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And just like that, in a sleep deprived haze, Quayd is already one week old. So, he was born on a Saturday and we came home Sunday. My sister L was here until Thurs morning. On Tues DH and I took Quayd for his pediatric appointment. He’d only lost 1 ounce since discharge from the hospital, so he was 7lbs 15oz, and my milk had started coming in right before we had left the hospital. It was in full force with engorgement by 48 hours after delivery, so the pediatrician said we don’t need to come back for a month. πŸ™‚ Surprisingly, his cord stump fell off at only 3 days old. It seems to be fine though and I think he’s got an innie belly button. 😁

DH and I had been taking turns throughout the night holding Quayd since he just wouldn’t sleep. Then he got to the point where he wouldn’t sleep unless I, in particular, was holding him and even then he really wanted to use the boob as a pacifier. Thank God, we finally got some sleep Thurs and Fri. I’m so hoping we continue getting sleep. I feel completely jet lagged and exhausted currently but I see light at the end of the tunnel if we can continue getting a couple hours at a time.

The boys have adjusted amazingly and they are so in love with their new brother. Zane isn’t even jealous, which is huge shock! Levi is a tad jealous but handling it well overall.

Quayd is a very sleepy baby during the day but we are beginning to see glimpses of his eyes for a few minutes here and there throughout the day. He is so adorable and all I want to do is just snuggle him and stare at his perfect little self. ❀️ He has a happy looking face and always looks like he has a slight smile going on. He also leaves his tongue sticking out a lot which is just too much cuteness. 😊

As for me, I’m recovering pretty well. The sore, cracked nipples were a doozy but Quayd is latching a bit deeper now, especially with the football hold and that helps. He’s not good with the nipple shield so we haven’t used that much. I’m really glad I bought the haakaa pump as it’s eliminated my need to pump separately throughout the day which is amazing. I have no soreness down below but I do have a headache. Oy!! We had to make a trip to the city yesterday to get more bloodwork for poor little Zane and then we had visitors here today. It’s been a bit hectic and my bleeding picked up a lot, so I’m going to try to just rest tomorrow as much as I can. The newborn phase is rough but I love this time with my sweet little baby ever so much and I’m trying my best to soak it in. ❀️ I’ve definitely been feeling the hormones this time though and have been so emotional, especially at night. Hopefully everything evens out soon.

Dear God, thank You so much for this amazing precious little boy. He’s so beautiful and we are so blessed to know and love him. Please help us as we recover and find our groove as a family of 6. Thank You dear Lord! In Jesus’ name, amen.


This is gonna be a long one folks!

He’s here, and amazingly, he came on his own. I last updated on Aug 8 at 38 weeks 1 day. The next morning, Friday, I woke up after a night of decent sleep, DH had even kept the kids quiet so I could sleep in a bit as he was working from home. I had an ob checkup scheduled for that afternoon and DH and I were planning to take the kids along with us but my mom convinced us to leave them home with my sisters M and K, just in case. Since I’d been 3cm the Sun before, we thought the dr might not want me to leave if I was at 4cm. So at 11:40, we set off on our long day of appointments. First I had to go to a lab to do our required insurance physical, then I had an nst at 2pm (which was apparently the first nst DH had ever attended with me in all these pregnancies!), a bpp at 2:30 and a visit with the ob at 3:15. We rushed from one appointment to another without time to spare for lunch or anything. The ob we saw was the one scheduled for our induction, so we talked over the plan with her and she checked my cervix. She declared it to be “great, stretchy, soft, shortening and 3 headed to 4cm”. I asked her if she would sweep my membranes and she did so, rather aggressively, although it wasn’t very painful at all. As soon as I stood up, I noticed some bleeding but not much else. The dr said she’d see me in 2 days, either for the induction or with my baby in the hospital. We also talked about skipping the epidural line placement since I had the spinal headache last time and the dr said she really didn’t think I needed it this time and that if she was delivering for me, she’d try to talk me through that “I can’t do this” bit of labor.

At our nst

Once DH and I left the parking lot, light contractions began. That was around 3:40pm. I immediately thought they felt more business like but I didn’t tell DH because I knew they’d go away and I didn’t want to get his hopes up. Maybe a half hour into our drive, I finally told him I was having frequent and uncomfortable contractions but that it was just from the sweep and not to think anything of it. I had been timing them though and DH was pretty unimpressed that I’d been hiding that from him. 😁

See… Unorganized pattern and too short. The 1 hour 27 min break is when we stopped to eat finally and went to the store to pick up a few groceries which never made it into the refrigerator and exploded in the van… But that’s another story.

The contractions stayed pretty uncomfortable with cramping and aching in my low back, but I remained doubtful because of the duration. So we kept our original plan to pick up a pizza from a new place we’d discovered and have DH’s parents over for dinner at 6:30pm.

