over 90ยฐ and very humid outside and we were there for hours but it was so great to be around friends and family and get to show the little guy off as it was our first time back at church since he was born.

Today (Mon) we went for a quick visit to see DH’s parents and pick Tru and Levi up from them since they spent the night last night. Then we went for a drive and bought a sort of picnic lunch. I’m pretty tired now and I feel like this is a bit jumbled, so here are some bullet points….

  • Quayd is still a bit fussy when he’s awake but he loves the baby carrier and I bought him a swing today (our old swing broke) and I’m hoping he will like that too.
  • He smiled at me for real once at 2 weeks 4 days (Aug 24th) but only tiny smiles since. I’m so looking forward to more smiles!
  • He loves being talked and sang to.
  • He’s definitely not a huge fan of being in his carseat but usually calms down as soon as I turn on some music.
  • We’ve tried 6 different types of pacifiers and he’s just not great at keeping them in his mouth but he’s starting to accept them more. I have one more style to try!
  • Poor little guy is awfully gassy. He almost never spits up and isn’t a big burper but boy does he rips some big ones! His poor belly gets so painful. I have some gripe water that I plan to try giving him tomorrow now that he’s old enough to use it.
  • Im still using the haakaa pump several times a day at feedings but I’ve had to pull out my medela a couple mornings when the engorgement was too intense. I’m typically getting 20+ ounces a day depending on how many feedings I pump during with the haakaa.
  • I’ve lost around 23lbs now and aside from sore nipples and a headache every day, I feel pretty normal again. ๐Ÿ™‚ Definitely still some lingering brain fog, but hopefully that will clear up now that I’m getting longer periods of sleep.

Levi asks constantly to hold Quayd and I feel bad that, because Quayd is pretty fussy, I usually have to say no. Overall, the boys have done AMAZING with this whole transition. I expected they would take it much harder than they have. Levi has probably struggled the most as he’s always been our most cuddly kid and needs LOTS of attention. I took him out for ice cream the other day while I ran a quick errand with just him and Quayd. I think he liked that special time together as he chatted with me the whole time. โค๏ธI started school with Tru and Levi on Aug 29th. It was hard to get it all done but they enjoyed their lessons. I’m nervous about having so much to do every day and I know it won’t be easy, but I’m so thankful for this time to pour into these little guys while they are so young and so happy to just be with me. I’ll have to post more on this later though. I need to do seperate updates on each kid as they are long overdue for an update now.

Dear God, thank You for more sleep and more bonding time with Quayd. Thank You for how well he’s doing and for blessing us so much with such a beautiful baby boy. Please keep watching over us and protecting each of us. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Written 8-24-19

Things are settling in and we are finding our rhythm now a bit more. Even though we still have just pieced together bits of sleep at night (and some nights he doesn’t really sleep until 2-3am!), the fogginess isn’t so profound most of the time and I’m learning how to function on less sleep again.

DH’s sister and her family came to visit today and meet Quayd. It was such a beautiful day that we ended up spending the entire day outside from morning until evening. DH and I took the kids for a walk in our neighboring town and rented a movie and made popcorn for movie night. It was nice and I think the boys really enjoyed it. We actually took a walk around town yesterday too. Now that it’s not a million degrees out we are really enjoying getting to be outside again. This was Quayd’s most awake and alert day so far. I think he liked being outside. ๐Ÿ™‚

Really he’s been an incredibly sleepy baby so far and when he is awake, he’s either eating or crying. Not much of his awake time is spent being content, although he does love it when we talk or sing to him. He’s great at engaging in eye contact and focusing on our face while we talk. He still does the cutest blinky eyes when he wakes up and tries to adjust his eyes to the light. It melts my heart!

I’m really glad I bought the Haakaa pump this time. I’ve literally only used my medela 5 times. I love that I can use the Haakaa on one side while I nurse on the other and it’s noiseless and I only have one thing to wash afterwards. I’ve been using it at about 2/3 of feedings and have been able to collect about 20 ounces per day, some of which I’m freezing but mostly I’m trying to get as much breastmilk in Zane as possible. (Unfortunately, poor Zane had his latest bloodwork come back about the same as last month. Basically we are still in limbo and waiting to retest again next month.)

