I was beginning to think Levi would not be a self-weaning baby, and I was not so secretly FINE with that. I am in no hurry to wean him yet and he was adamant in his desire to nurse alllll day and had gotten even more attached to the boob in the last month since he learned to ask for it by patting my chest, tugging my shirt and occasionally making a “buh” sound. We are talking, I would be walking through the store pushing the cart and he’s in the seat patting my boob area and crying. (Less weird than it sounds).
Well, suddenly he is not interested. He stopped asking me frequently to nurse and started shaking his head “no” and even making his sound for “no” when I would ask if he wanted to nurse. Usually, I can ask him from another room if he wants a boob and he comes crawling as fast as he can.
This boob rejection started 4 days ago and it’s getting worse. Today I have almost no milk and am hardly feeling let-downs. On the occasions he does ask to nurse, he pops off before any milk even has a chance to come down.
Part of this is probably because he is obsessed with practicing walking! He can walk but chooses to crawl most of the time. He walked from the TV to the couch today which is across the room. He is getting really good at it but he lacks confidence just yet to give up crawling entirely. But he practices all day! Maybe he is letting go of nursing as a way to assert his new-found independence. Or maybe he’s just tired of it. And outgrowing it.
Honestly, I thought he may well be coming up on age 2 and me having to wean him. Instead, he’s doing it on his own. It’s a good thing, but also really hard for me. I don’t know if I’ll ever get to nurse a baby again and our breastfeeding relationship has been so great. I’ll miss that bonding time terribly!! I savor that time to snuggle Levi and I absolutely love that my body feeds him. I didn’t know if breastfeeding would work for me (us) and I’m so thankful that it did and so sad to see it end. It was hard when Tru weaned but I was pregnant again already so that just made sense. This though, this just feels hard. I know some people might not understand but it’s just the way I feel and that’s that.
Journey For My Baby 
I understand, but I felt the opposite of you. Maybe because I was nursing two but to me, it was getting a little weird for me. They were 14 months when they dropped their morning session, the last one. I did miss the snuggles but like you said, those last ones were so short and wriggly that I was getting more kicks than snuggles.
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Yes, the pulling off constantly is painful and not fun.
I still can’t imagine nursing two….
I think Levi still seems a little young for his age in certain ways. But I imagine that people think it’s pretty weird when he nurses in public. And I have almost no shame… I’ll nurse anywhere lol. Except at our regular church. I leave the room for their sake.
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That totally makes sense, he’s your baby!!! Every act of independence is a blessing for him, a bittersweet moment for you 😘😍💖
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Yep. So bittersweet. These moments pop up all the time, I’m learning.
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Weaning is so hard emotionally. I never understood it until I had my own kids. I love nursing Rachel too and she happens to love it as well. At the same time, I am counting down the months until she turns a year old and I can introduce her to cow’s milk. And also simultaneously dreading it. Lol. Weaning is complicated!
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I know…. it’s a whole bunch of emotions. As with most parenting things, I’m learning. 😉
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