Once we got home, I didn’t feel like eating again already since we’d had a late lunch (but not the chili spaghetti we’d planned on eating because the line wasn’t moving. I just had a chicken wrap instead which was disappointing at the time but DH later remarked that it was probably a good thing!), so I just had a few bites of the pizza. DH went outside to work on a dirty project with his dad and I just mentioned to him that the contractions were about 3min apart but still able to walk and talk through, so probably nothing, but hey, don’t get too involved in the project. I decided to mop the kitchen floor because it was disgusting, so my mil and I chatted while I did that and then we went outside for a bit. At that point the contractions really quieted down and spread even further apart. K and I brought the kids inside around 8:30pm to give them a bath and get ready for bed. I decided to take a shower and, oh boy, the contractions suddenly piled on top of eachother but spaced out again as soon as I got out. I sat on the yoga ball for a bit while I finished getting the kids through their bedtime routine of Bible verses and prayer and hugs ect. I kept telling DH “We’ve got to get the kids to bed. I can’t go into labor until everything is squared away.” I just wanted everything to be quiet and dark so I could decide if I was in labor.

When Tru and Levi had gone to bed, we turned out most of the lights and K rubbed my feet for a few minutes, then DH laid Zane down. I had a few contractions, so I decided to go for a walk in the dark outside with DH. We barely made it out of our driveway before he made me turn around as the contractions became close again. He said this is definitely labor and we needed to go to the hospital, but I wanted to lay down for a little bit and see if the contractions went away first. Major denial! I just couldn’t believe it was real with how short they were.

I started timing at 10:05pm and you can see how they quickly picked up once we started walking at 10:26pm.

I laid down around 10:40pm and you can see they spaced out to 5 min apart again but they increased greatly in intensity and doubled in length. THAT is when I finally decided this is “probably” real and we need to go to the hospital. Keep in mind, we have an almost 1.5hr drive.

We left immediately after that and I stopped timing the contractions but DH was watching the clock while he was driving and listening to me breathe through the contractions and he informed me they were consistently 4-5 minutes apart. My mom dropped M off at my house and picked up K and they left about an hour behind us. I texted my mil, sil, bff and sisters and let them know we were going to the hospital to see if it was real labor. About an hour into the drive we stopped so I could use the restroom and DH could get coffee. It was after midnight by now.

We arrived at the hospital a few minutes before 1am and I got checked into triage where they hooked up the heartbeat and contraction monitors and checked dilation. I was 5-6cm and 80-90% effaced. It was definitely real labor!! They drew labs and started an IV. At 1:45am we moved to a room in l&d. I stopped several times along the way to lean against DH or the wall and work through the contractions which were quickly building in intensity and frequency. I think once I got to the hospital, I finally relaxed and everything started going quickly.

I realized I had no 38 week pics, so we stopped in the hall on the way to triage and snapped a quick one.

As soon as we were in our room, we met our l&d nurse, Sara. She was an amazing person and the most quiet and calming presence. She set laboring stations up all over the room for me to try different positions. The yoga ball, rocking chair etc. All I wanted was the shower, so she got me set up in there immediately. I couldn’t get comfortable because of my iv not being allowed to get wet, but let’s be honest, there is no comfortable labor position. The contractions continued to build in intensity and were coming pretty rapidly. Sometime just before 2:30am, mom and K arrived. I decided shortly after that, that I wanted my cervix checked because I needed to know that I’d made progress. The nurse said I was now 7cm and 90%. I decided to lay on my left side through a few contractions since that had seemed to speed things up with Zane and Levi. After that I moved to the rocking chair and tried not to panic as I was really feeling close to my max. That wasn’t working, so I moved to the ball. I hated that too so I just stood there feeling like I wanted to run away and go home. In between the contractions I kept telling my family all the reasons why labor sucks and describing the pain. That’s my coping mechanism, I guess.

At that point the pressure had increased, so the nurse checked again and I was 8-9cm and she noticed there was more cervix on the right side. She said I could try laying on my right or I could try hands and knees. She set the bed up so I could kneel on it and lean over the back. The contractions became absolutely unbearable in that position and she said that was a good sign. She did some counter pressure on my outer hips and it was very helpful. I had told the nurse earlier that I wanted to delay having my water broken in the hopes it would break on its own. At this point she said to me (kindly hinting) “I’m praying for a spontaneous rupture for you.” I looked at her and said “Will it go faster if the dr breaks my water?” and she said “yes.” My reply? “Let’s go for it then!”

The dr came in to the room, quietly. Everything was dim and quiet and relaxed. My water was broken in just a few seconds and I rolled over to my right side. The dr pulled up her stool and sat by the bed. The nurse said “she likes to sit with us” and I found that comforting. I immediately felt the pressure of baby’s head coming down once the water was gone and asked the dr if I could push. She said I could and checked to be sure I was 10cm. I laid there and tried to decide if I really wanted to push yet. My mom called my 3 sisters on video chat and M woke up Tru and Levi so they could watch the birth like I’d promised them we’d try our best to do so many times.

