What is it about the 36 week point that makes me feel like time has come to a complete halt!? Time has just flown by to me this whole pregnancy and now suddenly, it’s like each day is equal to a whole week. I think it’s partly the discomfort with trying to drag this heavy body around and being too out of breath to accomplish tasks easily. I literally have to take a break between each thing I do just to catch my breath. It’s ridiculous! Also its partly the lack of sleep as the return of restless legs has struck hard this week. One night I was up till after 2am in and out of bed trying to calm my legs down. The night before that I only slept like 4.5 hours due to waking up with restless legs. I realize this is all “preparing me for the sleepless nights ahead” blah blah blah but you know what? It would be nice to go into labor JUST ONCE with a few solid nights of sleep fueling me instead of already running on empty. That the thing that’s making me so nervous about the induction… I know I won’t sleep the night before and I’ll go in exhausted. I just hope and pray I go into labor on my own before then.

Shew, ok. So what else is going on this week…

  • Severe acid reflux/heartburn
  • Less Braxton Hicks than in earlier weeks but the ones I do have are super super strong. I had some every 15-20 minutes the other night for about 6 hours but they fizzled out after I went to bed.
  • Not much cramping anymore either, which is nice but weird
  • The intense pressure I was having last week has either improved a bit or I’ve just gotten used to it 😅 The baby has been changing his position back and forth from the right to the left to posterior in the middle, which probably affects the pressure too.
  • Nesting urges are insane this week! I’ve gotten so much done. I cleaned out my closet and got rid of several boxes of stuff and clothes I’ll never fit or wear again. It feels great. This has been my most productive pregnancy, by far, for getting rid of stuff and getting organized. I’m definitely going to miss this nesting energy! However, I’ve also come to realize that 90% of the stuff I’m doing would be 100% easier when I’m not pregnant. For example: I leaned over the tub washing a blind today. My legs were falling asleep, my back was screaming and I think I broke both of my buttcheeks. Without a belly in the way, it would have been so much more doable and not pulled any muscles. I literally laid in bed and cried afterwards… Now on to the next stupid project that has nothing to do with having a baby!
  • I’ve actually probably enjoyed this pregnancy the most. Not the first few months because they were brutal, but the second and third trimesters have been the easiest – mentally especially but also I’ve done pretty well physically. Just gotta hang on these last couple weeks! It’s definitely getting challenging now but I’m so glad I had some good months.
  • I am having some issues with nausea though and took zofran one night so I could finally go to bed after going back and forth from the bed to the bathroom floor over and over. Hopefully I don’t have any more nausea that severe 😬 Mostly its a low level queasiness but spikes to real nausea at least a time or two a day.
  • I’m staying on my raspberry leaf tea pretty good. I just make it in a quart mason jar and refrigerate it and then drink it with a little stevia. Mmmm!
  • TMI probably but I also started hand-expressing colostrum and freezing it. I’ve done this for the last 3 pregnancies since it’s always a possibility that I’ll have another baby with ABO incompatibility jaundice and I want to have colostrum available if needed to supplement with.

Lately my main concern regarding the birth is leaving the kids for an unknown period of days/nights. I know they’ll be well cared for but I hate being away from them, especially overnight. One of the main things I’ve been focusing on the last few weeks is getting things set up so that it’s easier for my mom and anyone else who might take turns babysitting. DH and I are used to our little people and are able to run things like a pretty well oiled machine but it’s a lot harder for someone else to come over and know the method to the madness, so to speak. So notes are going up on the fridge and Tru and Levi have been assigned a few things that they can be helpers with so it’s not so hard for Grandmom. 😁

I had a checkup and BPP yesterday. They said baby is about 6lbs 3oz I think. 24th percentile. However, this ultrasound tech has historically underestimated my babies sizes in past pregnancies, (plus it’s so hard to get accurate measurements now with his head so low and fluid levels dropping) so I’m thinking he’s probably a bit more than that. Would love for him to be a little smaller than my last couple babies but we’ll see! His head is still measuring a week behind and legs are a week or so behind.

I only have 1 checkup left and with the help of my dr, was able to move covid testing back a couple days so I don’t have to drive all the way to the hospital twice in a week. So happy about that! I did have to change my appointment to a different day and switch the bpp to an nst instead. Apparently they’re doing those again? This has been a weird time to be pregnant, I tell ya. Rules are changing every day now, as the dr said.

She did an exam, of course, and said she felt that I was barely 1cm dilated. She had checked my chart and said “I know they told you 2cm last week but…. 🤷” So she decided to give a little bit of a sweep in the hopes it’ll make my cervix a bit more favorable for induction as it’s still firm. With my prior c section, they can’t/don’t use any cervical ripening agent for induction. So if I go in with an unfavorable cervix, they would probably want to switch to a c section. Really hoping things move along this week and look better by my next appointment! I definitely don’t want to cancel the induction and wait it out as baby’s fluid is not plentiful at this point (I don’t know the exact measurement). I don’t know if I truly regressed in dilation or what happened but it was a bummer, for sure.

Dear God, please help us get through these last days of pregnancy and birth and I pray that this baby will come at the right time and in the way that he needs to come. Thank You for another good checkup and please bring us safely through. In Jesus’ name, amen.