I can’t believe Quayd has already gained over a pound! He was 9lbs 9oz yesterday, up from 8lbs 6oz at birth. He nurses pretty much every 2 hours all day, occasionally going closer to 3 hours. In the evenings after the boys go to bed, I take Quayd to my room and just sit in bed nursing him almost constantly for a couple hours (cluster feeding, I guess) while trying to keep him awake as much as possible so he will sleep at night. Overnight he nurses about every 2-3 hours but occasionally doesn’t go quite as long. Despite the fact that he is constantly taking in milk, he hardly ever spits up. He really doesn’t like his pacifier too well, although he will take it sometimes. He would LOVE to use me as a pacifier full time though. ๐Ÿ˜‚ We learned that, just like Tru, Quayd absolutely hates being swaddled with his arms down. He likes to sleep with his arms up by his head, so I wrap the swaddle at night so that his arms are out.

DH went back to work on Thurs this week and then worked from home Fri. My sister M came over for a couple hours Thurs to visit and then a friend brought dinner which was awesome and super helpful! Being on my own with the kids went pretty smoothly, thank God and I’m just hoping we get into a groove easily and quickly. ๐Ÿ™‚

As for me, I’m definitely not feeling like myself emotionally yet as much as I’d hoped, but more so than last week, so that’s good. I think more sleep would probably go a long way with helping me feel less foggy and moody. I know this newborn phase where they don’t sleep well at night doesn’t usually last too long, so I’m just trying to get by until then. DH is great about taking the baby so I can sleep but unfortunately I still have a hard time racking up enough Z’s. The postpartum night sweats don’t help either but I think they’re supposed to calm down after 2 weeks. On the plus side, I’ve managed to drop 21 pounds already, so I’m pretty happy about that! It’s opened up a lot more outfit choices again too, which is awesome. ๐Ÿ™‚

Dear God, thank You for beautiful weather to enjoy with the kids and for blessing us so much. Please help me to recover quickly and feel back to my usual self soon. Thank You for Quayd doing so well with eating and growing and I pray that he will have more happy alert times during the day soon. In Jesus’ name, amen.

And just like that, in a sleep deprived haze, Quayd is already one week old. So, he was born on a Saturday and we came home Sunday. My sister L was here until Thurs morning. On Tues DH and I took Quayd for his pediatric appointment. He’d only lost 1 ounce since discharge from the hospital, so he was 7lbs 15oz, and my milk had started coming in right before we had left the hospital. It was in full force with engorgement by 48 hours after delivery, so the pediatrician said we don’t need to come back for a month. ๐Ÿ™‚ Surprisingly, his cord stump fell off at only 3 days old. It seems to be fine though and I think he’s got an innie belly button. ๐Ÿ˜

DH and I had been taking turns throughout the night holding Quayd since he just wouldn’t sleep. Then he got to the point where he wouldn’t sleep unless I, in particular, was holding him and even then he really wanted to use the boob as a pacifier. Thank God, we finally got some sleep Thurs and Fri. I’m so hoping we continue getting sleep. I feel completely jet lagged and exhausted currently but I see light at the end of the tunnel if we can continue getting a couple hours at a time.

The boys have adjusted amazingly and they are so in love with their new brother. Zane isn’t even jealous, which is huge shock! Levi is a tad jealous but handling it well overall.

Quayd is a very sleepy baby during the day but we are beginning to see glimpses of his eyes for a few minutes here and there throughout the day. He is so adorable and all I want to do is just snuggle him and stare at his perfect little self. โค๏ธ He has a happy looking face and always looks like he has a slight smile going on. He also leaves his tongue sticking out a lot which is just too much cuteness. ๐Ÿ˜Š

As for me, I’m recovering pretty well. The sore, cracked nipples were a doozy but Quayd is latching a bit deeper now, especially with the football hold and that helps. He’s not good with the nipple shield so we haven’t used that much. I’m really glad I bought the haakaa pump as it’s eliminated my need to pump separately throughout the day which is amazing. I have no soreness down below but I do have a headache. Oy!! We had to make a trip to the city yesterday to get more bloodwork for poor little Zane and then we had visitors here today. It’s been a bit hectic and my bleeding picked up a lot, so I’m going to try to just rest tomorrow as much as I can. The newborn phase is rough but I love this time with my sweet little baby ever so much and I’m trying my best to soak it in. โค๏ธ I’ve definitely been feeling the hormones this time though and have been so emotional, especially at night. Hopefully everything evens out soon.

