Written 8-24-19

Things are settling in and we are finding our rhythm now a bit more. Even though we still have just pieced together bits of sleep at night (and some nights he doesn’t really sleep until 2-3am!), the fogginess isn’t so profound most of the time and I’m learning how to function on less sleep again.

DH’s sister and her family came to visit today and meet Quayd. It was such a beautiful day that we ended up spending the entire day outside from morning until evening. DH and I took the kids for a walk in our neighboring town and rented a movie and made popcorn for movie night. It was nice and I think the boys really enjoyed it. We actually took a walk around town yesterday too. Now that it’s not a million degrees out we are really enjoying getting to be outside again. This was Quayd’s most awake and alert day so far. I think he liked being outside. 🙂

Really he’s been an incredibly sleepy baby so far and when he is awake, he’s either eating or crying. Not much of his awake time is spent being content, although he does love it when we talk or sing to him. He’s great at engaging in eye contact and focusing on our face while we talk. He still does the cutest blinky eyes when he wakes up and tries to adjust his eyes to the light. It melts my heart!

I’m really glad I bought the Haakaa pump this time. I’ve literally only used my medela 5 times. I love that I can use the Haakaa on one side while I nurse on the other and it’s noiseless and I only have one thing to wash afterwards. I’ve been using it at about 2/3 of feedings and have been able to collect about 20 ounces per day, some of which I’m freezing but mostly I’m trying to get as much breastmilk in Zane as possible. (Unfortunately, poor Zane had his latest bloodwork come back about the same as last month. Basically we are still in limbo and waiting to retest again next month.)

I can’t believe Quayd has already gained over a pound! He was 9lbs 9oz yesterday, up from 8lbs 6oz at birth. He nurses pretty much every 2 hours all day, occasionally going closer to 3 hours. In the evenings after the boys go to bed, I take Quayd to my room and just sit in bed nursing him almost constantly for a couple hours (cluster feeding, I guess) while trying to keep him awake as much as possible so he will sleep at night. Overnight he nurses about every 2-3 hours but occasionally doesn’t go quite as long. Despite the fact that he is constantly taking in milk, he hardly ever spits up. He really doesn’t like his pacifier too well, although he will take it sometimes. He would LOVE to use me as a pacifier full time though. 😂 We learned that, just like Tru, Quayd absolutely hates being swaddled with his arms down. He likes to sleep with his arms up by his head, so I wrap the swaddle at night so that his arms are out.

DH went back to work on Thurs this week and then worked from home Fri. My sister M came over for a couple hours Thurs to visit and then a friend brought dinner which was awesome and super helpful! Being on my own with the kids went pretty smoothly, thank God and I’m just hoping we get into a groove easily and quickly. 🙂

As for me, I’m definitely not feeling like myself emotionally yet as much as I’d hoped, but more so than last week, so that’s good. I think more sleep would probably go a long way with helping me feel less foggy and moody. I know this newborn phase where they don’t sleep well at night doesn’t usually last too long, so I’m just trying to get by until then. DH is great about taking the baby so I can sleep but unfortunately I still have a hard time racking up enough Z’s. The postpartum night sweats don’t help either but I think they’re supposed to calm down after 2 weeks. On the plus side, I’ve managed to drop 21 pounds already, so I’m pretty happy about that! It’s opened up a lot more outfit choices again too, which is awesome. 🙂

Dear God, thank You for beautiful weather to enjoy with the kids and for blessing us so much. Please help me to recover quickly and feel back to my usual self soon. Thank You for Quayd doing so well with eating and growing and I pray that he will have more happy alert times during the day soon. In Jesus’ name, amen.