The dr said I could just stay there on my side and birth the baby if I wanted, so I gave a few gentle pushes and could feel water gushing each time. DH was holding my leg up for me but it started to cramp, so I rolled onto my back and the dr asked if I wanted them to raise the bed a bit as she thought it would help; so they did. The pressure of baby’s head was suddenly so incredibly intense and hot and it felt like I was literally going to explode in my pelvis. The dr asked me if I wanted to pull my legs back to help open the pelvis. That sounded absolutely terrible to me but I was desperate to be done, so DH and the nurse held my legs back for me. I pushed once and then started blowing through the contraction as his head was slowly born. The dr helped to ease his head through so I wouldn’t tear. The nurse said to give one tiny push, and with that, he was out. Screaming and slippery, at 3:23am on Aug 10th (just about 2.5 hours after arriving at the hospital), our fourth son was laying on my chest and I just looked at him in awe. I was so busy throughout the entire pregnancy that sometimes I’d almost forget that a baby was really and truly joining our family in August. And here he was! And he promptly peed straight onto my face. πŸ˜‚

The dr waited for the cord to stop pulsing, which took a few minutes and then DH cut the cord and I felt the urge to push once more and with that, the placenta was out and I was able to just bond with my baby and put him to the breast for his first feeding.

After our hour of skin on skin time, Quayd was weighed in at 8lbs 6.2oz and checked out healthy. After I’d finished receiving the 2 bags of pitocin (to prevent hemorrhage), I changed into my clothes and we were wheeled up to the mother baby unit. They weighed Quayd again and he’d lost an ounce due to peeing a couple more times and passing his first meconium diaper. He measured 53cm (almost 21″) and his head circumference was 34cm. He nursed and stayed alert almost constantly until about 8am. We were both discharged after 1 night and went home 36 hours after the birth. We are doing great and just learning the breastfeeding curve and hoping for sleep in our near future. πŸ˜‰

So, that’s the story folks. I thank the Lord for such a beautiful and relaxed experience and for giving us a labor and birth far beyond my wildest dreams. Thank You Jesus for another beautiful healthy son.

This has been an interesting week. Sunday (37+4), I woke up at 8am and started having contractions fairly often. They were deep cramping and pressure in my pelvis but didn’t get stronger or closer together, so I got ready for church. I noticed the baby wasn’t moving very much so I tried to pay attention throughout the morning to his movements. By the time Sunday school was over, I thought I’d felt about 10 movements in the 3 hours since I woke up. I let DH know that I’d probably want to go to triage after church was over so I could check on Quayd, just to be safe. Keep in mind, I was still having contractions this whole time and was on day 3 of bl**dy show.

On the way home I picked up my sister M to come stay with the boys. Then I ate some lunch and tried to do a kick count. He definitely started moving more but not as much as normal and since this was day 3 of less movement (and he also hadn’t passed his nst on Friday in the usual 20 minutes), we decided to just play it safe and have the hospital check on him. Also, still having contractions every 7-14 minutes. On the way to the hospital we stopped for dinner at a restaurant since I wasn’t imminently worried.

We were able to get seen right away in triage when we got there and were done in about an hour. Quayd looked great on the monitor despite me still not feeling much movement. I was checked and 3cm but not much effacement, having contractions every 10 mins or so that registered around 80 on the toco monitor. So anyway, the nurse said possibly early labor and to come back when the contractions were 5 minutes apart. And of course, as soon as we left, the contractions fizzled out. 12 hours of contractions and they just.freaking.stopped. At least we were able to make the most of our evening by turning it into a date. We stopped for coffee and just enjoyed being together alone for a little bit. It was refreshing. πŸ™‚

So, anyway, the pelvic pain issues I’ve been having reached an all time horrible this week. My mornings have been spent in tears after struggling to sleep with the pain. And then my right leg will be so stiff that I can hardly move it to get out of bed. Everything hurts and there’s been no way to get comfortable! HOWEVER, yesterday I went for a 30 minute massage and a chiropractic adjustment and, oh my goodness… I woke up this morning feeling almost like my usual self! It’s amazing!! I hope my pelvis will stay in place until the induction so I don’t have that pain and immobility to contend with on top of labor.

Yesterday I also went out for an impromptu dinner with my parents and brother AS since we all happened to be in town at the same time. That was nice. πŸ™‚ Now that induction is just a few days away, I just want to spend my time resting up and being with my family. Tomorrow I have a checkup, nst and bpp (I’ll probably just add a quick edit to this post with those stats tomorrow) and then the next day we are supposed to pick my sister L up from the airport. πŸ™‚ I need to take Zane for his bloodwork this weekend too!

So, my last week of symptoms updates…. Everything is pretty much the same as before but I think I never mentioned that my nose has been so incredibly stuffy this whole pregnancy. Thank goodness for those adhesive nose strips that help me sleep at night! I am also looking forward to being done with my heparin shots (I switched from lovenox to heparin last week) as my belly is itchy and covered in bruises and welts. And now I’m breaking out in the face rash that I get from the allergic reaction to the preservative. Oh my…

My weight keeps yo-yoing between 31-35 pounds gained. Today its at 34. This is the least I’ve ever gained (and it’s still a lot! 😳) which is probably because I started out so much heavier than I was with my other pregnancies.