Dear God, thank You so much for this amazing precious little boy. He’s so beautiful and we are so blessed to know and love him. Please help us as we recover and find our groove as a family of 6. Thank You dear Lord! In Jesus’ name, amen.

This is gonna be a long one folks!

He’s here, and amazingly, he came on his own. I last updated on Aug 8 at 38 weeks 1 day. The next morning, Friday, I woke up after a night of decent sleep, DH had even kept the kids quiet so I could sleep in a bit as he was working from home. I had an ob checkup scheduled for that afternoon and DH and I were planning to take the kids along with us but my mom convinced us to leave them home with my sisters M and K, just in case. Since I’d been 3cm the Sun before, we thought the dr might not want me to leave if I was at 4cm. So at 11:40, we set off on our long day of appointments. First I had to go to a lab to do our required insurance physical, then I had an nst at 2pm (which was apparently the first nst DH had ever attended with me in all these pregnancies!), a bpp at 2:30 and a visit with the ob at 3:15. We rushed from one appointment to another without time to spare for lunch or anything. The ob we saw was the one scheduled for our induction, so we talked over the plan with her and she checked my cervix. She declared it to be “great, stretchy, soft, shortening and 3 headed to 4cm”. I asked her if she would sweep my membranes and she did so, rather aggressively, although it wasn’t very painful at all. As soon as I stood up, I noticed some bleeding but not much else. The dr said she’d see me in 2 days, either for the induction or with my baby in the hospital. We also talked about skipping the epidural line placement since I had the spinal headache last time and the dr said she really didn’t think I needed it this time and that if she was delivering for me, she’d try to talk me through that “I can’t do this” bit of labor.

At our nst

Once DH and I left the parking lot, light contractions began. That was around 3:40pm. I immediately thought they felt more business like but I didn’t tell DH because I knew they’d go away and I didn’t want to get his hopes up. Maybe a half hour into our drive, I finally told him I was having frequent and uncomfortable contractions but that it was just from the sweep and not to think anything of it. I had been timing them though and DH was pretty unimpressed that I’d been hiding that from him. ๐Ÿ˜

See… Unorganized pattern and too short. The 1 hour 27 min break is when we stopped to eat finally and went to the store to pick up a few groceries which never made it into the refrigerator and exploded in the van… But that’s another story.

The contractions stayed pretty uncomfortable with cramping and aching in my low back, but I remained doubtful because of the duration. So we kept our original plan to pick up a pizza from a new place we’d discovered and have DH’s parents over for dinner at 6:30pm.

Once we got home, I didn’t feel like eating again already since we’d had a late lunch (but not the chili spaghetti we’d planned on eating because the line wasn’t moving. I just had a chicken wrap instead which was disappointing at the time but DH later remarked that it was probably a good thing!), so I just had a few bites of the pizza. DH went outside to work on a dirty project with his dad and I just mentioned to him that the contractions were about 3min apart but still able to walk and talk through, so probably nothing, but hey, don’t get too involved in the project. I decided to mop the kitchen floor because it was disgusting, so my mil and I chatted while I did that and then we went outside for a bit. At that point the contractions really quieted down and spread even further apart. K and I brought the kids inside around 8:30pm to give them a bath and get ready for bed. I decided to take a shower and, oh boy, the contractions suddenly piled on top of eachother but spaced out again as soon as I got out. I sat on the yoga ball for a bit while I finished getting the kids through their bedtime routine of Bible verses and prayer and hugs ect. I kept telling DH “We’ve got to get the kids to bed. I can’t go into labor until everything is squared away.” I just wanted everything to be quiet and dark so I could decide if I was in labor.

When Tru and Levi had gone to bed, we turned out most of the lights and K rubbed my feet for a few minutes, then DH laid Zane down. I had a few contractions, so I decided to go for a walk in the dark outside with DH. We barely made it out of our driveway before he made me turn around as the contractions became close again. He said this is definitely labor and we needed to go to the hospital, but I wanted to lay down for a little bit and see if the contractions went away first. Major denial! I just couldn’t believe it was real with how short they were.

