I am so tired. Like headache, brain fog, lump on a log exhausted. I mean, exhaustion in pregnancy is pretty normal but I was really hoping for that second trimester energy and I’m still waiting… It only took me this long to figure out why I’m so tired this time around. DH is working from home now and our bedroom is his “office”. Once he’s up for the day, sleep is out the window. Not just because he’s up but also because Zane (who is sleeping in our room out of necessity) is also up and screaming the house down with his toddler energy, therefore I am up. Goodbye sleeping in, even though it wasn’t often before, it’s almost nonexistent now. Add to that the frequent bouts of insomnia, the late bedtimes I pull because it’s my only chance to get stuff done and the fact that Quayd still gets up in the night sometimes, I’m beat. I’m totally and completely worn out and I don’t see any hope of getting enough sleep in my future. Even naps are a thing of the past because I have to keep the kids in line while DH takes calls and attends a billion virtual meetings a week (do these bosses actually want their employees to work or just sit there on irrelevant meetings all day?) But hey, it’s not like I’m the only tired mom out there. I know most of us are fighting the 3pm crash and chugging coffee in the morning like it’s our favorite thing on earth. I’ll probably live. I hope.

Whiny, sleep deprived rants aside:

  • I haven’t felt any for sure, definite movement from baby this week. Mayyyybe a flutter or two… I’m kind of bummed about that. I did use the doppler once and heard him moving around, so I know he is moving, I just have to be patient waiting to feel him.
  • I had a dream that after a short and easy labor, I had the baby at home (??) and he weighed 8lbs 9oz. I wouldn’t be surprised at all if he really does end up weighing that much since my last 3 babies have all weighed within 4oz of eachother and that would be 3oz more than Quayd. (Taking guesses on weight! ๐Ÿ˜)
  • Morning sickness is still here off and on throughout the day. It’s mild at this point but I’m really ready to kiss it goodbye. ๐Ÿ˜˜ It’s definitely not affecting my cravings though. ๐Ÿ˜ Getting ready to go out for pizza this evening because I saw a picture of pizza and now it’s all I can think about. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m finally getting back into salads after weeks of not being interested in them, so my order includes a nice big salad too, to help me feel less guilty about the pizza (haha) and I can’t wait for suppertime!! ๐Ÿค—
  • Round ligament pain has been around for awhile now but I forgot to mention it before. It’s mostly just when I stand up too fast or roll over. It’s funny though because you’d think this old belly would be used to stretching and growing by now. ๐Ÿ˜‚
  • All of my issues with POTS are intensifying, as usual. I’m trying to drink more water and use an electrolyte supplement once or twice a day, get more sodium (I eat pretty low sodium usually just because I’m not a huge fan of salty food but I’m trying to get a little more), I’m propping my legs up a few times a day while I lay down, trying to stay cool because I feel worse when I’m hot. This stuff seems to help a bit, thankfully, but mostly it’s just a matter of getting through it. Mainly I’m bothered by feeling breathless and lightheaded and blacking out occasionally. Also annoying are the episodes of racing heartbeat. I’ve learned that it’s not something I can push through, it’s absolutely necessary to lay down for a bit until it passes.
  • Weight gain is iffy. I think probably 17lbs or so. I have been having some swelling in my legs and feet off and on. I didn’t realize how much it was until I went to put on my sandals one evening that I wear around the yard every day and they wouldn’t go on all the way. ๐Ÿ˜ณ By the next morning it seemed a lot better. It’s still hot here though, so that doesn’t help.

Ok, this is getting pretty wordy, so I’m going to go get that pizza now. ๐Ÿ˜

Idk what is going on with my face here lol but I’m not mad, seriously. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Dear God, thank You for this week. Please help me to stay healthy and strong and to feel well also while I carry this baby. Please watch over and protect us both. In Jesus’ name, amen.