Ok y’all, I really don’t have anything further to add. We are ready for baby whenever he wants to come out or at least on induction day. πŸ™‚ The kids are excited and counting down the days, especially Tru. They’re ready for me to be able to play with them more without having to stop to gasp for air and wincing in pain getting up and down. I’m ready, that’s for sure! I have very very few sentimental thoughts surrounding pregnancy this time around. I’ve loved growing this little person but it’s been rough doing pregnancy in the heat of summer with 3 little guys who need me constantly. Hopefully I have another easy recovery from birth like I did with Zane. πŸ˜‰



Dear God, thank You for less pain today. Thank You for bringing us safely through this pregnancy. Please help us to have a safe delivery and for the boys to have fun and be safe while we are gone having the baby. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Yesterday we reached the same gestation as Tru was born at and I almost thought we’d be having this baby too. I had my checkup and nst, which Quayd failed in the allotted time, despite being buzzed twice. The dr decided to leave him on the monitor awhile longer and he finally gave a couple accelerations. That concerns me though because he’s definitely moving less yesterday and today. I’m being vigilant with kick counts, which I’ve never really had to pay much attention to with this hyper boy. So, that’s a bit worrisome.

I asked the dr if she would mind to do a membrane sweep if she was able to and she was happy to oblige. She said I was 2, more like 3cm dilated. I forgot to ask her about effacement. She said if the sweep is going to work, it usually will in 24 hours. I started having contractions right away (3pm) and they continued and built in intensity until 8pm and then they fizzled out. I woke up through the night with mild contractions but this morning I’m just crampy. TMI: I did pass plug this morning and also had spotting Monday and Friday (yesterday). Monday I had lots of cramping and contractions but they also fizzled out by the time I went to bed. Regardless, I’m extremely thankful that I’ve made more progress dilating. Every centimeter I can get out of the way now is one less centimeter I have to suffer through on induction day.

I haven’t had too bad a week for symptoms. Probably because I’ve been so overwhelmed by the pelvic pain that is radiating down my inner right thigh. I think it’s actually originating from my low back. Some stretches help a little. I also have a chiropractor appointment scheduled next week.

I keep fluctuating between 34-35lbs gained. Desperately hoping I don’t gain any more! I have a few new stretch marks around my belly button. I think it’s due to the fact I’ve been very lazy about putting on lotion this time around. For my first 2 pregnancies I didn’t get any belly stretch marks and I know I was much more careful to put on my lotion. Lesson learned!

I got a couple more meals frozen this week. Chicken broccoli casserole and chicken pot pie, banana and chocolate chip muffins and tons of pancakes. I think I’m done freezing meals now.

Oh! I almost forgot, I had my first ever professional pedicure this week. (I know. I live under a rock.) My sil wanted to take my mil for her birthday, so I tagged along. I love love love the polish color, I loved the massage chair and the foot soak. Could definitely live without the hedge clippers on my cuticles and the cheese grater on my feet. In fact, the man who did my pedicure had to stop because I was laughing so hard from how bad it tickled. He was afraid I’d go into labor right then and there. He said they actually had a woman who’s water broke during her pedicure! Anyway, I enjoyed the experience overall and just getting to relax.

At the point where I could no longer hold back the laughter from the tickling.

We decided to take the boys to the mini golf last night since they’ve been begging to go all week. It was their first ever time and they all had a lot of fun. However, it was so incredibly HOT out that Tru and I both started to get sick from the heat. He couldn’t finish the last few holes because he had to sit down so he wouldn’t throw up. Some cold water, the van AC and an ice cream cone finally cooled everyone off. The kids are already asking to go again. πŸ™‚

He knows what he’s doing.

Dear God, thank You for another week down. Please bring us safely to the end of this pregnancy and I pray that Quayd will be delivered whenever and however is best for him. Thank You for my body making more progress towards birth. Thank You for fun times with my little ones. In Jesus’ name, amen.

First things first, I talked to the nurse at Zane’s pediatrician’s office this week and the dr also emailed. The plan currently is to run another follow up test in 3 weeks and see if Zane’s bloodwork comes back better. The dr was encouraged by the slight improvement last week. The nurse said the dr would call and consult with a pediatric hematologist, just to be sure that his plan to test again is ok.

But seriously, how perfectly beautiful!

All of this concern with Zane got me thinking about cord blood banking. I thought about it in the past but didn’t go through with it, but this time I ordered a kit and it came today. I thought it might be good to do at least this once. It’s a donation/storage package, so we are actually able to help someone now while still storing for our own potential use.

My nst and bpp went well this week. I chatted with the dr about how I’ve been having these episodes of breathless/lightheaded/heart racing at least 1-2 times a day, often for an hour or more. She said she could send me to the ER (I was currently having an episode and my heart rate was 115 but blood pressure was only 122/76) or I could call the cardiologist later who I saw back before I got pregnant with Zane. He had prescribed me a beta blocker but I got pregnant like a week later and never took it. He didn’t see anything life threatening going on but did note an arrhythmia… I think. Honestly, I forget what he said… 😌 Anyway, obviously, I opted to call the cardiologist. I’m sure I’ll feel better once the baby is out though. Aside from that, the ob just did a quick pelvic exam and said I’m 1cm but nothing interesting going on in there. πŸ™ˆ Thankfully my group B strep test came back negative. Yay!

Aside from the breathless/lightheaded/pounding heartbeat thing, my most prominent symptoms are:

  • Heartburn – I’ve never had this vicious of heartburn and acid reflux. It feels like a fire breathing dragon in my throat. I take zantac when it gets really out of hand because the reflux chokes me and makes my throat sore. If the old wives tales are true, maybe I’ll have a baby with hair!! πŸ˜ƒ
  • Stretch marks – I see the ones Zane put on my belly (I never had any on my belly until I got a few faint ones around my belly button) and now I’ve added quite a few to my inner right thigh and both legs on the top.
  • Exhausted – not every day, but I’ve had a few days where I was so tired that I hardly could hold my eyes open. In fact, I drank my coffee and fell back to sleep one morning. πŸ˜‚ Thankfully DH was home and kept an eye on the kids. Gotta get that sleep when I can!
  • Restless legs – and arms!
  • Water tastes gross – just another one of those first trimester symptoms that likes to pop up again at the end. Thankfully the nausea has been almost absent this week.

I added several meals to the freezer this week, bringing the total to 14. I’m running out of good freezer meal ideas but I still have a bunch of chicken to cook up. I froze:

  • Grilled chicken that can be served on a salad or something easy
  • Venison and noodles
  • Spanish rice
  • Chicken Alfredo pasta bake

I need to take a better pic. I just snapped this real quick but my goodness, I look haggard. πŸ˜‚ Weight is up 33-34lbs.

This is the 3rd time this year that we’ve had a nest of bluebirds in the bluebird box we bought. 14 baby birds total!!

The little wrens that nested in my hanging basket of flowers flew away a couple days ago.

DH and I celebrated 11 years of marriage this week. 😊 He bought me a beautiful pot of succulents (I prefer my flowers still alive and uncut) and a very sweet and thoughtful card. We didn’t get to have a date night or anything but it was still a blessed day. My dad stopped by with a card and cookies. πŸ˜‹

Dear God, please continue to lead us gently through these last few days of pregnancy. Thank You for all the blessings of this past week and for the excitement of getting ready for Quayd. Please help Zane to keep getting good test results and to be healthy. In Jesus’ name, amen.

It’s been a long week but also, productive. The house feels more ready, I got a couple more meals frozen, I stocked up on some essentials, got the hospital bag packed except for a few last minute items and somehow even managed to get a few things done outside that needed finished. I also went with my brother and his wife to their anatomy scan. I know the gender and I’m about to pop waiting for them to tell the rest of the family at their gender reveal!!! πŸ™Š

The frozen meals I’ve made so far include:

  • Meatloaf
  • Chicken and noodles
  • Vegetable soup
  • Chicken fajitas filling
  • Prepped meat for chili
  • BBQ chicken x2
  • Shepard’s pie x2
  • Lasagna

I have 3 more foil pans, so I’m hoping to make a few more double batches when I cook dinner this week to freeze.

Quayd passed his nst in the first 5 minutes this week, so the dr said I could leave early. This was actually his first nst that they didn’t have to come buzz him to get the accelerations. I had the group b swab done, so I should get those results this week. I described to the dr the contractions/cramps that I’d had 4 evenings in a row and she said that becomes more common the more babies you have, with 3rd/4th time moms oftentimes calling her with false labor. It seriously felt like the real deal starting up a few times… Consistent contractions every few minutes that lasted about 1min each but didn’t get more intense over the hours. This has been accompanied by tightness in my low back and intense pelvic pressure. My friend suggested that it might be prodromal labor and after a quick Google search, I’d say that’s exactly what I’m feeling.

At any rate, the dr checked for dilation and she said I’m about a fingertip with a soft cervix and baby’s head is nicely down in there. She said she’d love to be wrong but doesn’t think I’ll go into labor on my own before our induction. Which is fine, even if I do wish I could have an un-augmented labor. I’m more interested in getting Quayd out at the time and in the way that is best for him. And seriously, only 3 weeks left, Lord willing!!!

As far as symptoms go, I’m wiped out. The heat index this last week was reaching triple digits for several days in a row and I simply can’t tolerate it right now. Even walking from the car to the stores etc makes me feel faint and nauseated. Morning sickness is definitely coming back on a less extreme scale. My most bothersome symptom right now though is the breathless/lightheaded feeling with racing heartbeat. Sometimes it’ll last for several hours at a time and it’s extremely difficult for me to do anything until it goes away. Even sitting is too much sometimes, which makes grocery shopping and other public outings very challenging to get through. The SPD pain in my pelvis is still entirely right-sided now but it’s bearable. It takes me a minute to get moving when I first stand up, but once I’m walking, I’m ok. There’s a good bit of pelvic pressure but obviously it’s not doing anything to my cervix. Also, I’ve gain 34lbs.

I thought it would be fun to do a little comparison from about the same gestation with each baby….





One more note: I took Zane to get his labs done again and I got the results back yesterday. I haven’t talked to the dr yet though, so I’m not really sure if it’s good news or bad. For my untrained eye, I see he’s still not in the normal ranges on any of it but it is closer to normal than it was 2 weeks ago. I’m hoping that means that he’s fine and we only need to have another follow up. But again, I really don’t know. I’m sure his dr will call tomorrow though and hopefully we get good news from him! Prayers are always appreciated. πŸ™‚

Dear God, thank You for a busy and productive week. Thank You for any progress Zane is making towards having good health and please continue to bless him and heal him. Please bring Quayd safely through the rest of this pregnancy and help us to have a safe and healthy birth. In Jesus’ name, amen.