I started timing at 10:05pm and you can see how they quickly picked up once we started walking at 10:26pm.

I laid down around 10:40pm and you can see they spaced out to 5 min apart again but they increased greatly in intensity and doubled in length. THAT is when I finally decided this is “probably” real and we need to go to the hospital. Keep in mind, we have an almost 1.5hr drive.

We left immediately after that and I stopped timing the contractions but DH was watching the clock while he was driving and listening to me breathe through the contractions and he informed me they were consistently 4-5 minutes apart. My mom dropped M off at my house and picked up K and they left about an hour behind us. I texted my mil, sil, bff and sisters and let them know we were going to the hospital to see if it was real labor. About an hour into the drive we stopped so I could use the restroom and DH could get coffee. It was after midnight by now.

We arrived at the hospital a few minutes before 1am and I got checked into triage where they hooked up the heartbeat and contraction monitors and checked dilation. I was 5-6cm and 80-90% effaced. It was definitely real labor!! They drew labs and started an IV. At 1:45am we moved to a room in l&d. I stopped several times along the way to lean against DH or the wall and work through the contractions which were quickly building in intensity and frequency. I think once I got to the hospital, I finally relaxed and everything started going quickly.

I realized I had no 38 week pics, so we stopped in the hall on the way to triage and snapped a quick one.

As soon as we were in our room, we met our l&d nurse, Sara. She was an amazing person and the most quiet and calming presence. She set laboring stations up all over the room for me to try different positions. The yoga ball, rocking chair etc. All I wanted was the shower, so she got me set up in there immediately. I couldn’t get comfortable because of my iv not being allowed to get wet, but let’s be honest, there is no comfortable labor position. The contractions continued to build in intensity and were coming pretty rapidly. Sometime just before 2:30am, mom and K arrived. I decided shortly after that, that I wanted my cervix checked because I needed to know that I’d made progress. The nurse said I was now 7cm and 90%. I decided to lay on my left side through a few contractions since that had seemed to speed things up with Zane and Levi. After that I moved to the rocking chair and tried not to panic as I was really feeling close to my max. That wasn’t working, so I moved to the ball. I hated that too so I just stood there feeling like I wanted to run away and go home. In between the contractions I kept telling my family all the reasons why labor sucks and describing the pain. That’s my coping mechanism, I guess.

At that point the pressure had increased, so the nurse checked again and I was 8-9cm and she noticed there was more cervix on the right side. She said I could try laying on my right or I could try hands and knees. She set the bed up so I could kneel on it and lean over the back. The contractions became absolutely unbearable in that position and she said that was a good sign. She did some counter pressure on my outer hips and it was very helpful. I had told the nurse earlier that I wanted to delay having my water broken in the hopes it would break on its own. At this point she said to me (kindly hinting) “I’m praying for a spontaneous rupture for you.” I looked at her and said “Will it go faster if the dr breaks my water?” and she said “yes.” My reply? “Let’s go for it then!”

The dr came in to the room, quietly. Everything was dim and quiet and relaxed. My water was broken in just a few seconds and I rolled over to my right side. The dr pulled up her stool and sat by the bed. The nurse said “she likes to sit with us” and I found that comforting. I immediately felt the pressure of baby’s head coming down once the water was gone and asked the dr if I could push. She said I could and checked to be sure I was 10cm. I laid there and tried to decide if I really wanted to push yet. My mom called my 3 sisters on video chat and M woke up Tru and Levi so they could watch the birth like I’d promised them we’d try our best to do so many times.

