Archives for the month of: August, 2018

Shew! The last few weeks of summer are flying by and I just can’t hardly get enough of being outside while the weather is good. It cooled off a bit the last week and that was nice since summers here can actually be pretty miserable and muggy (buggy too). I’ll still take it over winter any day of the week!

To update everyone on the dog situation: I went back the day after we spotted the skinny little beagle and looked for him again. I took my brothers P and M and we all hiked around the nature preserve looking for him. I took along a crate and food etc. Sadly, we didn’t find him. BUT, I think someone else must have because I saw that someone had set out food and more water for him. Hopefully they caught him! I posted for him online in case someone turned him in to the local shelters because we would have adopted him in a heartbeat! DH and I both instantly knew we would love that little guy but I’m thinking it’s just not meant to be for us right now. As it is, we are still having a lot of issues with Rocky as he still has separation anxiety with me. I’m currently trying melatonin as a natural and vet approved way of helping him feel more at ease. I want to say that it maybe does help at least a little but time will tell. 

Tru and Levi are ready to start preschool at home this year (I have a post partially typed up on that). Zane just cut his third tooth (top left) and almost has his 4 through. The transition to his own room was absolutely a success. Now most nights he goes to bed before 10pm and wakes to nurse once or twice. Then he will generally sleep until at least 9:30am but sometimes as late as 11am! I think he’s sleeping late because of the teething and him not feeling well, so that’s probably just a short phase, I’d say. Tru and Levi are still loving sharing a room and still staying up talking way too late. We are still working on that. πŸ˜‰ 

We are in the pre approval process of getting a loan for a piece of land that we might buy. If we do get the land, the plan is to stay here for the winter and start building a house in the spring. It’s simultaneously exciting and absolutely terrifying!! Yikes! Definitely praying about this possible move. 

To relax, I’m doing a bit of knitting. πŸ™‚ The boys are already loving the feel of this “cozy-cozy” blanket. πŸ™‚ 

I guess this update isn’t so quick after all! Have a good weekend, y’all!! πŸ™‚ God bless. 


…and he looks so much like River! He was apparently dropped off and was wandering around a remote hiking area we visited today. We tried and tried to get him to trust us so we could help him. There’s nobody out there for quite some distance. I don’t think he was lost, definitely seemed liked he’d been dropped.

He walked about 1.5 miles with us but wouldn’t let us touch him. He’s obviously been beaten because he’s extremely fearful of hands and any movement towards him. But I did feed him a couple hotdogs and stuff that we had with us, completely forgotting that I had a 41 pound bag of dog food in the back of the van.

I can’t stop thinking about the little guy! I so want to go check if he’s still there tomorrow and see if I can lure him into the crate and bring him home. It’s a long drive but it would be worth it if I could get him to come home with me. He needs fed and a flea bath. He’s ate up. He’s so skinny too. His hip and butt bones are so sharp looking under his skin. Poor baby. 

…39 weeks ago today, Zane was born. He’s officially been out as long as he was in. 😊/😒 I’m so glad that I have nothing but happy memories surrounding his birth and had the most relaxing experience in the hospital enjoying my baby. Such wonderful memories! 

Lastnight we decided to make the transition of Tru into Levi’s room and Zane into Tru’s room. Tru wasn’t too sad about losing his own bedroom because he was super excited about getting to share a room with Levi. Levi was so excited, he was helping move Tru’s stuffed animals into his room. So, Zane slept in his own room lastnight. It went great! He woke at 2am to nurse and I was missing him really bad so I snuggled him for a bit and then took him back to his bed. I heard him fuss for a minute around 5:50am but he went right back to sleep. He woke up a little before 8am, so I nursed him in my bed and he ended up falling asleep again and sleeping till around 10. DH was home today so we just watched Zane while he got his beauty rest in our big bed. πŸ˜‰ 

It’s crazy because I have been looking forward to getting Zane moved out of our room for so long in the hopes that our sleep quality would improve. But when it came down to it, I was a mess! I missed him being in my room right next to my bed so bad! But it’s definitely time for him to be in his own room. The fact that he slept so happily on his own is proof that he is ready for the transition, it’s just Mommy who isn’t handling it as well. 🀣 

Anyway, thank goodness we have video baby monitors in this day and age and I was able to see him sleeping happily all night whenever I wanted. And as for Tru and Levi, they stayed up talking till after midnight and were up again at their normal time around 9ish. But I’m sure they’ll adjust with time and if not, we will just have Tru fall asleep in our room and then move him to their bedroom… At least until the excitement wears off. πŸ˜‰ 

Fair warning: this post is going to talk about periods in detail. If that’s not your thing, you better leave now. 

Ok, so lately my cycles have become really really irregular and heavy. We are talking like going through a super plus tampon every 1-1.5 hours for the first 2 days. I’ve been getting weak and lightheaded and on 2 occasions I have had to leave the shower to lay down when I’ve felt myself passing out. I get that floating sensation that I had when I hemorrhaged after Levi’s birth and it freaks me out. So naturally, instead of making an appointment with the dr and getting some advice on whether this is short term and ok (or not) I decided to self treat with this miracle herb I read about. Vitex. When I read that it could help regulate the cycle, help reduce symptoms of pcos AND possibly help me lose weight, I couldn’t buy a bottle fast enough! 

Here we are a week later, I’ve been taking it faithfully every day. I’m up at 5:49am after sleeping maybe almost 1 hour last night. I am wired and feel jittery. I’ve been having skin crawling anxiety about absolutely nothing at all. I’ll just be sitting on the couch and suddenly ANXIETY ATTACK out of nowhere. Stomach trouble, headache…. Ugh! At first when the insomnia and anxiety started, I thought “Maybe this is my hormones trying to balance out. I’ll just have to push through and it’ll get better.” Well let me just tell you, I will gladly go back to my old hormones and whatnot if I can just get this monster herb out of my system! I am going to chuck that bottle in the trash and hope and pray that I feel like myself again asap. Here I finally have Zane sleeping in his own bed at least most of the night, if not all, and I’m sleeping less than when I was holding him all night. This is truly ridiculous. 

A quick Google search revealed that all of this is common side effects of vitex, but since so many people love it and it’s natural, I didn’t really consider that it could make me feel so awful. 

So in summary, if vitex works for you, more power to you. But I absolutely cannot wait to be rid of the nasty stuff, myself. I hope it’s out of my system asap! 

I have a rare spare moment with all 3 boys either taking a nap or having quiet time. I’ve had a shower, prayer time, and read my Bible. My chores that I can do quietly are caught up mostly so I decided to write for a minute.


Just a quick update on CIO; it’s still going great. 6 days into just laying Zane down for naps and bedtime and he’s no longer crying or fussing and if he does, it’s only for a minute and then he’s right to sleep. It’s amazing! We had a couple times were I had to leave the room in the night 2 nights ago, but last night went great with zero crying. πŸ™‚ I’m so happy that Zane is doing so well and the whole experience wasn’t traumatic in the least.



Today I’ve been thinking about how much kids absorb from what they see and hear. Even when we don’t think they are paying any attention, they are still picking up on things. On Sunday at church the kids were extra squirmy and extra loud. Zane was being especially noisy, so I took him to the back. I could see Tru and Levi sitting with DH and I was noticing how much they were moving around and I could hear them talk out loud a couple times. It’s frustrating because I want the rest of the congregation to be able to focus, although they tell me all the time not to worry and that they never notice the kids being loud – in fact, they tell me all the time how impressed they are with the boys being good. Anyway, DH later told me that during the sermon the Pastor said something about the Levites. Levi looked up at DH and giggled saying “He said Levi! Why did he say that?” and at another point the Pastor said something along the lines of “That was it. Over. The End.” and both boys looked up thinking that church was over.

I know that sometimes I feel like the boys aren’t hearing anything I say and that the good things I try to pour into their lives are just bouncing off their ears. But then I’ll overhear Tru talking to Levi or Zane and I hear him saying encouraging things toΒ them that I have said to him at some point and then I know, he’s picking up on this stuff. It’s getting through to him. Tru finally sits still while I’m reading books to him. In fact, he’s kind of obsessed with books now and begs me to read to him almost daily. Levi on the hand, he doesn’t care a hoot about it yet. But I know that while he is running all over the place, he’s still hearing the Bible stories and he’s still learning the good things and educational things that are being read. (On that note, I think Tru is more of a book learner and Levi is not so much. This is a post in and of itself…)



This is also a good reminder for me when I am having less than pleasant conversations and worried talks with DH about the stresses of adult life. I may think that all these things are going over the boys’ heads but the truth is, they probably understand more of it than I realize. We definitely need to watch out because I want the kids to enjoy being kids and not be worried about anything.



Anyway, I know this post was kind of jumbled but I just felt encouraged today and wanted to jot it down. I hope everyone is having a happy and blessed day. πŸ™‚

I know I mentioned in Zane’s update that he hasn’t been sleeping well and I didn’t think I could do CIO because he doesn’t have his own room. Well, four days ago, I hit my breaking point with him not sleeping/making me hold him all night. I’ve been super chill about his sleep all along and not concerned about enforcing a routine etc. (I think I’ve just finally relaxed a lot more as a parent and figured out how to go with the flow and just savor the moments.) But lately he’s been sooo much more cranky and that’s just not how Zane is. He’s never a cranky baby, in fact, I’ve never seen such a content and happy baby! And then there was the small matter of DH and I getting next to no sleep. And the trivial thing about the back pain and soreness that I was dealing with from holding an almost 19 pound baby all night. The more I thought about it, I realized that I could try having Zane cry it out in my room and us just go out to the couch if need be. (It’s just temporary, right? I mean, we already weren’t sleeping.) It was when he wouldn’t sleep and was thrashing around my bed that I finally decided to just do it and drug my sleep deprived and achy body out to the couch and hoped for the best. I am so happy I did!




Side note about my previous CIO experiences: It went so fantastic when Tru was a baby. He liked going to sleep on his own anyway, so CIO was a short phase and he’s always been easy to put to bed aside from short term sleep regressions (shudder!). Levi on the other hand, Levi broke my heart. I couldn’t even do CIO with him for awhile because he just wouldn’t ever stop crying. I finally relented and tried again when he was a little older and at that point, he was able to self soothe and he also has been great at going to sleep ever since. (Both kids have gotten bad at stalling, but that’s a different story, lol) But my experience with Levi made me really hesitant to try with Zane because I just can’t handle the lonely and sad baby crying. It breaks my heart. Anyway…


Ok, so day 1 of CIO:

  • First time was about 20 minutes of fussing that escalated to crying and then to fussing. Then he was asleep and slept until morning. πŸ™‚
  • First nap was 15 minutes of crying and then he only slept 30 minutes. I decided to go get him and snuggle for awhile so we could just ease into the transition.
  • Second nap of the day was just 10 minutes of fussing/crying. He slept 30 minutes again but I didn’t go get him. He fussed a little for 8 minutes and then slept another hour.
  • That night, he fussed (no crying) just 4 minutes and slept until 6:20am IN HIS OWN BED (!!!!!) and then I nursed him and laid him back down and he slept until 9:30. I heard him wake up a few times and stir around and then lay back down to sleep.

Day 2 we had easy naps and bedtime with very minimal fussing, one wake up to nurse and then he slept till morning in his own bed. (Halelujah!)



Day 3 was about the same for naps and bedtime. He woke up twice to nurse in the night and fell asleep the second time in my bed and wouldn’t sleep in his bed after that. I stayed in my room for awhile but he kept standing back up in his bed and getting mad at me for not picking him up, so I left the room and he went right to sleep and I got back in my bed. (DH just stayed in the room because Zane couldn’t see him.)



Day 4 we weren’t home for naps but he went right to bed and only fussed at me when I laid him down but went right to sleep, no problems.

So, dare I hope that maybe he is sleep trained so easily?? I’m trying to not get too excited just yet. It’s still early, could be a fluke. But let me tell you, I feel so much better not having to sleep in one position all night and Zane’s mood has improved so much!! He’s been so happy and content again. I really think he’s feeling better because he isn’t waking up multiple times a night to get in my bed and then tossing and turning because he isn’t comfortable. I’m really happy that he is sleeping better and I just hope it continues for all our sake!

Better sleep makes a happier baby and gives everyone a better day. πŸ™‚

How is it possible that Zane has already been out almost as long as he was in? What? It feels so recent that I was leaving the hospital with my new little bundle of love. And then spending countless hours cuddled on the couch with him while DH was off work and so capably took over the house so I could heal and rest with my tiny newborn. Such sweet times. πŸ™‚ 

But the things Zane is getting into now are also so very sweet and exciting. Within the week of July 8th, he became very skilled at sitting on his own and reaching for toys to play with while maintaining his balance. He started crawling the right way that week also and began pulling himself to a completely upright stand on July 13th. He was pulling himself up before that but not completely straight. He already lets go of the furniture and turns to look at things. I think he will be able to walk very soon. πŸ™‚


He loves watching the fish

But he was just a newborn like…last week!

I am pretty sure Zane is getting ready to cut more teeth to add to the 2 bottom teeth he got in June. He has been very fussy the last few days/nights. He does great eating his 3 solid meals a day plus snacks. He loves teething wafers, puffs, and melts. He still prefers his purees to be mixed with cereal, so I usually give him fruit for breakfast with rice cereal and a scoop of formula. Then lunch is a veggie and meat with wheat and scoop of formula. Supper is another veggie with wheat and formula. As for breastfeeding, my supply is very scant and I am feeling less let downs. Zane usually nurses 2-3 times during the day and 2-4 times through the night. The other night he wasn’t satisfied after nursing, so I made him a breastmilk bottle from my freezer stash and he gulped it down. I felt really bad for not noticing how far gone my milk supply was. His diaper was dry and I thought back to the day and realized he’d only had one wet diaper. 😦 It seems pointless at this time to try to build my milk up again as I know from experience that it just doesn’t come back up this late in the game. So, for now I am trying to offer the breast more often and give him a bottle from my freezer stash if he is still thirsty. He does take sips of water from a sippy cup now too.



He wore this for over an hour. I think he liked it. 

Now that Zane can crawl and do all the big boy things, he spends less time letting me cuddle him and more time crawling after his brothers. He wants to do everything they do and be with them all the time! It’s really adorable. Tru and Levi play with Zane pretty well, although they have to be closely supervised for squishing reasons. πŸ˜‰ And they do get frustrated when he grabs their toys or messes up their stuff.



Sleep is a bit frustrating right now. We still use the swing for his 2 naps a day (around noon and 3-4pm) and then if he takes a third nap, it’s usually in mine or DH’s arms. Zane has been clueing us in that he wants to go to bed earlier than the 10-11pm that we were doing. So lately he falls asleep in our arms around 9:30-10. The bad news is, after that we can expect exactly no sleep to occur without Zane in and out of our bed (and by our bed, I mean my arms). It is frustrating because we don’t get good sleep this way. I would let him CIO and get on a good sleep rythmn, like I did with Tru and Levi, but we don’t have a bedroom for Zane to be in on his own. Tru and Levi can’t share a room because we tried that and they just don’t sleep. I’m sure we will get through this phase though and it will all be a hazy sleep deprived memory soon enough. πŸ˜‰



Zane is FOR SURE saying “mum mum” now. He says it whenever he cries and wants me to pick him up. And he says it when he crawls towards me and sometimes when I feed him. I am so in love!! I love his little voice. It absolutely melts my heart. πŸ™‚


We had his 9 month checkup 7/31 and he weighed 18lbs 13oz with his clothes on and a wet diaper. That puts him in the 38th% for weight. He is 28″ tall in the 43rd% and his head is 44cm in the 25th%. He’s definitely my most petite baby, even though he was the biggest at birth. The dr said he looks absolutely great! πŸ™‚ He wears mostly 9 month clothes with some 6 month items he can still fit and a few 12 month sleepers. Still in size 3 diapers but I have lots of 4s on hand. πŸ˜‰ The eczema is much less severe now than it was prior to our California trip (where it cleared up so much), so I just apply a good coat of Vaseline after baths. 

Dear God, thank You so much for Zane. He is such a blessing to our family and we just thank You for him. Please watch over and protect him. In Jesus’ name, amen.

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