This week has been better than I expected. I’ve managed to focus a lot of my anxious energy about Zane’s upcoming bloodwork into cleaning projects and getting baby prep done. I’m so thrilled to say that the c diff infection appears to be totally gone now and Zane has been eating and playing as usual.

Because we don’t know to what extent his immune system is able to function right now, I’m trying hard to keep everything ultra sanitary. Bring on the bleaching and scrubbing! In addition to the deep cleaning, I was able to:

  • Get all the baby clothes washed for the second time (darn c diff making me have to redo everything😠) and put away in Quayd’s own dresser!
  • Made room in our dresser for Zane’s clothes until the boys’ new dressers come in. (They were 8 weeks backorder when we bought them. 4 weeks to go!)
  • Made another freezer meal
  • Sterilized all the bottles and breast pump… Again…
  • Sterilized the binkies and whatnot and got them packed
  • Ordered the remaining baby items we need
  • Got the hospital bag almost packed
  • Sorted through tons of stuff in our room and the kitchen and got it almost all reorganized
  • The baby bed is clean and ready to set up
  • The carseat needs a new chest clip, which I ordered, and then it’s ready to install

I’ve kept Zane home all week except for a drive on the weekend to check out an SUV that DH thought about buying. We also went to church. Mom watched him yesterday so I could run errands with Tru and Levi. They’ve been doing so great with the summer reading program and the activity challenge that the library has this year. They were so excited to go pick up their prizes. πŸ™‚

I also took them with me to my nst/bpp/growth ultrasound today while DH worked from home and took care of Zane. The appointment went well, although Levi was very fidgety which led to the ultrasound tech trying to hurry through the process so we could leave (to be fair, the boys already had to sit through the 20 minute nst). I was disappointed though because I’d hoped they’d enjoy getting to see the baby but because of the fidgeting around, the tech barely showed us Quayd’s profile or anything. 😦 Ah well… Only a few more weeks until he’s on the outside, Lord willing.

She said he weighs approximately 5lbs 3oz. I noticed that his head is measuring about a week ahead but his leg and arm measured a week behind. I forget what his belly measured. I’m not sure what percentile he’s in or what the fluid level is either. My drs office may let me know later, I’m not sure. He’s currently on my right side, facing out mostly. I feel his knees in my belly button constantly! πŸ˜‚ And he’s my first baby to really and truly kick me in the ribs. It tickles and feels weird!

After the appointment we went to the pet store to buy a betta fish. The boys picked a bright red one. Then we stopped for lunch and milkshakes. I’m glad we were able to get out of the house and spend some time together. πŸ™‚

Symptoms this week are:

  • So breathless, lightheaded and pounding heartbeat, especially when I get too hot. It doesn’t take much to overheat me right now either!
  • Weight is at +33-34lbs
  • Pelvic pain on the right side, particularly around my inner thigh
  • Round ligament pain, mostly on my left side
  • Extremely weepy. I cry about literally anything and everything. It’s getting on my nerves so bad! Half the time I really have no idea why I’m even crying at all, which is just embarrassing. 🀣

Dear God, thank You for a productive week and for helping me get things ready for the baby. Please watch over us all this week and I pray that Zane will keep staying well and that his labs will all be good next week. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Y’all, it took me 9 whole days to get the 3 loads of baby laundry washed, folded and put away. The same day that I finished it, I got a call from the pediatrician’s office that Zane had c diff. So now I need to wash it all again since I washed it with our laundry.

That’s the least of my concerns right now though. We got some concerning and very unexpected blood test results on Monday from when I took Zane for his routine labs prior to scheduling his sleep study (to make sure he doesn’t have sleep apnea). Those results led to more testing which revealed a c diff infection that seems to be clearing up now, thank God. Unfortunately, repeat labs for the other stuff didn’t show much improvement from the first test a week earlier.

We had a visit with his dr and he said we have to wait 2 weeks to test again and see what happens. In the meantime he needs to stay well and not get any fevers or illness. This has been such an incredibly stressful week and I feel like I’m on the verge of panic and functioning in a fog several times a day. This 2 week wait is already testing my patience and I’m only 6 hours into it! I would appreciate all the prayers for Zane to get good results on this next test and for us to have a healthy and happy attitude while we wait.

This would be stressful at any time but 5.5 weeks from the induction date is just crazy! Half of my brain wants to baby prep and get excited about the upcoming birth but the other half can’t form 2 thoughts in a row that aren’t full of stress and fear. I’ve been crying randomly all week and just can’t seem to collect my thoughts and stream them into something productive. DH has been my calm voice of reason and I’ve been trying so hard to not let the kids see or feel my stress.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

This verse needs to be my moto right now.

I’ll admit, I’ve focused on the pregnancy very little this week, which is sad but understandable I guess. I did, however, have a good checkup and nst this week. My mom watched the kids and I took advantage of the time alone to just think and pray. Baby was sleeping at first on the nst but he woke up after getting buzzed (just like last week) and passed with flying colors. Next week is our growth ultrasound/bpp/nst and I am planning to take Tru and Levi with me so they can see Quayd on the ultrasound. I think they’ll be really excited. πŸ™‚ DH works from home that day and he should be able to keep Zane while we go since Zane doesn’t usually wake up that early in the morning.

I froze 2 batches of Sheppard’s pie this week when I made a 3rd batch for supper. I have a few more meals on my list to freeze. Hopefully I’ll get more cooking done this coming week. I’m at the point where I’d rather someone else cook and me eat, but I’ll try my best. πŸ˜‚

Other pregnancy related stuff:

  • Gained about 34 pounds
  • Pelvic pain is better on the left side and is now almost entirely focused to my right side.
  • Baby changed position and now my belly is lopsided. I have no idea how he is positioned now and I just hope he’s still head down.
  • Restless legs and breathlessness are my most annoying symptoms currently.
  • Swelling comes and goes but isn’t bad considering its been almost 100Β° all week!

We took the boys to watch fireworks and get ice cream on the 3rd and they loved it!! It was really a nice display this year. I’m always so thankful for our freedom and it’s something I think about frequently. I’m glad we have a day dedicated to celebrating and enjoying our freedoms.

Dear God, this week definitely hasn’t gone according to my expectations or preferences but I know that You know what the future holds. Please help it be good things and help Zane be healthy and happy. Please give us calm and assurance as we wait, that everything will be well. I pray that the test results will come back great and with no issues at all. Thank You for Zane and for the blessing that he is to us. Thank you for all my children. Please watch over Quayd also as we near the end of this pregnancy journey together. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Baby #1

Wash, dry, fold, put away baby clothes. Time to complete: 1 day

Baby #2

Probably also 1 day…

Baby #3

Might have taken me 2-3 days.

Baby #4

Day 1: Get clothes out of closet and sort by size

Day 2: Sort by color and fill a couple bags to get rid of. Wash load 1 of 3.

Day 3: Re-rinse load 1 because I accidentally let it sour in the washer overnight. Dry clothes.

Day 4: Remove clothes from dryer.

Day 5: Fold and put away half of first load.

To be continued…

Anyway, suffice it to say that baby prep takes a whole lot longer than it did when I didn’t have so many other small people to take care of. I did, however, get a lasagna and chili meat prepped and frozen this week! So that’s 4 meals ready to go. I’m so thankful for my instant pot that my bff gave me as a baby gift when I had Zane. I’ve used it a ton over the last 1.5 years. I need to buy ingredients and write a list of meals DH or I can quickly throw in there once baby comes.

This week has been absolutely crazy! It poured rain one day and the kids and I played in the “creek” that it made in our yard. The cold water felt fabulous on my feet and legs. Then we sat down to supper and I started feeling really nauseated so I went to lay down for a few minutes. I left my phone at the table and Tru and Levi took selfies and CALLED 911! Awhile later 2 police units showed up at our door. I felt so bad for wasting their time but I’m glad we weren’t having an actual emergency. Talk about embarrassing! The boys were mortified and Levi told DH at bedtime “That was not fun! You can check that off the list!” I’m not sure what list he’s referring to but I’m a little scared! πŸ˜‚

Another day, we went to storytime and I took Zane for bloodwork (he’s having basic bloodwork, thyroid and glucose done prior to the sleep study). That was sad and made me feel so bad for him when he cried getting poked. Plus it took a long time because they blew the vein and it bruised his arm. But thankfully they didn’t have to do a second draw, so I’m thankful for that!

The next day, Tru woke me up at 6am feeling belly pain, right leg pain and fever. He laid around the entire day until 8pm, I finally made him get up for a little bit before bedtime and move around. He didn’t have an appetite except for some cereal and ice cream but he drank a lot all day and woke up fine the next morning. Also, my sister came over and took a few quick maternity pics that night and I love them!!

I had my first nst this week. The boys were not playing nice that morning, so DH and I decided to divide and conquer. He took Tru and Zane to buy mulch and visit his parents and I took Levi for some one-on-one time with the promise of a freeze. The appointment went well and was over quickly. I wasn’t able to schedule my next growth ultrasound though because they are booked through till the end of July. Not sure what to do about that… We may just have to skip it, idk.

DH spent 2 days mulching our flower beds. It took 3 loads to cover everything. I’m thinking we might have a bit more flower beds than necessary πŸ˜‚ but I love them. Levi helped him a lot. That little guy just loves to work with Daddy. It was adorable and I wish I’d taken pics.

Today the boys played in their kiddie pool with DH while I went to a baby shower for my friend who is due the day before me. She’s looking so adorable and I’m so excited for our little boys to be friends. ❀️ We took a picture together with our bellies facing eachother and Quayd was kicking her belly like crazy! I guess he was happy to play with his friend. 🀣

This is getting long, so I’ll just throw out a few stats.

  • Last time I checked I had gained 31lbs, but it might be more by now.
  • I feel queasy and lightheaded frequently. Drinking water helps the lightheadedness but adds to the queasy.
  • Lots of pelvic pressure and spd pain, along with cervix pokes (I never know how to describe this).
  • Low back pain comes and goes.
  • Very breathless!!!
  • Restless legs, (TMI: roids), and round ligament pain.
  • Failed at exercise all week except for squats and stretches. But, hey, at least it’s something!
  • I’ve seen the subtle movement of baby practice breathing a couple times this week. I wish I could video it but it’s too hard to see in a video. I love that he’s in there doing everything he’s supposed to do. ❀️

Getting that one load folded πŸ˜‚

32 weeks

The Haakaa breastpump. I’m excited to see if this actually helps me waste less milk during feedings if I use it on one side while I nurse on the other.

Dear God, thank You for a good checkup and a productive week. Please help everything to continue along smoothly to the birth and help us to get the things done that we need to do. In Jesus’ name, amen.

I guess it’s safe to say that I still haven’t had that burst of nesting energy that we all look forward to. I was going through my notebook of lists (hospital bag, to-do, freezer meals to make etc) from before I had Zane and I had to laugh…

  • Clean under kitchen sink
  • Rearrange kitchen cabinets
  • Water all the house plants (??)
  • Wash windows and doors
  • Clean the kitchen table legs and the chairs
  • Write list of items that are in laundry room cabinets

…. These were the must-do items that were keeping me up at night?? I also remember frantically cleaning under the stove and fridge and doing other extremely important tasks one evening without even pausing to eat supper until almost bedtime. And that’s just a sample of it all! πŸ˜‚ Because how on earth was I supposed to bring a baby home to a house with dirty kitchen table legs?? How would we ever cope without a list of what we have in our laundry room cabinets??!!

Of course, I laugh now but maybe in a couple weeks I’ll be frantically dusting the undersides of my picture frames and alphabetizing my recipe books. Who knows? But I definitely haven’t gotten that far with my list. In fact, this time around my list is super boring, like…

  • Wash and set up co sleeper
  • Pack hospital bag
  • Freeze some meals

… And a few other equally normal and boring items. I managed to freeze 2 meals of BBQ chicken so far and I’ve been working on a list of other meals I can just double the batch on and freeze over the next few weeks.

I called the ob office this week and the nurse was able to move my induction date to the next day with the dr who I saw last week. (the one who said she was comfortable with inducing me with my vbac status) So I’m really happy about that and hopeful that it will be a relaxed and beautiful process, please God! Unless this baby decides to come before then, we have just 7ish weeks to go! I’m equal parts ready to have more mobility and be less breathless, while also just soaking up these last few weeks of having Quayd all to myself and relishing his adorable kicks and wiggles. My belly is definitely getting a lot less cute and a lot more cumbersome the last 2 weeks. It’s had a sudden growth spurt and I find my ability to do absolutely anything without being breathless is pretty much nil. DH keeps remarking on how loud I’m breathing and asking if I’m ok. I know this happens to me every time but I felt like it usually happened a bit later! I’m also seeing quite a few stretch marks on my thighs all of a sudden. And the linea nigra line has appeared down my belly this week. I had forgotten about that!!

In an effort to get my body ready for the heavy work of labor, I’ve been trying to do squats every day and increasing them by 5 per day. I know some people say kegels help and others say they don’t, but just to be safe, I’ve been doing those every day too. I’ve been trying to do either 20 minutes on the bike or 10 on the bike and 10 on the elliptical at least 3 or 4 days a week. Granted, I’m going pretty slow at this point. πŸ˜‚ Whatever I can do to aid in a better post partum recovery and maybe even an easier labor is well worth the effort though!

I have been swelling a lot in my feet, legs and hands this week so I gave up on checking my weight since it’s all over the place. Aside from the symptoms mentioned earlier, I feel different this week, like baby is farther down in my pelvis. Not like he’s dropped or engaged yet, but just really moved down more. My belly just sits on my legs now and it’s soooo low when I’m standing! The pelvic pressure is pretty intense and his hiccups are way down low. He’s almost always on my right side with his feet over on my left, but sometimes he changes sides.

This weekend, after I took Zane to his 18 month well child checkup, we decided to make an impromptu visit to see DH’s sister and her family. We threw together an overnight bag, got everyone in the van and booked a hotel room on the way. We stopped at Zane’s checkup and found out he had a fever of 100.4, which shot up to over 102 during the course of the appointment! The strep test was negative and his fever went down after a dose of ibuprofen, so we stopped at a playground to let the boys play while we decided whether to go on with our plans. Zane ate lunch and seemed tired but ok, so we went ahead and drove the 4 hours to the hotel and grabbed some Olive Garden carry-out on the way. Of course, his fever went up again at bedtime. After a second dose of ibuprofen, he woke up fever-free and fine today. He was a little more tired and cranky than usual but no symptoms of illness, thank the Lord! Thankfully we had a good, albeit short visit with DH’s family before we made the 4 hour drive back home this evening. I’m glad we were able to squeeze in that visit this weekend though because I do not want to do any more travelling until after Quayd is born and we are settled into our new routine!

Dear God, please bless us with good health and no illness this summer and help us to get things ready and in order for the arrival of this beautiful baby. Thank You for him and for the blessed weekend we had. In Jesus’ name, amen.

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