The dr said I could just stay there on my side and birth the baby if I wanted, so I gave a few gentle pushes and could feel water gushing each time. DH was holding my leg up for me but it started to cramp, so I rolled onto my back and the dr asked if I wanted them to raise the bed a bit as she thought it would help; so they did. The pressure of baby’s head was suddenly so incredibly intense and hot and it felt like I was literally going to explode in my pelvis. The dr asked me if I wanted to pull my legs back to help open the pelvis. That sounded absolutely terrible to me but I was desperate to be done, so DH and the nurse held my legs back for me. I pushed once and then started blowing through the contraction as his head was slowly born. The dr helped to ease his head through so I wouldn’t tear. The nurse said to give one tiny push, and with that, he was out. Screaming and slippery, at 3:23am on Aug 10th (just about 2.5 hours after arriving at the hospital), our fourth son was laying on my chest and I just looked at him in awe. I was so busy throughout the entire pregnancy that sometimes I’d almost forget that a baby was really and truly joining our family in August. And here he was! And he promptly peed straight onto my face. ๐Ÿ˜‚

The dr waited for the cord to stop pulsing, which took a few minutes and then DH cut the cord and I felt the urge to push once more and with that, the placenta was out and I was able to just bond with my baby and put him to the breast for his first feeding.

After our hour of skin on skin time, Quayd was weighed in at 8lbs 6.2oz and checked out healthy. After I’d finished receiving the 2 bags of pitocin (to prevent hemorrhage), I changed into my clothes and we were wheeled up to the mother baby unit. They weighed Quayd again and he’d lost an ounce due to peeing a couple more times and passing his first meconium diaper. He measured 53cm (almost 21″) and his head circumference was 34cm. He nursed and stayed alert almost constantly until about 8am. We were both discharged after 1 night and went home 36 hours after the birth. We are doing great and just learning the breastfeeding curve and hoping for sleep in our near future. ๐Ÿ˜‰

So, that’s the story folks. I thank the Lord for such a beautiful and relaxed experience and for giving us a labor and birth far beyond my wildest dreams. Thank You Jesus for another beautiful healthy son.

The Honest Mom

It's Not a Regular Mom Blog, It's a Honest Mom Blog

Kaden, My Superhero

Our complicated journey in and out of the NICU

Life. Love. Loss.

Writing and remembering

Pondering Mind ~ Wandering Soul

A place to release my random thoughts!


Experiencing Motherhood

Life Without Limitations

Life with a Special Care Baby

The Journey from Victim to Survivor

The good, the bad, and the ugly

First-time Mommy Blog

Learning As I Go

Ashlie in the Air

30-something frequent flyer thinking her thoughts out loud

Single Mom Daily

Dealing with heartbreak and morning sickness


The begining , the middle , birth and beyond ๐ŸŒฑ

The Chastened One

Finding God's promises in every season of life


Literally a first time mom, sharing all that happens during my pregnancy. My posts are real and true examples of a mom on her first journey with her first baby!

My PCOS Journey

PCOS, you're not alone, neither am I.


My Unexpected Experience with Pregnancy


My Quiet Place

Life From the Lemonade Stand

Faith, Family, Homemaking & Homeschooling

About Alistair

My journey through motherhood and beyond


everybody needs a little tuff love

The adopted ones blog

Two adoptees - one vocal the other not so much...


New mama to be and updates on my life and adventures.

Thoughtful Momma

Take a peek into the mind of a mom of many.

Dreaming of Diapers

A Tell All Infertility Blog 2019 & IVF Blog 2019

Dreaming Of Diapers

A Tell All Infertility Blog 2019 & IVF Blog 2019

Still No Baby

A brief insight into the lows of trying to conceive after a long time

Healthy & Brown

Where strength and healing meet

Downtown Abi

food + cats + art + life

Little Wolf Tribe

"A moment in my tummy; a lifetime in my heart."

mama etcetera

adulting adventures of a mama of 2

The adventures of being a mummy to two incredible girls.

Cartwheeling Down the Aisle

Our Life, Bilingual Family, Clubfoot, and Everything in Between

The Not So Fertile Goddess

and here we go again...

Hannah and The Dot

Chronicling our adventures


The road to becoming a family!

Girl Friday Makes Good

Working for The Best

Life Under Construction

Welcome to our crazy, funny, busy, lovely life under construction!


Navigating Infertility...

The Cashion Life

Adventures of Team WAC

Moose & Turtle on Vashon

our life on a PNW island

Getting Prague-nat

Our IVF abroad adventure

The Pick 6


Everyday Motherhood, Inspiration, & Beauty for the Extraordinary Woman.

Rin Hulbert

An Authentic Mess

%d bloggers like this: